Woohoo~! I am Fasting Now!!!

Life Update

Woohoo~! I hadn't been fasting for more than 3 years. But recently, I... fasted "just like that"! Am really really glad and with that kind of abundance joy, I couldn't wait to blog it down! Indeed, words cannot describe how I feel...

~ Being the Devil ~
Haha... The first paragraph is only an status update... Now I wanted to write down my down feelings... Recently a bad thing happened to me... I was like "being the devil", I felt so so sad & angry over this issue. It had been like a month already... I could still feel the hurt, and such is indeed a "daily hurt" to me now. But everyday, when I think that I could still feel the effect from the issue, I also know that the person whom I hurt the most, too, may have feel the pain too. I am really really, terribly sorry for the damage that I did upon the person. I will continue to wait for your forgiveness. "I'm sorry. Please forgive me." And I truly treasure the friendship between you...

Your words cut me deep. But I know that I hurt you too. You say, "you did it again!" I was really speechless. You were right, from your point of view, "I did it again." But from my side... sigh... I totally regret what I did, and I definitely learned a great lesson here. All I ever wish now, is to restore back our "special" friendship, and I promise, I promise I will not make any stupid mistake of gossiping & MISTRUST. Definitely, I will not fall into the trap of mistrust anymore.

You asked, "What kind of Christian are you?" You know, you're the first person who actually said that to me. The hurt is unexplainable. Things were not mean like this... But still, maybe you did sounded the alarm bell for me in my Christianity walk. Maybe... maybe this is one of the reasons that contribute to my fasting action...

Indeed, just amazed by the statement from my Pastor, he always say, "it takes years to build up the trust, but only take one stupid mistake to collapse the whole thing." Well, that's the strength of trust, mutual trust, and that's where the weaknesses lie too. I learned it, I totally regret it, and I hope you can gimme your final, final chance on me. I promise, I promise and I promise I will respect you as a very close & special friend.

"Forgiveness & re-trust, is all I ever asking from you now..."

~ The Lost of A Great Mother - My Grandma （外婆）~
I wanted to blog this down, but was delayed and delayed and delayed... Until now, I forgot what I want to say about it. Well... We all believe that she left us for good. For the condition that she suffered... I felt bad sometimes. About 2 years ago, 阿公 left us. It was really an unexpected event for all of us, even though the "signs" were there. But all of us were "lack of experience" to sense that. Ever since the lost, Grandma has become a totally different person in her physics and looks. She was so weak...

Then about 1 year ago, her only (younger) sister left too. We call her "Yee-po" （姨婆）one. Before Yee-po left, we also made a visit to her. The first time I looked at her, I really could not recognize her, I didn't even sure its her, until San-yee (三姨）asked us to call her, then I opened my mouth and called... Not long after... we received the news... The whole family didn't want to inform grandma about this. But somehow, deep down, it seemed that she knew...

But anyways, everything is alright now. She left us in peace and with great blessings! That's what the Chinese believe. ;)

~ Back to Fasting & God ~
After the issue of "being devil", God had been very good to me... He was there to comfort me, told me to lift up this whole issue upon Him and stuff like that. He always provide "word of seasons" or "word of 'just-in-time'" for me. We were talking about "team", and there were one Service, Pastor Kong ended the sermon with a short story about Michael Jordon. He said, reporters commented, "having Michael Jordon in your team is like having God in your team." Pastor then add, "God can be in your team too." I was greatly encouraged by the statement. And now I believe that "God is in my team". Ahaha...

The next great thing that God provided for me, was the opportunity to fast! I used to have the habit of fasting when I was very active in Church back then. Somehow, I was really excited about fasting. Ever since when "Fasting" was taught by my leader (Janice Seow) in Bible Study, I couldn't wait to fast!!! I could still remember the very first time of my fasting experience... :)

Anyways, a side story. Recently I happened to know 2 very very close friends in gym. Shall talk about them more next time. The point I want to make here is, I somehow told one of them, Jojo about my desire to fasting... Can't really sure why I brought this up to her, maybe I was too comfortable with her... or maybe I knew that she fasts too.

So as I told her, she encouraged me and shared with me the stuff about fasting. She told me she believed in me that I could find the chance to fast again. Nether did I know, the chance could come so fast! Thank you my dear friend, thank you for believing in me. :D

I went to the Service last week (29th Nov 2009), Pastor Kong told us that he was in the midst of fasting, and he would break his 21 days fast on 30th November. And somehow, my chance to fast started on the first day of December, i.e. the next day after he broke fast.

Generally, I fast for 8am to 8pm, 12 hours. I allow myself to drink water, plain water only. Kind of a "simple fasting" for me. And it is "convenience" too. Haha... But still, I assure you, this is not an easy task at all! You gotta go through the time of "lunch time but no lunch", "dinner time but no dinner", these are the time you will feel very much starvation to the extent that my hand would shake because of physical weakness. And the constant feel of hunger is no joke! And to me, the greater challenge is, to avoid letting my family knows about it. Because they may not think what I think, and they will strongly against it. So... :( I choose not to tell them for now.

Usually, the very first 3 days of fasting are the most difficult period, your body is at the stage of "getting used to it". I experienced a very strong "hand shake" during the 3rd day. But after the 3 days, the effect of hunger was not so strong already. It was kind of like "getting used" to it already... :)

On the 4th day of my fasting, I saw Pastor Kong posted a "note" titled "The Power of Fasting" in Facebook. I couldn't wait to read. And after reading, once again, I was greatly encouraged & inspired. To me, this is like another "word of season / word of 'just-in-time' " from my God again. Now, I was so so happy regardless of the stuff that I am going through now. :D I really thank God for everything! Anyway, this is the link for the article (both links lead to the same article):

http://www.facebook.com/notes/kong-hee/the-power-of-fasting/196460945684

http://www.konghee.com/www/2009/12/power-of-fasting/

During fasting, I always try to submit myself totally to God, i.e. extremely obedience. I will listen to what the Voice say and be ready to obey. During those period of seldom going to Church, no fasting, etc, my pride (the negative, bad pride) has risen. This is the result of the increase in my selfishness, anger problem and etc. That's why, I wanted to fast to "humble myself before God", that's the biblical purpose for fasting. To me, lack of humility is the root of selfishness and anger problem. Because it is all the bad & negative pride, you only think for yourself, and don't think on other peoples' perspective.

I really don't want to be a selfish person. I always wanted to tell everyone, this:

"Everyone is selfish, but I happen to be the least selfish one."

And I can even say this:

"If a person say 'you're selfish', actually he/she is the one who is really selfish. A selfless person will never comment anyone who is being selfish, because with his/her character, 'selfish' is never a word appear in his/her dictionary."

That is why, I always restrain myself from commenting people being selfish, because that will only reflect my own selfishness. But recently... I commented people being selfish... This is so not me... I felt so bad for my action. I really don't want to be this kind of person... :( And really,

"How you see others, is how you see yourself."

Therefore, we really gotta be wise & think twice, three-times before we comment or judge about people. That's why, I always don't talk bad things about people. Ahaha... And I always try to look at the bright side of the hill, trying to find the good points and strength in people. ;)

In addition, I don't have so much anger problem in the past, I mean I can control my emotion well, every friends see me as a nice person without getting angry... Though, I do get angry sometimes, and my anger usually subsides quickly. But not now recently, especially in this year, I lost control many times already... :( I was thinking, maybe the issue is something that really matters to me, that's why I get angry easily. But nevertheless, I will not let this be an excuse to face my anger problem / management.

I always want to fast to humble myself before God, and nothing else, that's the sole purpose of fasting. But immediately, God would tell me to fast for something else. I told God, I will fast solely on the purpose of self-humble. But God would say "that's enough". And He wants me to do something else, and He will remind me these 2 key words -- "Total submission" or "Absolute obedience", and so I gotta obey. This time round, God wanted me to fast for "Forgiveness". First, asking forgiveness from Him, and second, "Forgiveness" from people whom I hurt recently. And so I did... :)

I had been fasted for 8 days. And I really liking it. I truly wish I can keep up with the habit of fasting. I love fasting, but still, that doesn't mean it is always easy for me. It is very very tough to fast... Really. During fasting, I would always think that "I don't want to fast!" But still, as I remembered the purpose for my fasting, I would get back the desire & drive to carry on, no matter what... I really thankful to God for what he has been doing for me. :D

My 2 New Soul Mates~! Sony Vaio & HTC Touch Diamond2

Main Label: Life Updates

~ I'm Back After MIA From This Blog... ~
OOPS! Neither did I know... time really flies~~~! Its been 2 months that I did not update his blog! A new record for me... Well, should I say, this is another blog about "losing focus" ba... But before that...

~ My First Soul Mate ~
oh... btw, I just realized that this is the very first time that I am using my First Soul Mate, aka Sony Vaio VGN-FW46GJ/B to blog!!! Woohoo~~~! I got my most beloved First Soul Mate on the 15^th of August 2009, in the Bersada PC Fair! I went there with my sis, Finn.

Well... got a little story about getting this soul mate... Its all my clumsiness and ended up 摆乌龙 lor... haha... Mistaken that a deposit of RM500 had been given to the sales person but ended up realizing we haven't given to them! And was a bit angry... and then when we realized it our own, we felt paiseh lor...

Also, we got a nice optical mouse as Papa's Birthday present. And sis also got herself a HP printer...

A sad story to note... I finally got My First Soul Mate on 2015^th August 2009, I was not able to collect on the day of PC Fair because no more stock already. So we rescheduled it to collect on 20^th August. So happy... But... My Sony Vaio went to "Blue Screen of Death" on the 8th day after the collection! I was so angry and was really like "the world falls apart" like that... How would you feel when your newly bought lappy goes to blue screen of death on the 8th day of purchase???

