Main Label: Life Update
Well, was "busy" again that I had not been updating this blog. XP The followings are what I wanted to say...
1. Asia Conference !!!
Yeah~! Now then talk about it... Was definitely glad that I use the whole of that Sunday for Asia Conference. I was late for the morning session, ended up sitting in the overflowing area. Then met CG for lunch and thought that got some free time after lunch, but nope. Nicole, Eliz, Meiyan and I went for the queue immediately after lunch. Well, we missed the lunch session with Dr. A.R. Bernard. The queue was long and squeeze-y, but not that boring though. Then finally able to sit in for the night session. Yang Yit (YY) and Ming Kai (MK) had chopped the seats for us. And then we had the Manhunt and Miss Pageant thing... I missed the result thing because I was queuing for the toilet! Yeah~! It was a rare scene that men's toilet needed a queue, long queue!
After I missed the result, it was finally the time for the final session for the Asia Conference! I was real glad that I stayed for this session. During the Praise & Worship, I realized that the lightings were so bright and beautiful! While singing the worship song, my mind was dreaming off of my wonderful idea of worshiping God; my mouth was singing, but my brain was dreaming. Then that's the time, somehow Holy Spirit made a "switch" on my head or something, suddenly my mind was like "opened" and immediately I came into the realm, the Presence of God where I could sing with heart touched and tears flowing down... The Presence of God was once again, strong~! I simply love this Presence of God.
Oh yeah~! I pre-ordered the Asia Conference DVD! Oh, btw, the Benny Hinn was a big news! and erm... a big topic for gossip too. Haha... Wonder how will I react if I was in the session... Some of my friends had concluded that the "certain part" by him will be "cut off", or taken out from the DVD... Sigh... That's the big difference between going to the Conference LIVE and watching the DVD. Duh...
2. The Stress of Building Fund: Money-not-enough... and no, not really.
The moment of pledging the Building Fund, is the moment of "full faith" and "full confidence" and "fully emotional" and etc. It was when my mind had calm down, had come back to once again the reality, that's when the moment I could feel the "stress" of giving money... :( I calculated the amount with the expectation that someone will return me the money owed. But he... delayed... That's the time, I was affected. Nevertheless, I did standby plan for such situation. I.e. converted my Ringgit Malaysia (RM) Savings into Singapore Dollar (SGD). But this is no joke! -- the exchange rate was a killer. I converted RM1,200 for only SGD500! Do you know how much Rm1,200 is? And do you know how little SGD500 is? I feel so stressed now... my friend commented that: "这样才可以感觉到痛／the pressure of Building Fund吗..." True lah... But still...
The truth is... until now, I had only fulfilled 1/3 of my November pledging... If the person didn't return me the money... I am gonna lose a lot of RM Savings! My heart is vomitting blood now! And now is the season of celebrations... Weddings, Birthdays and Christmas! I still spent some money for birthday gifts, wedding ang bao, birthday love offerings... Oh, the Asia Conference's offering, because it was meant for the poor and needy. I gave quite a blood-vomiting amount again~! And there's this Popular Mega Sales or something here in JB, I spend some money for DVD and books... Because, the sales was "so cheap!" Other than that, I still bought a lot of other DVD titles... One of it was the "十兄弟"!!! Hahaha... Erm... I actually like this series! Haha... oh, and forgetting not my medical report -- blood and urine test, and not to mention that I paid RM200 for the report that tells me bad news~~ :(
So Building fund and spending and spending... But somehow, the truth for now is, I still got some $$$ in my bank~! I am not that broke afterall... Haha... That's the "blessings of the Lord" I guess... I am not in lack I guess? But still again, I have not fulfilled my intended 75% of Building Fund for the first month! I really gotta stop spending whole lot of money and I really wanna make a big fullstop going to Singapore! Because that's my major spending area. Everything that was double cost to me because of the exchange rate... But what can I do? Now is December leh, an eventful month... Just realised that there's this Candlelight Service, and Christmas (and Eve) Service, both are different things... Really wanna go for these 2. And there's this Countdown and CG Appreciation at end of December... And I really don't wanna go for this... :( Passport's available pages are getting less... "Argh~~~!"
I feel heart pain... looking at my Bank's saving amount diminishing... I always wanted to save money... but everytime I saved some, it then come the Building Fund. My mind always think that "don't give too much." But when the "inspiration" or "confirmation" come, I left no other amount to give... I am not complaining about Building Fund. I know I had the choice of "to give, or not to give". And I chose to give. And the fact is, in my mind, I cannot imagine if I didn't commit for the building fund. It is plain empty. The moment I think that "if I don't participate for the building fund...", it is plain empty, nothing can continue after the phrase. And I can simply think nothing at all. That's one of the main reason, or drive (motivation) for me to commit for this building fund again, regardless of my faith situation, this is a significant reason / motivation.
I once told a friend of mine, and she pointed out that, "since your faith is not in the Lord already, why give to the building fund?" Well, I didn't tell her the perfect answer for this question, but it was stated in my previous statement: "I cannot imagine (anything) if I don't give to the building fund."