After sadness & anger, it must be the time of "get back to reality" and solve the problem... Thank-God-ly, I did follow the instruction to create "Recovery Discs" the first few times I log into Window Vista. The 4 Recovery Discs actually included the Window Vista Setup programs and other backup tools to restore the lappy back to its default factory setting. So I used it to restore my new lappy... Everything was back to the default factory setting, and I gotta reinstall those "just installed programs" lor.

I googled about the problem and realized that what made my innocent Sony Vaio went to blue screen of death could be the Apple Quicktime thing. I was not sure whether this was the true or not. However, my lappy did went dying after I installed iTunes & Quicktime. So this time round, I would not dare to install Apple product... I really got the phobia. Instead, my sis introduced me to use VLC Media Player. I installed it, and man! It was good! My blog can play the background mp3 formatted music too!

Initially, I needed Quicktime so that my blog can playback mp3. But somehow, with VLC, it is much easier now! I am so happy! This is the only gain, or lesson learned from my lappy's blue screen of death... Nevertheless, I should be grateful. :)

~ My Second Soul Mate ~
And on 7th October 2009, I got myself another soul mate! -- HTC Touch Diamond 2!!! Woohoo~~~ Irene Tan YY, a new friend I knew from Clark Hatch helped me to get it first as she worked there... I'm thankful for her help! Haha... And oops, haven't got the chance to return her $$$ yet...

Having this HTC phone got its pros and cons. I am still at the stage of exploring & getting familiarized with the phone... It is kind of like my first PDA phone too. So there are many things still new to me. I only have one thought in my mind, i.e. "can I speak to a HTC staff about this phone? I have many many questions to ask!!!"

When I first got this Second Soul Mate, I realized that we have to make times and invest $$$ on this technology thing... IT stuff... One cannot be so far away from IT nowadays. So to me, it is an investment for me to upkeep with technology... I would want to use this as the starting point to explore all other things, such as Windows Mobile 6.1, TouchFLO 3D, etc.

In the beginning, I really liked my Second Soul Mate very much... Well, simply because it is my new toy! However, as I keep on exploring the phone, I figured that this phone is not as flexible as I thought. I personally like things that are flexible, more options, etc. Because I am kind of like a niche person, niche market, I like things to be more personalized in my own style, own way and own habit, even to the extent of little details do matter to me. Therefore, I really don't like gadgets that are rigid, limited options and lack of flexibility. But as for now, I will say that everything is still under "exploration stage", so maybe the problem can solved, and new features can be discovered ba... And I am not sure whether it is the problem of Windows Mobile or HTC phone itself...

This phone is a little slow... which at times can be annoying. And then I tried my friend's iphone, and it the speed was like instantaneously, indeed faster than Touch Diamond 2. :( I kind of like iphone now... haha... And also, I am still looking forward for Sony Ericsson Satio^TM! Haha... ILIKE!

But as for now, it is still a nice phone to use... I like the messaging options, it provides many input methods for me to choose. But don't know why, sometimes the typed letter can auto capitalized and sometimes cannot. For example, the first letter of the first word, it will automatically capitalized, but sometimes, it just stays as small letter... Don't know why... I still need time to explore lor...

Oops... very long entry already... I shall stop now liao.

Too Many Things To Do ---- I Am Losing Focus!!!

Main Label: Life Update

Argh... Again, too many stories happened!!! But... can I ever write them down? Sigh... Sometimes, I really wonder what is the purpose for me to set up this blog? I could remember that all the while I always wanted to write blog, to write down all my "Dramatic" stories in life, so that I can remember them, and I am so afraid that I will forget about them... With encouragement from friends, I started this blog. But I always don't have the time to update those interesting stories... Yes... My life has upgraded from "somewhat dramatic" to "totally drama-mama"! Argh~~!!!

~ ~ Too Many Things, Too Much Commitments, and Now Losing Focus ! ! ! ~ ~

~ 1. Err... HR Issues? ~
I had been busy with ... err... hmm... should I say "HR" -- Human relationship? And this eventually got me into doing some really stupid stuff... to the extent that I almost cannot forgive myself! Well... that's the time, Jesus came and challenged me again. Immediately, I gotta try my best to forgive myself... I am glad that things are rather coming to a happy ending as of until now... I thought it gonna have certain bad ending... But...

I always joke my life as a TV series... 电视连续剧... And I tell my friends this story is coming to final episode... and hoping for good ending... And... Season 2 is on the way~! With new character~! Ahaha... Yeah~! Charot!

~ 2. Angel @ work! ~
Did a super duper drama mama angel work... Confidential. ;)

~ 3. Stock Exchange ~
Started Buying Stock Exchange! Wish me good luck! I think the timing is rather right for me to go in to the market. But there're still a lot of things for me to learn, and I have yet to find the time to do the study and research, etc.

My father was very supportive and glad that I finally doing this... I asked him how he registered his online quotes service, because I wanted to buy shares too... Not long after, he introduced his broker to me. Actually, this is the way we communicated lah... haha... I hint hint him, then he would just bring his broker to me... Then this broker, Louise, is an old guy, helped me to register lor. He is kind and helpful and informative... Well informative in a sense that it's a little winding... Haha... But still, I am thankful.

I was told to open a personal current account in the bank, so that I can get the cheque book for the purpose of paying. And yeah~! I got my very personal cheque book for the first time! Ahaha...

Ok, ok... the point I want to make here is all about my beloved father's reaction... I got my share-buying account, it comes with number "121", my family love the number "21", so Papa was like... "Wah... you got such a nice number..." and he was smiling... Then I told him my current account number... He like lagi more happy lor... "Wah... also nice number leh... You asked for them to give this number for you, is it? Or... " Then I replied, "no lah, it so happened to get this number when I went to open account lor... Didn't ask them to reserve this number for me one lah..."

I think, to him, it is like good beginning lor... "好兆头!"

Then the next is about my mama... We (Papa, Mama & I) so happened to watch TV together in the morning while having breakfast, the show was “早安你好！” then it talked about investment, saying the best way to earn money, as in term of earning the interest, is by stock exchange. My Mama always put her $$$ in Fixed Deposit (FD), which Papa always knows that this is not a good method. So he emphasised it again. Because of the "economic tsunami" last year, the FD rate now is greatly reduced. Then Mama now also decided to put $$$ in stock exchange, she asked papa to buy for her, of which then, Papa refer her to me. Then recently, she finally gimme her $$$ and I transferred it into my account already...

I personally don't have much $$$ in my bank account, I only took out a little to do the "trying". Papa had asked my bro-in-law， Liang Jun（LJ) to help me with this thing. LJ was shocked the first time he heard that, because papa is the one he learned a lot from... But anyway, LJ introduced me to buy Pelikan... I wanted to buy 1 only, but my father said "buy 1 no use one, buy 2"... so I bought 2 shares lor... and of which, like left no more money for the rest liao...

Then after I transferred Mama's $$$... I thought I can "cheat" a little of those $$$ to buy my lappy... haha... But... not long after, Papa asked me to buy this shares using Mama's $$$... He asked me to call to broker and buy... He said 7 shares... But I hesitated...Then he was like, "what are you waiting for?" I replied, "7 shares? That's about 90% of Mama's $$$ liao." But eventually, I called and did the transaction already. Haha... A businessman's mindset is indeed different lor...

And now, Mama is going to gimme more $$$ to buy... Heh heh... I will try my best not to devour the $$$ for myself... haha... Oops... erm... Well... "just kidding"... I got "Integrity" one ok! Haha...

~ 4. Craving Sooo Many for Sony Products~
I am so materialistic lately... Especially I am craving for Sony products:-
1. Sony Vaio VGN-FW46GJ/B
2. Sony Ericsson Satio^TM (not released yet, or maybe C905, or W995)
3. PSP 3000!!! -- maybe red colour! And with the GPS thing...
4. Sony Bravia S20 Series - Orange colour
5. And forgetting not, PS3 16G !!!
(Lazy to put up the pictures... XP)
See that? But right now, I sooo sooo sooo want the Sony Vaio lappy... I need a super duper powerful lappy for my multi-tasking life man! There's a PC Fair on mid August here in JB, Bersada Conventional Hall I think. I definitely want to get it at ALL COST! Haha... As for Satio^TM, it is still not out yet... so gotta wait... Argh... I need more $$$ !!!

Yeah, I am not so much of a "iLife" person, but indeed, I am a "Sony Style" person, you see. ;)

"I Style" ;)

~ 5. Venture into New Business ! ~
My sis, Finn wanted to venture into T-shirt business... She kind of like feels that I am always "eng eng cheng cheng" (means "busy" in Hokkien) like that, so she asked me to help her. But of course, not because I am available so she asked me lah, but because 1. I am her brother, 2. I am clever. Haha... We did travel to KL before to look at the shirt printing machine before... But... it is not so ideal to buy it now.

At first, I only helped her as on the superficial level only, but now, I think I came out a pretty good name for our business, and that makes me now very driven for it! Haha... I hope things can work out good, better and best! Prosper, prospering & prosperous!

Prosper, prospering & prosperous in my 1. stock exchange, 2. new shirt business, and 3. Sony products!!! Ahaha...

~ 6. PeiO and Ah Fer Came In JB Again ~
Yeah~! I asked PeiO, and finally they came again! This time I introduced my new friend, Wayne to them. We were having great time together! Lunching, shopping, dinnering, nite-time teaing, and PeiO can do her auntie-hobby here -- prawn fishing! or "prawning"? Haha... I still cannot believe that I got friends who love such hobby! So auntie... Haha... But, but, but... she managed to hook 3 prawns... And this is not her best record lor...

I shared with them what I had gone through with the HR thing during a long journey to the "legendary" Japanese restaurant. The traffic was slow because it was after work time, going-home time, so I managed to tell my long long story during the long drive... Haha...

And yes, the Japanese food was nice! When we got there, we gotta wait for about 1 hour, and that's the time we went, err... I mean PeiO went prawning... Haha... Think PeiO got the photos for the day... Will ask her to upload into Facebook ba... But she is like forever busy...

Oh yes, btw, PeiO's boy boy proposed to her! I first got this news from reading Ah Fer's Multiply blog. Was a little upset that she didn't tell me in person, but its ok. After I verified with her, I am still happy for her! "HAPPILY EVER AFTER" to you PeiO, you are always my 女神!

~ 7. Listening to Secret Garden music ~
I happened to find this song calls, "Song from a Secret Garden" from my data, it was sent by Ah Fer via gmail like long time ago. I listened to it and realized that I totally like it! I spent one whole Sunday trying to put it into my blog site. I was like wasting the whole day and finally found out the problem and solved it already. Now I hate box.net! It was given me the biggest problem in putting the music in my blog. The link it provided was not a mp3 format. That's why cannot play music. I uploaded the song to "google" site and it works eventually!

Anyway, I was shopping again and happened to found this song! With only a little time of hesitation, I bought this album from Secret Garden. It is a "Deluxe Version", like a compilation, it comes with 2 CDs and 1 DVD. It cost about RM80 for the whole package, after Popular Bookshop member discount. At first I thought I was buying this song for RM80. But thank-God-ly nope, I fell in love with many of the songs inside. Yeah~! Glad that I owned it now.

~ 8. Continuing My Lasam Life Now ~
There are many issues in my life that are right now in "Keep In View" (KIV) mode. At the same time, there are also many things waiting for me to do... especially work stuff. And now gotta venture into new business... Wish me all the best and pray for me ya! Gotta get busy now! Will defintely update again!

A Long Waited Update But Hope that it is Not So Long Entry

Main Label: Life Updates

~ An Unusual Being ~

Woohoo~! Finally got myself a little time to do a long waited update... And oops again... The whole of May I didn't blog!!! Sigh... I am overly committed with much stuff in my life... But today I am somewhat so exited! This morning woke up just "fresh" and full of energy even though I slept about 2am last night! Well... there's something about me that I always wanted to tell people... that I really have an unusual, funny thoughts mechanism, or behavioral mechanism that is totally opposite from the usual way... Like, in this case, if people lack of sleep, they tend to appear low energy and stuff... But for me now, I am way too excited and energitic that I don't even know what's going on with me... I remembered PeiO, my 女神... she is of similar to me in this case... If she lacks of sleep, she is like a crazy woman! Haha... energitic, lots of crappy words coming out from her... Well... I am kind of like that now too... Ahaha... And that just gimme the energy, the "courage" to do some blogging now... Ahaha...

~ Drama Mama Lieh ~
Again... Too much stuff and events and stories happened in between my last blog... Really again... it is like I just can't cope up by blogging those stories down... My life is changing from "somewhat dramatic" to "really dramatic" now... And the episodes just keep on adding on and on, there's no playback! No rewind! I wanted to write down a dynamic episode, but the next moment, another dynamic event occurred! Ahhh... too much stories to tell... too little time to jog them down...

~ Emo Elmo Lieh ~
There was this time, I was really down and "Emo Elmo"... I browsed photos in my hand phone memories... those pictures was like "come to life" to me... every picture brought me back to the moment that how I wished I could go back time and dwell at that moment again... And that's the time, I realized... memory is very important to me... Technology are so advanced that you can capture all kinds of memories via photo-taking, video-recording, voice-recording, blogging down and stuff... But technology hasn't been so advanced yet that it can bring you back to the moment... Aigh... maybe it is for the good...

~ Shanghai Trip Updates??? ~
I wanted to blog down, to record down my trip to Shanghai, a moment of great experience & relax & etc. etc. But... guess nope... at least is not now... I hope I can still remember all the stuff that I had learned during the 9 days trip... Well again... a lot of things happened during the trip... It is indeed "happening"! Other than site-seeing, shopping, enjoy delicious food, buying & spending, feeling cheated by buying those stuff, relaxing and stuff... Our group also had "internal problems"... I am quite amazed by myself, about my ability to analyze, to understand people within a very short period of time! Well... somehow I think I am getting better in doing tims... Aw... my mind now is generating lots of possibility now... About how I can use such talent to change the world... for better of course... but... aigh... My God, my God arh...

~ Got My First Ever Principal Credit Card ~
Yeah~! Finally I had gotten a principal credit card for myself~! Yeah~! I myself didn't apply for it... The Maybank decided to gimme one because of certain criteria of which... I forgot! Ahaha... To think that last time I was trying to apply Eon Bank credit card but was rejected! Hmmmp! But this time round, I received a call from Maybank KL when I was at home... The lady on phone informed me about this credit card... As usual, I was skeptical about the call... afterall, phone-call cheating is very common... But then it is not a cheating phone-call afterall! The lady told me there's no "terms and condition apply", no minimum usage required, I am free to use whenever Iwant or Ican choose not to use it at all. And there's no annual fees stuff too! But... who knows what will happen in the future?!

Nevertheless... I am grateful for a credit card like that too... I always wanted my own credit card, and to be indepentant from my lovely dad. It is definitely good to have a supplement card from daddy... but he was complaining about not returning him the $$$! Ahaha...

~ New Lappy?! Definitely! ~
Now with my credit card... erm... 2 credit cards! I am planning to buy a laptop! Sony Vaio! Seires FW something... Now waiting for a PC Fair or something... Yeah~! Buy via instalment! Hallelujah~!

~ New Way of Blogging?! ~
Well... until now you may have noticed... my different style of blogging... I wanted to try new style of blogging too... My previous way was way too meticulous, although that's me. Yet still... it is time consuming and I am always looking for a quiet time for me to write down a very detailed entry, and of which, such time is very difficult to get... So I am writing more stories... like a summary, by minimizing those little details, and of which, are still very important to me though...

Another reason for blogging in this manner is because... well... you know... I am now very excited & energitic due to lack of sleep (LOS)... so I didn't care much and "just do it" lor...

Yes! This style of blogging is extremely disorganized and messy and raw and blah blah... But... that's what blogging is all about... Your style, your mood, your attitude, your literature, etc... all blended in, or mixed into your blog entry... Don't have to make any sense sometimes, because there are times it is not the stories, or "what is going on?" that words are trying to capture, but the "emo", "feelings", "memory" that words are trying to capture, you know what I mean? Cos I am now really can't be bothered about how people reading this entry, I am aware that it can be misleading... but... still... I am "just do(ing) it"! Ahaha...

Going to do some work now... I wish I can blog more and more and more! Do more and more and more! Life is not boring to me, but life is too busy for me! XP

Life Can't Cope Up with My Blog Updates

Main Label: Life Updates

Haha... Time really flies when I'm busy living with my life with all sorts of funny incidents and stories keep on going around my life and eventually I kind of like "lost contact" with my recent memories and therefore failed to update my blogs with the freshness of those stories.. It was like I was so busy living with those interesting, somewhat dramatic life and it was so "intense" that I left not much time blogging them down... Ahaha... funny, funny...

Now I really don't know where to start... Hmmm... Okay, got it...

~ A Social-able Year of Reunion with Old Friends & Getting Know New Friends! ~
In the beginning of this year, I happened to read a source of Chinese Horoscope about this year. I read mine, of which is "monkey". It said that this year happened to be a very socializing year for me of the possibility of getting back, or reunion with old friends and the chances of getting new friends. And also, in the middle year, there will have higher chance of getting attached!

Well.. I find it very true for the initial statements... Until now, I had met lots of old friends, and those hard / seldom to see one. There was once I went to Singapore Immigration Centre and I met Chew Peng, my secondary school band member! She was rushing to work, so we didn't talk much... And in my previous entries, I already mentioned that I had met Samuel, Haw Chon and Wei Yuan... Also, it so happened that Haw Chon had teamed with Cher Sie, my secondary school classmate to gimme a "surprise" Birthday celebration! I was touched and "surprised" by their "bloated-out surprise"! Haha... But that was another story...

Then in the Facebook (FB), Yi Wen posted our secondary school photos that eventually attracts all those classmate to drop a message. And because of that, we all had added one another in the FB! It brought back lots and lots of memories of those school times...

I guess those were enough to explain that I indeed had met many old friends... So what about new friends? Recently, I met Wayne Sam in the Clark Hatch Fitness Centre. Wayne was a friend of my sis, Finn. She asked him to add me in the FB and gym together with me. And he did. The first time we talked, he was like saying every time he saw me in the gym and he commented this "Hmmm... this guy really look like Finn." Ahaha... So I told him "so you must approach me first mah because you can recognize me..." At first, I saw his FB profile photo and it was quite difficult to recognize him, so I asked him to approach me first...

I always gym alone, attending those classes alone. And of course, I don't mean that I am being lonely and pathetic lah... At times, I prefer to be alone while working out, I can be more focus and time saving. I really don't like those social talk with people there, because it is really diverting my focus and wasting my time. And again, of course I am not rude enough not to talk to anyone who approach me lah. Then now came along Wayne who spices up my gym time. And because we have a lot of common interests and stuff, within shortest possible time, we became very good friend and gym buddy lor... Haha... Now we always go to classes together like Body Pump and Body Combat. And because now got someone accompanying and encouraging me to go for other classes, I attended Body Balance recently and found myself like it very much! Though I still can't balance lah... Haha... In fact, I find that Body Balance is really of good help for me to do some work while working... With some balance body gesture, I can do the work with more effectiveness!