For now, what I am lack of doing is, to come out a plan and to calculate those $$$., including tithes matter as well. And also come out some backup plan or ideas like that... And also, really hope that I shall not spend so much for now. I really wish this... I really do not want to draw out $$$ from my Malaysia bank account liao. I wanna cry out loud~! *cry*
3. Lost of my precious (and maybe not so precious) Nintendo Dual Screen (NDS) Lite
Before blessings come in... I already lost something precious in the midst of this money spending season. I left my NDS after working out in the gym. *cry* I only realized it the moment I got home, parked my car, turned off the engine, then my mind became clear:"where is my NDS?" / "I don't think I brought back my NDS." The moment I came into the living room, I checked my bag. But that was the time, my mum talked to me and asked me, “二姐还没有去韩国啊，她刚刚打来。” Sorry, I lost my temper and raised my voice and answered, “我不懂！” This was the second time she asked me, she had asked me before in the day time. So my mind was thinking, "I really don't know, why you keep asking me. And you could tell me that she just called, why don't you ask her yourself?" So I was angry... because all I wanted to do that moment, was to search my bag for NDS. But the usual me... the moment I raised voice and replied, I already felt bad and regret...
Well, I couldn't find the NDS. So I called to the gym centre and had the person helped me. Think he was passionate to help too. But too bad, no good news. The next morning, I quickly went down to check again for myself, but no avail... :( So I here by announced that I had lost my bought-not-more-than-6-months-NDS-Lite. *cry out loud*~!
The guy who helped me was quite steady, he asked me not to worry and said that gotta wait for a few days... he was responsible for the "Lost & Found" records. And he told me that there were cases that stuff was lost and was found few days later... So I still got some hope lah...
Actually, the moment I knew that I lost the NDS, I wasn't that sad... One thing that I am not satisfied with the purchase of this NDS was, not long after the purchase I saw an article about a brand new model of NDS! To me, everytime is like that. The moment I bought certain gadget, that new version of gadget will come out not long after my purchase. My sis and I went to buy PSP that time was the same thing. We bought the fat PSP, and not long after, they came out the PSP Slim/Lite. We only found it "lucky"/"heng~ ar"/庆幸 is that, we bought the limited edition GOLD colour PSP. My sis always wanted black colour stuff, but luckily, we chose the gold colour PSP instead, otherwise, the fat PSP really got no value man!
So actually, the moment I knew that I lost the NDS, my mind was saying "nevermind, I can get a new one, the new model in the future." So it wasn't that bad afterall... It is only like “越想就越伤心” like that, "the more I think about it, the more I feel sad", then I began to feel so sad about it lor. But what can I do? I did all I could to try to find it back already... Ai... it was so new... not more than 6 months...
Actually, this was the second time that I lost the NDS. The first time was also in the gym... I realized that I lost it when I was in the locker room, so I immediately went back to the treadmills to look for it, an old uncle was using the machine that I used before. I went there to look for it. His body language was kind of rude, he was like "ooi", and pointed the NDS on the machine, and he seemed impatient... He was running then. But I felt such a relief and I thanked him. He didn't smile nor said anything. I took back my NDS and left... But this time... not that lucky anymore... I only realized it the moment I got home...
The usual me will do a feedback or study or reflect when bad things happened or I made a mistake... I figured out the reasons that contributed to the lost of NDS were as followed:-
1. The NDS was in black colour.
When I bought the NDS, the choices for nice colour aren't that much. White colour looks like iPod, other colours were like "erm..." like that. So I chose black colour in the end. But the colour was so easily "camouflage" to the machines like that. I tell you, if the colour was not in black, it could really help for me not to miss it or neglected it. But other colours are not that nice...
2. Too much gadgets and stuff.
I carry too many gadgets to gym, to go and do cardio... 1. Handphone, 2. MP3 player, 3. handheld game. My pockets are always full... Not only that, I also carried gloves, towel, locker keys... see? So many things.
3. Don't have a bag to carry everything
Actually, I did have a bag that I kept my gloves. But it was a little too small to keep those gadgets inside. so not enough space to put in games, handphone and MP3 player. I was thinking, if I could get myself a slightly bigger bag, big enough to keep those stuff, it will be good. But then, toooo late for now... :( It could have helped.
4. Have not getting used to go to gym
Well, this is another problem that linked to other stuff also. Until now, I have not been getting used my "working out" lifestyle. I always got distracted by something, that resulted I can only go to gym like once a week like that. I really feel frustrated at times.
5. My mind was not clear
Many stuff stuck in my head, many things that I wanted to "voice out", etc. etc. I wasn't focusing and stuff like that.
So all the point can only summarized into one word: "careless" ><:; My sis just said that I had given someone a Christmas present~! What a way to put it man~! Haha... Wonder who is the lucky guy/gal. Hah!
Dear God, I am not giving up the hope that I can still get back my NDS. I pray that the whoever is holding my NDS will return it to the Clark Hatch counter. However, if there is a purpose for my NDS to be gone, I pray that You will bless the person who is holding it. May it be a surprise from You, let it be his/her Christmas gift like my sis said. If, my NDS can help the person by any ways, or can change his/her life even the slightest manner, I am most willingly to let it happen! God, I am not a hypocrite here to tell You that I don't want Your blessings~! Of course I wanted those blessings~! God, I pray that as I give upon the building fund, please had my blessings back "real soon"! Haha... God You know that I got so many more things to buy and I wanted them badly. God, You never fail to surprise me with new ways. I am here waiting for your surprises again, surprise me! Oh God. Thank You. With name of Jesus, Amen~! Haha...