Then there's this instructor from Philippines, his name is Dan. He is the one who teaches Body Combat and Body Pump. He talked to me first and then he introduced his friend Ryan to me. Ryan was a member of the Clark Hatch too. And actually, Wayne had already made friend with Ryan and Dan before I did. Yesterday was a public holiday for us. We actually met up for lunch, (Wayne wasn't with us for the lunch because he had something on) movie and dinner. There's a total of 6 of us. The 3 Philippines Instructor, Dan, Ireen and Edward, Ryan, Wayne and I. Ireen is the Body Balance instructor and Edward is teaching Pilate, Yoga and Body Balance too. Because of common interests, we get along very well... Ahaha...

~ Movie: Fast & Furious 4 ~
And this week I was suppose to meet Samuel for a movie and it ended up he watched a movie with the 6 of us in Tebrau Jusco. So the 7 of us watched "Fast & Furious 4" which was in fact a very good, well-done movie. I was surprised and touched by the movie the fact that the story has certain depth in it... of friendships, loves, betrayal, and stuff... At first, I thought this kind of movie is all about car racing, get a dumpy storyline to fit in those racing scenes or car chasing scenes like that. But this movie is not so, it is packed with interesting story with twist at certain moments and with those really exciting speeding scenes. I find it the last scenes of car chasing in the hidden mine area is something very new. I simply enjoyed the movie perfectly!

After the movie, Samuel gotta leave to do his own stuff and back to the 6 of us, went for a dinner at the famous Nasi Lemak shop at Permas Jaya. My stomuch wasn't feeling well, but as a courtesy, I joined them to eat the famous Nasi Lemak. And the fact is, that was my first time there, so I would like to try it out. But to my taste, I don't really like it leh... Maybe because I heard so much about it and had high expectation towards it... Or maybe because my stomuch wasn't good that time... Anyway, we continued our "crazy" topics there and Ireen kept asking me to talk... "So 'Willy', tell us something about yourself" she said... And yah, they called me "Willy"... Haha... I got a new name... Anyways, my mind was empty and I couldn't really talk much... Ouch, stomachache, can't talk lah.. .Haha... Anyways, we called it a day about 9pm++.

The moment I got home and read an SMS from Phyllis... OOPS! I was not supposed to eat my dinner because I had previously promised to do a blood test the next day (i.e. today)! Aiya... to think that I was considering whether to eat or not just now... Sigh... Nevertheless, have to postpone the blood test...

The Dan, being the natural leader in the gang of 6, has a habit of sms-ing us a "motivational message of the day". As a way of "returning favours", or "showing off", if you prefer to say that, heh heh... I "counter" back a quote to him. And this morning, I prepared a message for him too... Just waiting for him to send me first, and in fact, he did. The moment I read the message, I was so shocked! It was the exact quote from Oprah Winfrey that I prepared this morning! How in the heaven could such coincidence be happening! You know, “买马票都没有将准啦！” "Buy 4D also no such accurate lor!" That makes me wonder, maybe I do come with certain psychic power afterall... Haha... Anyways, here's the quote:

"Doing your best at this moment puts you in the best place for the next moment."

- Oprah Winfrey.

Well, I guess those new friends are more than enough to illustrate my "really"-social life already? Haha... Let's see will I get attached this mid-year... Ahaha...

~ Revelation of Love ~
Sigh... When I thought this chapter of my life (no, I am not refering to "revelation of love" here) is coming to an end, then there it comes a glimpse of hope that light up the possibility of next chapter... new episode... Sigh... somehow my life is full of so many possibility of interesting story and even though, there are so many interesting story going on with my life now... Haha... I do have a very positive mindset afterall... Wayne commented that my sis and I are high EQ people with very positive thoughts... Haha... I am just overly positive and keep on imagine stuff lah...

I always say this, and this became my very own favorite quote:

"He who loves much, possesses much."

- Guru Willy... Ahaha... that's me.

And maybe because I really love, and love a lot, I do possess those I love in one way or another. And also because, "love" and "pain" are related, I suffered pain as well at times. Love more, hurt more; Love deeper, the cut is deeper... But all and all, that does not stop me from loving... :D

Recently, just recently... something stirred in my heart, and that was what I referred in the sub-topic "Revelation of Love", that brings me back to the love of God once again... Hah! Somehow, when you think that "God is not in the office", "He is in the workspace working right next to you!" Or if you would prefer, "He is working right inside your very heart..." In fact, God was speaking to me in the beginning of the movie yesterday... Something had troubled me and I couldn't focus on the movie, and so I told God to gimme the peace and stuff, so that I can focus and enjoy the movie. Then He comforted me, giving me the peace I needed. I didn't feel the goose bump, the intense of God's presence wasn't there as well. But there's this "certain love feelings" that flows out from my heart and was telling me something, thus eventually settled my heart so that I could enjoy the movie...

Last night, as inspired by many sources of thoughts and stuff... I came into this "Revelation of Love", and when the full sentence is finally formed, it somehow sounded so familiar as if I had thought of this before... Sigh... I am really a forgetful person lor... Here's the quote:

"It is funny that in love-ship, we tend to find the one and only Mr. & Mrs. Right that worth us giving up everything and anything in life just to be with them, yearning for the 'Happily Ever After'. You search high and low, and finally... and (of course) surprisingly, you've truly found him / her, someone that worth so much that you are willing to give up your faith, your family, your friend, your money, time and effort, your future and stuff... and that's the time you will realize that the one and only Mr. & Mrs. Right of yours, will not ask you to give up your faith, your family, your friends, your future, your everything just to be with him / her! I'm not sure whether this is the 'true love', But one thing I am sure is that, this is indeed 'the love in its purest form'. Oh, God I'm contented! Really..."

- Guru Willy, and that's me... Ahaha...

Well... my tears almost running down now... Haha... Hmmm... I think this is something similar to the idea that was saying around the Internet long lond time ago... "The one who worth your tears is the one who won't make you cry..." “一个值得让你流泪的人，是不会让你流泪的。。。” or something like that... haha... I was just talking to my sis in MSN now... here's another quote that I wrote to her...:

"When a couple's love becomes stable, it opens the opportunity for the couple to go for his / her own interests. And this brings back the threat of losing attention of one another"

- Guru Willy again... haha...

Heh Heh... If you could truly understand the essence of "He who loves much, possesses much"... May you find inner healing in any situation of your life now. ;) gtg to help Papa in his PC now... I wish I can blog more. :(

Reunion with Good Friends - Part 3

Main Label: Life Flashback

Yes! A long waited entry... Finally again... managed to find some time to continue this long waited entry liao... Haha... Hmmm... now I even forgot how to continue the story... sigh...

I guessed I stopped at we "lost contact" after Nanyang Poly ba... Then we carried on with our life not contacting one another until... this year's CNY... On the 4th day, 初四，after receiving this special sms, and in the afternoon, he called me finally and we had a short chat after which, we arranged to meet on that night to have a long catching up!

And then another twist had come then... Not long after, Haw Chon, sms me again. Haw Chon... the very best friend of mine when we were in secondary school... Well, he is also another long stories lor... To really cut short the story, Haw Chon also befriended with Samuel very well every since we all know one another. Haw Chon and I had also "lost contact" some times / years after we graduated from Riverside Secondary School... He went to KL to further study since then, we managed to meet a few times. But after he flew to Australia, we really lost contact since then. And until recently, like last year, managed to "find him back lor"...

Ok, come back to the CNY story. Haw Chon, who prefers people to call him as "Haw" now, happened to be in JB, his hometown for CNY. And he asked me whether I got any programs for the night, I quickly replied to him the news about Samuel. And the very night, the 3 of us met up together after a separation for about 12 years!!! We all concluded that it was an absolutely rare gathering! We had a good catching up and stuff and finally went for a movie, Underworld: Rise of the Lycans, a highly not recommended movie though...

Through the chatting / conversation / catching up, I learned that:-
1. His father had died of lung cancer before CNY, therefore he was in JB to 避年 “avoid CNY", and he stayed in his "friend's" house.
2. I asked, "of all the years, what makes you contact me now?" And he said that he so happened to check the e-mails in the "friend's" house, and happened to read my "Cow-Bull-Ox" email and then he was reminded about me.. .Ahaha... So I guessed sending greetings occasionally does provide "certain" help one way or another ba...
3. I changed my mobile phone number quite frequently, and I just wonder how he got this Malaysia number of mine. I remembered that I didn't tell everyone about this number leh... After some time of thinking, I remembered that I did emailed everybody this number, and the Singapore number last time ba... That's the only possible way le...
4. He then changed the word "my friend" to "my girl friend". Haha... so funny, should have said it in the beginning mah... And that could explain lots of stuff already... lol.
5. He knew his girl friend in JB. She is working in a facial wash shop where Sam went there very often. It was through the regular met-up that the 2 of them had come together. And therefore he always comes in JB here to do the spending and as usual, his comment about spending in JB is definitely "real cheap". He comes in here to buy birdnest for his mother, car washing, movie, etc. etc.
6. And now I have one movie-kaki here in JB liao... No need to watch "expensive movies" in Singapore liao.
7. Now we are planning to meet more old friends! But until now, not much progress... :( I also planned to go to his house to "finally" pay his family a visit to show my gratitude and stuff, but again... I failed to do until now, because I am reserving my passport pages for Shanghai trip on April.

There was once we planned to meet up for a lunch with another mutual friend, Wei Yuan, who is now a wanton mee business owner. It was his family business for the three genation, and if have any chance, I will definitely bring my friends and family to eat one. It is very tasty one! And he had a website one: http://www.hosengkee.com go there for more information.

His timing is always very pack and had little holiday or rest, but it so happened that recently he gotta move to a new location, his family and himself had one week "holiday" to do the shifting preparation and stuff. And thank-God-ly, we arranged one Saturday for the lunch in Permas Jaya, 二重丸, another nice Japanese food restaurant in JB... Their Salmon Sashimi comes with dry ice as decoration and giving those smokey effect lor... Just before the day we had arranged the three of us for the lunch, I received a sms from Haw Chon, saying that he would be back to JB this weekend and asked me got any plans or not. So I told him he had come back for the right timing! And on that Saturday afternoon, it was another mere rare gathering for the 4 of us! Don't think that this is not so rare lor, poor Wei Yuan gotta head back for preparing his new shop after his lunch. His phone kept ringing while he was eating. And we had spent only an hour together for the lunch and after that, he rushed back to do his stuff liao lor...

It only left the 3 of us and we planned to watch movie, but no timing suited 3 of us because I would be having a company dinner that night. So we shopped around and sat down in Starbuck in Jusco. Talking about many stuff, and Haw Chon was eyeing at a new dual SIM phone from Samsung, the Samsung D980 Dual SIM touchscreen phone. But it was quite expensive... When about 5.30pm, we left and called it a day lor...

In life, there are many things that you can happy of, and of course, there are also things that make you sad and want to complain about life. To me, even when life has many problems that are yet to solved, as long as there're also stuff or events that can "make my day", I will be very happy and ragain the hope and energy and belief to challenge those problems again. What are those stuff that can "make my day"? -- Meeting close friends, talking topics that we are interested to, watching movies and stuff, etc. etc.

But I had a challenge... most of my friends are in Singapore... And really, the spending in Singapore is quite expensive, and to me, because of the currency rate, everything are all double cost to be. But as compare to JB, it is another story, another heaven for Singaporeans. That's why I keep promoting to Singapore friends to come JB here to spend, to watch movie. My idea of watching movie in JB as compared to Singapore is, using the price of one Singapore cinema ticket to watch movie in JB (or Malaysia) is like "buy one gets one free". yes, you can buy two tickets in JB with the price of one Singapore movie ticket lor... This is like a win-win situation for both party... First win is for friends who can "save a lot" while spending here, second win is for myself that I no need to spend those double cost lor... Unlike when I am meeting friends in Singapore, it is not a win-win situation, everything is double cost for me. And for themselves, they only spend "normally", and not cheaper lor... Haha...

That's why I appreciate friends like Sam a lot lor... And also to those who love to spend in JB one lor... Haha... Oh yes, Ting Ting, if you're reading this, I am refering to Reub and you lor... Ahaha... If wanna save up for London Legoland trip, then must spend time and money in JB lor... Haha... I am waiting for you 2 to come in and find me!

Just recently, I had another 2 friends to come in JB to meet me... But that was another interesting story that waiting for me to blog about if I have the time lor... But nevertheless, I also wish that I have more friends who are willing to go out of the comfort zone in Singapore and make a trip to JB where heaven awaits you... Erm... heaven lor... win-win situation also, you're either in shopping and eating and movie heaven or if you meet robbery, you might also go up to heaven straights... Ahaha... just joking... NO, just becareful when you're in JB. :)

A Lot to Blog, No Time to Blog

Main Label: Life Updates

Just want to pin down some thoughts and update here before I go about doing my work... Now is the beginning of a new month -- March, and oh no! Can't believe it! 2 months has passed just like that again! Argh~~~! And I haven't finished my CNY event updates and ... my Birthday updates... I thought that I am going to write all of these down now but since is the new month, I got many work to do...

You know it is kind of different to blog / write down what's in your mind right now the very moment, and to write a flashback of your life. Those memories that is closer to you in time, tend to be clearer in your head; and those of past-tense-stories, you will need a time of sit down and recall, of which it takes more time... So I thought of writing some random thoughts in my mind now rather than continue my CNY and Birthday updates! And I kind of worried that I will forget these thoughts so I think I better to write them down now...

~ A Lot to Blog, No Time to Blog ~
My life is full of "somewhat dramatic" stories that I always wanted to write them down... Those stories and thoughts are sooo interesting that I am so afraid that I will forget about them. This is one of the reasons that I started to blog, to write down all the interesting stories in my life... However, after I had setup a space in blogspot to blog, wanting or having the desire to write down every memorable events that I ever encountered, until now I still haven't written much of those stories yet... Just like in my "What's In My Mind Right Now?" column (only in lieh-not-enough.blogspot.com) had said, “有好多好多的想法，概念；有好多好多的回忆，都想把他们一一记载下来。。。因为我真得很害怕把它们给忘了。。。我发现。。。我是个健忘的人。。。”

I discovered 3 reasons for this...
1. Inconveninces for blogging, such as time and places and availability of Internet connection. No time, because of work, other stuff, daily / routine stuff, and stuffs that I always wanted to do. No places... Whenever I want to blog, I will prefer a place of quietness or being alone, because any distractions or interruptions will hinder my thoughts mechanism, resulting me forget what to write or how to continue the sentence or paragraph. When that happens, I will tend to become frustrated and losing my temper a little. And this is what I don't want to happen.

A place of quietness is not easy to get... Definitely, people will think of going to cafe, like Starbucks to use the Wi-Fi there to surf Internet or doing anything online with their precious laptop, but to me... I got a lousy laptop... Well, that laptop of mine, I just suddenly recalled that there are quite a lot of stories about it too! Not of good testimony though. But of those how noisy is it and it is not for outdoor purpose because the battery will run out within an hour... Erm... "an hour" was too nice of saying... Actually is within 30 minutes! And so, I can't go out to Starbuck with that laptop of mine and order a 10 bucks ++ coffee sitting there all day long to do my blogging! And that's why, I always wanted to buy a brand new laptop for myself... I am thinking of Sony VAIO... But nevertheless... I cannot afford it now...

2. Another reason, which I think is very true is "my interesting stories of life is getting more and more and so much more that eventually I couldn't cope up / catch up / capture with!" Ahaha... You see... the reason why I will skip my 2 "promised" previous updates and writing something different now, could tell that this is so true already...

I could still remember the time when I started this blog (blogspot one), I was in the "transition" of giving up my SPR status. For that, I also got a series of events that happened directly and indirectly related to the story... I thought of writing something else first, like more about myself before I would write the story down. But till now, I haven't written that SPR stories... Haha... And in fact, I haven't finished talking "everything about myself" yet... Whatever I wanted to write about myself, such as "A Typical Piscean" and etc, I also haven't written them yet...

Events... somewhat dramatic events, interesting events in my life keeps on coming and coming that I cannot catch up / capture by writing them now. And story will go on / carry on and somtimes, the twist will come in an unexpected way (well, that's why it is called a twist ya!) that might change the course or add colours into my story... I go about from one status to another status without writing whatever has happened... Status... include my spiritual well-beings, my physical health condition such as weight, emotional feelings, environment around me and stuff. And in fact (again), I haven't blog about my unhealthy and fatness condition until now, even I had lost some weight already! Haha...

3. The third reason simply because is... I write very long... Well, most people can agree with this. Time is used to write a super duper long entry! But to me, it is the every and very little details that eventually make up the big story, making the story the way and the reason how / why it is interesting what...

~ Why Am I Talking About All These? ~
Well... I started to write about this is because a friend of mine asked me whether I am happy or not in MSN. This is the reason for initiated this entry but however, this is not the answer for the question whether I am happy or not...

Actually, it was Eliz who asked me "Are you happy now?" in MSN yesterday. Though this question can be simple, casually asked, it somehow got me thinking... I went about telling her "I supposed to be happy, because I am supposed to be positive minded." Then she kind of like asking me to share... That moment all I had in my mind was one recent "interesting story" that I encountered, so I bursted out to her about the story, not in full details though. And one of the words that I used to conclude is something like this: "You may think that such case is rare, but to me, I already get used to it because I always encountered such things... A simple task that can be done within one step, will take me more than two weeks to accomplish simply because something happen in the middle of the process."

Well... that's already a very simple way of telling her... in fact, sometimes there are tasks that took months or even years to accomplish if you would believe... and to add on that "something happen in the middle of the process", is like, some more thing will happen in the middle of the process, and also in the middle-middle of the process... Haha... It is like: Step 1. Start, Step 2. Done. But because something happen in the middle, so the process become, Step 1, 1a, 2. If got more problem, then: Step 1, 1a, 1b, 2. But when Step 1b got problem of its own, then: Step 1, 1a, 1b(i), 2. For more steps: Step 1, 1a, 1b(i), 1b(ii), 1b(iii), 2.

You don't believe? Well... let me show you one of my life experience, the story that I told Eliz, but this time, in perfected full details... A story of "How I wanted to Install Symantec Norton Antivirus Software (SNAS) into My Office Computer" Sound pretty easy? NOT SO in my case... and now you could have total understanding that why my blog is always so long one...

1. Mami (Elyn) asked me to buy antivirus software because hers had expired.
2. Promised her to buy and that's before CNY.
3. Went to Cytech, a computer shop in Taman University (in Johor) that sells whole lot of cheapest computer stuff... A shop that I always recommend to my friends. I ordered the SNAS, but the boss said this needed to wait for the trasport to come, they don't have stock at hand. I was awared of possibility of delay, so I asked him how long, he said 2 days. So I reassured with him, "are you sure?" he replied, "if no accident, it can reach in 2 days."

I placed my ordered on 19th Jan (Monday), thinking that could get it 2 or 3 days later, i.e. Thursday. And we, Daddee (Meng Hua), Mami, Phyllis, Cai Yan and I had already fixed on Friday to have our "Reunion Dinner", and I thought that I could install the SNAS for Daddee & Mami on that day.

4. On Thursday, I went to take my order. They said the driver (who did the delivery work from other supplier) had already stopped working because of the CNY. So my ordered was delayed. I had to wait after the CNY of which, is not 2, 3 days... but 1 week.

5. The shop reopened on 2nd February, I went to check out again on 3rd Feb... Oh... the supplier there said haven't started work yet... or something happened... Gotta wait...

6. One more week over, think about Friday, the 13th, finally I had gotten the SNAS. So next thing is to go Elyn house to install.

7. In the end, we fixed a day on 20th Feb, Friday to go to her house to do the installation. And also, I expected they would gimme a "surprise Birthday" celebration! Haha... Indeed, the surprise came on...

8. the morning of 20th Feb, received a message from Phyllis that Elyn was warded into hospital, waiting for giving birth to the cute Dora. Indeed a surpirse...

9. That Friday night, after work, went to hospital to see Daddee & Mami. Mami was waiting for giving birth. In the end, we didn't have time to go to her house to install the antivirus software...

10. Mami only out of hospital on 23th, Monday. But their baby Dora had to stayed in the hospital for few days because of the skin colour stuff... Wanted to go to Elyn house to install the thing again, eventually, we fixed on 27th, Friday. It was the day that the baby came home too...

11. Finally, was able to install the thing into Elyn's laptop successfully! And the story didn't stop here...

The version of the antivirus software I bought allowed for 3 users' installation. I thought Daddee and Mami got 2 computers to install, but realized that they only needed 1 account, another computer could not access to Internet connection... Initially, I didn't want to install antivirus software in my computer this time round, but since I got extra users' account, so I thought of installig it.

THE NEXT DAY -- 28th February, Saturday.
12. Insert the installation CD into my office computer only to realize that the DVD-rom had problem.
13. Test the DVD-rom with another computer to confirm that it did not function already.
14. Went to Cytech to buy for a new DVD-writer. The boss asked me whether I want IDE or SATA. My old computer can only use IDE and of which... NO STOCK!
15. Suddenly remembered that my home PC supports SATA, went home and check.
16. Took out the DVD-writer from home PC, because it is IDE, I could use it for my office PC.
17. Went to office to install the IDE DVD-writer. Successful.
18. Inserted the installation CD and successful installed the antivirus software.

NOW... the biggest hit of the story is here...
19. The software now asked for activation, which required Internet connection. (anger not yet bursted)

20. Realised that I didn't connect the modem. So I did it and turned on the modem and tried again... then that software had a message saying that "failed to connect to Internet, make sure that I had connect to the Internet and try again." And it automatically launched Internet Explorer with a link that is... erm... broken... (anger not yet bursted)

21. Restarted and tried again. Failed again... Thought that something was not right already. (anger not yet bursted)

22. Tried go to Symantec main site itself, but received message "Page Load Error". Tried many times and still gotten the same thing. So I concluded that, the site must be busy. Let me wait for Monday to try again. So I went about doing my other work. (not yet)

23. After work, went to the shop again to buy a SATA DVD-driver for my home PC. The moment I got there, they were shutting down the door already... What a luck... (not yet)

24. Sunday went to Singapore... another side story here... so on Monday, 2nd March, i.e. yesterday, came to office and tried the activation again... SAME THING. (not yet)

25. Went to the main site again, SAME THING. So I googled about "Symantec site down" and... found news saying that someone, a hacker spot a bug or something in Symantec site, and the Symantec company shut down the whole Symantec site! Even until now! Yes... I just tried again and still "Page Load Error". Other sites work perfectly fine one lor...

This is one of the links to the news, from networkworld.com.

And for now... I couldn't stop the negative thoughts already... It is not that you can see an antivirus software company's web site got pulled down everyday of your life one lor... And even until now, I still couldn't activate my account. And the interesting story here is, on Friday, installed on Elyn's laptop it was perfectly successful! But THE NEXT DAY, (now you know why I capitalised these 3 words previously), when it was my turn to install for myself. I could not have it done perfectly! And to think that before installation, I gotta change a DVD-driver first! And I am not done yet with this story... now the Symantec site still down and..

26. 2nd March, went to buy the SATA, LG 22X DVD writer and installed it on my home PC. But kind of "not compatible", and in fact, the motherboard of the PC has already got problem itself... and that, was another story about that home PC of mine...

Now... finally... "Am I happy?" I should be... And that's another story too... Ahaha... Got such interesting source of story to tell, should I not be happy? And that just reminded me... my lovely Jesus had told me in person, "I only want you to be happy..." So I am!

My 29th Happy?? Birthday

Main Label: Birthday

Yesterday was my 29th Birthday, the last of 20s... Many stories to tell... But I haven't finished my previous story yet... Wanted so much to continue and on hold about my Birthday updates because I will be having another belated celebration with my Poly friends on the 1st March. But something... unpleasant happened yesterday that left me no mood to continue my CNY updates... sigh...

Don't think I will write these unhappy experience here. Thinking whether should I confront with that person or not... But then now my anger has already dropped and maybe just let the matter be gone with the time ba...

Anyways... just a little updates for my Birthday... I already received my first present from Phyllis (Feili) on 20th February, Friday. I think they wanna gimme a surprise celebration but somebody spoiled their whole plan... Who? Haha... the person is none other than the tiny little Dora! The daughter of Daddee & Mami (Meng Hua & Elyn). OK! More details after my last celebration on 1st March...

The point I want to make here is, Phyllis gimme 2 shirts as my present. When I gave it to my mum for wash, she complained that I had so many clothes already and she asked me to tell my friends to give angbao instead! Ahaha... I wanted so much to voice-record her dialogue! She was so cute lor... Very funny lor... Ask my friends to gimme angbao instead... Though, I think I really wanted it! Ahaha...

Then on 24th, I got another "surprise", but a "bloated out surprise" celebration with a special source of friends that is really something that I never had before. We even celebrated in a Hotel room! Ahaha... Of course, details on hold for now. Guess what? These friends had given me another 2 pieces of clothes! Ahaha... and now I don't dare to "haolian" in front of my mother liao...

Oops... Almost forgot to mention, my sis went to Bangkok recently... early of February... and guess what she bought for me? 2 shirts!!! well... one piece is a very-Finn green colour shirts and another one is a very-Tomy (one of my sis's close friend) red singlet! And you see... within a single month, I already received 6 shirts! And with some mother's complains and nagging! Ahaha... So... no more shirt-present please...... I am writing this here because I know that Minnie, who will be celebrating my Birthday on the 1st March, will most probably reading my blog! AHaha... so buy something else lah...

Anyway, Mini Minnie, and thank you so much to keep on coordinating all these gatherings. I know that it is very hard to get everyone together, and to contact each individual asking for their available time and only to get some last minute changes and have to go about doing the recycle of contacting each individual again and only to get someone complains about the food budget, location and stuff... Ahaha... thank you so much, let's get marry when we are free ya! Ahaha... you're the only girl... erm... lady in my life that I can propose to whenever and wherever I want without a ring or kneeling down! Ahaha... You're my "Freelance Laopo"!

Ok, will continue with my CNY story after I feel better... Maybe like tomorrow... And then will write about my this last 20-n Birthday with presents photo ba... For now, let me have peace and calm my grudges... And maybe will buy myself a Birthday present to make me, myself happy... Haha...

Part 2: Continuation of Previous Entry, But Contents Irrelevant to the Title

Main Label: Technology

~ The "Lost Contacts" in Time of "Technology Advancement" ~
What do I mean by that? Well, I believe that this is something that most people may experience as well in this era of "technology advancement"... If you scan through your contact list, you will realized that you have... erm... maybe about 200 over contacts? Wow... more than you have in your Facebook huh? But the question is, how many contact numbers will you call a day? How many will you need in a day? You get what I mean? Even though we had whole lot of friends' contact numbers in this era of "everyone has at least one cell phone", we could still "lost contact" with one another. There are a lot of "redundant" contacts in our contact list... but still we cannot delete them away. Simply because that would mean the total, really "lost contact" liao...

People will often be so busy / caught up with stuff surround their environment, such as family, work, colleagues, some friends, we tend to neglect some other friends, i.e. people who are not in your direct / close environments... I used to have my secondary school friends called me and asked me out. But because I got "other stuff" to take care of, I rejected them. And eventually, they stopped asking me out... I felt bad, I felt left out. But what can I do?? It is usually that the timing that does not match... People usually will organize event or outing during weekend. But people only got Friday night, Saturday and Sunday. And to me, I gotta work on Saturday too and most of my friends are in Singapore. This means that it made the meeting of friends even more difficult. That's why I will say, one Sunday per week is not enough for me... I want to meet many friends! Haha...

In the past, one thing that I tried to do to "maintain friendship" via sms was to send mass sms to everyone in my contact list occasionally. But having the kind of technology level that time, I had problem sending... It would be interrupted when someone replied to you immediately while you're still sending to the half of your contact list... This would mean that you have to resend again... Sometimes that message maybe corrupted and people may receive "Alien" language or like incomplete message. And when you resent it again... and again... it turned out to be annoying and the original purpose had defeated. Another point... when you tried to send seasonal well wishes "on time". For example, after countdown for Christmas, you might want to send "Merry Christmas" to all of your friends and that's the time you would realize all other people think the same as you. So everybody would send to everybody sms-es and eventually it congested the network... duh... sianz... So in order to avoid the busy hour, some people will send the message earlier.

All and all, mass sms turns out to be a very much troublesome thing to do... It may takes like 30 minutes or more to finish sending the message to everyone in your contact list... And of course, this would really cost a lot... 200 contacts will mean 200 sms like that leh... So... I gave up this habit. But the most disappointed reason for sending mass sms-es is when you receive a simple, 3-letter, rude-felt reply of "wru?" Grr... I really think that this is so rude lor...

You should have written politely like, "I'm sorry, I do not have this number of yours. May I know who is this? This is Wei Lieh / Adrian, the Creative Mind / JB Shaoyeah" something like that mah... or: "I lost my phone recently, so I don't have your number. May I know who is this?" "wru?" is way to "friendly" ya! Lost of cell phones are a common thing now. However, some replies were actually from absolute strangers! That makes you wonder... "How come my friend didn't update with me his/her new contact?" "Maybe he/she lost his/her phone and applied a new line?" "So all the while I have been keeping this stranger's mobile phone number?" "Damn! I should have deleted it away!" “早知道就把它洗掉！” "How long does this redundant number has been staying in my phone for nothing?"

And that leads to the ultimate doubts... "Do I have more such numbers in my phone?" "Wait a minute, is the Steven (just an illustrated name) in my contacts the Steven I know?" "If I call this number, looking for Minnie (another illustrated name), will I get a rude response of "WRONG NUMBER!" *Hanged off!* ?" "Do the numbers that I have really the phone numbers of people I know?" "This number didn't reply to me after I had sent a few sms-es, call also no answer, like didn't switch on like that... so should I delete it away?" And also, you don't know whether the other party has your latest phone number or not.

~ My Experiences with the "Constant Change of Phone Number" ~
In my case, my personal experiences, I also happened to change phone numbers quite often. And I realize that this is quite annoyed. There was this time I got a new Singapore prepaid line but not long after, I found out another way of saving $$$. So I gotta change another phone line. The story goes like this... Not long after I got my prepaid line. A friend of mine was subscribing a new line in order to get the phone he wanted. Because it was cheaper by purchasing the phone he wanted via a new line. At the same time, he would still wanna keep his existing contact number because it was still in contracts. So he was paying an additional phone bill monthly without actually using the new line. Since in such a condition, I "volunteered" / "proposed" to help to use his line instead. Of which, he agreed. To further assure him, I told him that if I used / spent more than he usually pays, I would pay him back the "over-use" amount. I only need the Singapore line when I am in Singapore, so the usage could hardly cross over the basic amount. And that's how I got my existing Singapore phone line number... However, after his contracts with this line is over, I think I gotta change phone number again... haha...

I was aware that it would be such a nuisance to give another update to people not long after I had just updated them my new line. So I thought that I would kind of "delay" this process later... Then there was this one friend I knew from church, erm... to make story easy to tell, and not to say anything bad about this person -- he had a little attitude problem or insecure in certain manner. He MSN-ed me about his new contacts and asked for mine. I told me I was about to change a new line, so I would give him my latest contact number after I got it. In my mind, this was not a top priority task to do now, because I was intending to delay this process too... So I went about doing other tasks and leaving this behind.

Like few weeks later, I still hadn't told everyone about my change of phone number except to a few who I usually or most-frequently would contact to. At that time, we "met" in MSN again, and this friend was asking me for my number again. I wasn't in good mood that time because of many stuff to deal with, I guessed my tone wasn't good too... I replied to him, "I still haven't got the time to do the update yet." In my mind, I was planning the update to be a mass one, of which is time-consuming. However I believed that he perceived the other way round... He was very much pissed off and got upset / angry with me. He said he would deleted my MSN account and we shall never talked again. And the last words he said was, "I deleted you in my MSN liao, bye!" I was shocked and there's nothing much I could do with an angry person. All I could reply to him was, "no matter what, I would not delete you from my MSN account." But everything was too late...

Although I expected that people could not understand the way I handled stuff or tasks at hand, especially in this case, I would still fail to anticipate the reaction of this friend. Well, I thought I could carry on with my story telling him the reasons behind all this, but before I could do that, he was already pissed off and thinking that I do not treasure this friendship with him. "How much time will it take just to give me your number?" He must be thinking in this way... But I was thinking of doing something like "once and for all" thing like that, i.e. to mass sms everybody...

But anyway... something about friendship... I am not standing here saying that I'm a prideful person who don't need friends! Anyone who would have known me inside out, deep-deeply understand me about my character and personality, would know that a friend like me, has no criteria in accepting friends... "All are welcome!" that's what I would say. And sometimes that's how... I got to know some weird people... Haha... Because of distance, time and situations, I may not be ready for you as a friend, I'm sorry about that. But when I am available, I will be my best to be there for you... Frankly speaking, about that friend of mine, I would say that he needs a friend like me more than I need a friend like him. He suffered "more lost" than I did. Well, my words could be cruel and sound prideful and ignorant. But of course it is not. If you still think in that way. All I can say is that, I'm sorry that my word can mislead you in that way...

So in the end... I didn't initiate to MSN him even when I saw him online... And in my impression, I think I e-mailed to everyone about my change of phone number instead of sms-es. Because, e-mailing is free of charge! Haha...

Come back to my story about me keep changing phone numbers. I do have people failed to contact me with my new line... And I got sms-ed friend via a number that was no longer valid as well... All of such leads to many misunderstanding and miscommunication... Felt bad... I do have a few stories regarding these misunderstanding and miscommunication. For example, there was once that my friend, Mini Minnie canceled a gathering and informed me via sms, and sms-ed to my old number. In the end, I met up with PeiO and only to realize that the rest of them not coming... So we ended up having our very private "dating" together. And later my sis also joined in! Haha...

Now really, my contact list must be in an absolute mess and confusion. And at the same time, people who had my contact number may not be the exact number that could reach me. :( And "no choice", gotta still keep every number inside my contact list...

Other than phone numbers, another similar case goes to the e-mail addresses too... Some people keep changing e-mail addresses without telling you. And some people after being told about change of e-mail address, forgot or lazy to update it. All and all, we do have some redundant e-mail contact list too... Last time I sent e-mailsss to people and if the addresses bounced back few times, then I would delete those contacts already...

Well... all and all, this is what I meant by "Lost Contacts in the Lost World of Technology Advancement". Was supposed to carry on with my CNY stories about the reunion with a close friend of mine, but ended up talking about this story of mobile phones and e-mails. Nevertheless, this phenomena played a part in the reunion story I am telling. But really nowadays, cell phones, e-mails and MSN play an interesting part in communication and people's network that seemed minimal and unimportant but still, it is the key to everybody's interesting stories... Many movies has already involved all this in their story plots and eventually became a common thing now in movies.

Dear all friends, I love you all. I'm sorry if you still keeping my redundant or outdated numbers. Please do not let this as a hindrance for our friendship. Even if my real numbers do not stay in your mobile phone memories, but please be told that you will still be part of my heart, spirit and memory. If you don't have my number, you can still reach me here in my blog, or MSN, or Facebook, or Friendster, or twitter... Ahaha...

My Chinese “牛” Year 2009 & More Life Flashbacks! Part 1

Main Label: Life Updates, Life Flashbacks

I thought I was going to have another usual, boring Chinese New Year (CNY)... But somehow something spiced it up and I eventually realized that I enjoy this season of celebration very much!

~ Spice #1. Very Committed into Spring Cleaning ~
I realized that this year I was very committed into the boring, tiresome, hard-work Spring Cleaning. The usual me is like that, the more I do and focus, the more I enjoy doing it. So the idea is to "keep the ball rolling". I have been cleaning a lot of stuff, both office and my big big house, but however, there are still a lot of stuff that I missed doing... Really got no choice, it will take a whole lot of time, maybe more than 1 month to clean everything thoroughly... To rate my own's hardwork, I am pretty satisfied with what I had done. XD And... Oops! I didn't do a list of all the tasks to do! Haha... Am so lazy...

~ Spice #2. My Cow-Bull-Ox Greetings / Well-Wishes ~

Before the New Year come, I already received and read many well wishes... Because it is a “牛” year, I found out that different people translate the animal differently, all I could remember in the past was, people always used "cow" as the translation. But this time round I saw people used "Bull" and some "Ox". That made me wonder... which is the correct translation. But of course, I know that they are all acceptable. Then somehow my mind started to play with the Chinese & English translation and stuff. Eventually, my "poem" was out! I think I am so "creative"! Haha... I especially like the part of "Oxpicious" (Auspicious) and "PrOxperOx" (Prosperous)! I feel so happy whenever I read the whole passage too! So happy~~! A sense of fulfillment in my heart. And it will usually made my day~! Ahaha...

~ Spice #3. “守岁” until 7am!
I think this is the first time that I could stay awake overnight for so long! 7am! Well... I was surfing the Internet... And this is really a good time-killer! Ahaha...

~ Spice #4. My "Long Lost" Friend Contacted Me! ~
Well... This is one very major spice... or rather, it was really a big surprise for me! So this part is going to be a very long story!

On the 3rd day of New Year， 年初三，I slept at about 11pm++, before I switched off my handphone, somehow I had an sudden idea that "maybe someone will call me". But still, I turned off my handphone and went to sleep... Indeed the next morning, after I switched on my mobile phone, I received message that telling me there's missed call from an unknown number. And there's another message from that unknown number saying:

"Hi, weilieh, happy Chinese New Year to u and ur family. This is my Malaysia line. Keep in contact! Samuel. God Bless."

For awhile, I was thinking who is this "Samuel"? Could this be a "wrong number". But no... this person could spell my name correctly and perfectly! I will think that it is "rare" for people to spell my name correctly, especially my "Lieh" has the extra and essential "H" at the end. So he is definitely someone I know and he is definitely someone who is very close to me. And really, I don't know many guys with the name Samuel, other than two... One is really an acquaintance who confirm don't have my contact number. And the other one is none other than my friend I knew since secondary school time... And indeed, it was him...

~ Secondary School Life Flashback ~
Ahaha... it brings back some memories now... Samuel (Sam) and his whole family are very special to me...

When I was in secondary school, during the 'O' Level year, I felt that my time was wasted in traveling to and fro Singapore and Malaysia, and also the jam and crowded Custom during peak hour. So I thought that I could stay in a Singapore friend's house, so that I will have more time for revision and homework. Sam, was also one of my band member-cum-friend. I forgot the reason why or how I had asked him whether I could stay in his house... I guess he was a very open guy ba... Indeed, one thing I realized about him was, and really amazed about him was, he never say "NO" to people... So I think that's how I gotta stayed in his house ba...

That time we were very close then. Because we stayed together, we do whole lot of things together... Go to school together, late together (grrr...), go back home together, play together, eat together, do homework together, torn overnight for rushing technical portfolio together, and even sleep together! Haha... Because he stayed in a small flat, with one of the rooms rented out. So he, his sister and I squeezed in one room together... We were really "that buddy" lor...

Back then, I was also very close to his family. I especially liked his mother and his Popo... I respected them a lot. They always took care of me and treated me as their own son / grandson. They cooked food for me and even gimme to drink chicken essence whenever we had to torn overnight for technical portfolio. Popo played mahjong with us and we loved playing mahjong!!! My parents passed me an amount of money and asked me to pass to Sam's family as a mean of "rental fees". But his mother refused to accept it when I offered to her. I was so touched and don't know what to do... I always think that I am indebted to this family with gratitude and appreciation. I remembered one time that my parents brought durians for this family! But after eating a lot, some of them fall sick... :( Felt so paiseh you know...

Oh! One of the most important things that we did together, was to go to church together. His elder sister, Mabel and himself were devoted Christians since then already. During Sunday, if I didn't go back to JB, I would go to their local church together. In a way, you could say that "he brought me to church". But actually the fact was that... That time I already "interested" or found curious about this religion called, Christian. So I was using this opportunity to go to church and get to know more, a little more about Christianity...

~ Hearing His Voice for the First Time ~
Oh... God... It really brought back some memories back then... It was the first time ever that I heard Your voice... You spoke to me with Your gentle, whispered voice, yet of which, still could resound / echo in my head now... I was lying on my bed that night, regretting to you, I said: "Oh God, I'm sorry that I cannot become a Christian now..." Then Your voice, not that inner voice... I really heard a gentle, whispered voice at that moment, right next to my ear... Though I spoke to You in English... You replied me with Chinese... You said... “不能就不能吧。。。” (meaning: cannot then cannot lor...) With that gentle, soothing voice, I was able to sleep at peace...

Maybe people could not really understand why would a God that response in this manner? Such answer can be perceived as being negative, and not so "biblical" way... Well... that's why God would never speak to you! Ahaha... throughout the years of experiences of being a Christian, one of the things that I realized about God is... Sometimes as He speaks, to you, He will not finish a long sentence, but instead, He will say something like... half of it?? And the rest of the sentence, or conversation is "said", or rather "transmitted" directly, immediately and without delays, into your heart... What God would trying to say to me at that moment, of course, which was understood to me perfectly or near-perfectly was something like this:

"I understand the reasons / barriers for you not being able to become a believer. It is okay. I know your heart and I know that now is not the time for your conversion yet. And that doesn't mean that you will not become a Christian in the future / for the rest of your life. Everything is under control... And for now... sleep..." You know? That's my God. :)

~ Life After 'O' Level ~
Ok. To summarize the rest of the flashback stories: After 'O' Level, I left Sam house and came back to my JB big house... And after that... we kind of "lost contact" to each other... But of course, not really lost contact lah... I found out that we happened to be at the same school again! And that was Nanyang Polytechnic... Though we took different courses and we could hardly met. And since then, I always wanted to afford some time to go back to his house and visit his family... But... too much things... that eventually until now I haven't got a time to go back to see them! So "no heart" right...

At that time, cell phones haven't be much popular yet for teenagers. But not long after, like after Poly life, I managed to get a cell phone and that's the "High peak of SMS-es time of my life"... Whatever stuff, I usually sms-ed friends... It was like an "in" thing to do. It was like a game that is "soooo fun" to play like that... haha... I remembered that was once I sms-cum-chat with 3 different friends and they were also sms-ed to one another like that! But now, I guess I am so "old" that I lazy to sms... Would rather call the person if he or she is available to talk... It is time wasting to wait for the reply and lazy to type lor...

So anyway, come back to the story... Through other band members, I managed to get his contact. So in this manner, we "found each other" again... I meant that, we were not in "lost contact" mode... Haha... Right after we got each other's phone number, we called and had a short conversation, or catching up... And after that... we "lost contact" again... aiyo... haha...

Oops... Still got a long way to go... Shall continue in a new entry...

That's right, to be continued...

Flashbacks of Christmas 2008

Main Label: Life Flashback

Woohoo~~! Now is middle of February already! Time really flies! ... No... I think time "dashes"! Ahaha... Finally, after being busy for many stuffs, and still going to be busy with many stuffs, I am now able to gimme some times to do some blog updates...

Time is like a rocket shoot up to the heaven, no U-turning, no slowing and stuff. It just keep dashing towards the sky and you can't grab a hold or make it stop for you. So many days pass with so many interesting events happened and eventually I forgot them and now not able to recall and blog them down... Sigh... But one thing that I remembered that I must blog down, which is also like last year thing, is the Christmas time... So I will start writing them down now before I eventually forget about it...

~ Confession of Not Gifting ~
One thing that I finally realized about my Christmas every year was that I didn't manage to get presents for my friends! One reason, or excuse that I came out myself was "I'm in the midst of Building Fund." What I could recall was, before the Building Fund started some years ago, I managed to buy small, cheap presents for my CG during the Christmas season. But when I committed to the Building Fund my very first time, I stopped this gifting habits. And ever since, Building Fund became my valid reason, or excuse for not gifting...

And this Christmas... erm... I mean the last Christmas, it was like a light bulb lighted up in my head, that I realized that I should have reserve some money for gifting. This happened after a friend of mine, a non-Christian, who is also happened to be an "Anti-CHC", bought us (my friends and I), each of us a Christmas present when we were actually celebrating her belated, very belated Birthday... I kind of felt paiseh / disgrace about myself... So that's how I gotta confess about this mindset that I have.

This is what my friend had given to us... It was not something expensive, and she wrapped those presents with magazine which was costing-saving and at the same time, creative. I was touched by her action and disgrace about myself... It was like: "Shame on you... You called yourself a Christian? A non-Christian gave you a Christmas present!"

This is our group photo for the Birthday gathering. Notice the magazine-paper-wrapped-presents. Oh my sis, Finn happened to join us as well. PeiO, the one who had prepared the presents, was sitting on the very left of this photo. She also got prepared a present for my sis! That's very nice and thoughtful of her! PeiO, you're always my 女神~! Always...

~ Side Story: Building Fund; CPF ~
This time's Building Fund is rather really stressed to me. I realized that I kind of "out-give", or "over-give". And I thought I was in the edge of not able to fulfill it because what I planned in my mind did not happen in reality. Someone who owed me money delayed the payment and I finally realized that I could not rely on the source of income already. And that's the time I am thinking of new source, of which, it could be late already...

I was listening to the FM95.8 where someone talked about money matter, or some monetary policy that was using in Singapore (the exact details I could not remember). And suddenly I was reminded I have certain savings in my Central Provident Fund (CPF) that I can withdraw! It was like God reminding me that "I am not that broke lah..." I gave up my Singapore Permanent Residence (SPR) like about one year ago from now, but my CPF account is still valid for me. Since I am no longer a SPR, the amount in my account can be withdrawn according to my likes. The only bad thing about it was, if I ever want to get back my SPR, i.e. which means to work in Singapore, I gotta returned back the amount withdrawn and together with the interest.

It is very interesting when I looked at the timing that "God" would reveal / remind those "hidden treasures" that I had but which I was not aware of or forgotten. Somehow, I would thank God that He reveals it after I had pledged the amount. If I were to be reminded about the hidden sum before the Building Fund, I would have considered those amount... Haha... But nevertheless, the CPF account should serve as my "reserved fund", 储备金 in this time of Economic Tsunami, which means I shall not use it unless it is very urgent...

Right now I have fuifilled 75% of my Building Fund. And I don't want to convert my Ringgit Malaysia to fuifill the 25%. I think I will fulfill the 25% using my money in CPF account and later in the time, I will put back the amount that I have withdrawn... Man! I thought my CPF account ain't got much leh... until recently CPF mailed to me the latest update. Wow~! Ahaha... And to think that the yearly interest is 2.5%, I think I would rather save my money in this account le...

~ Back to Confession of Not Gifting ~
I figured that it was "lame" to use "Because I am in the midst of Building Fund" as a rejection of buying and giving Christmas presents. And to think that I was still able to buy quite a lot of stuff for myself because of the "Christmas Sale"! This should not be it man! So that's why, even Christmas had over for more than 1 month, I knew that I must blog this confession down to remind myself about this mistake / negligence that I had made. Next time's Building Fund, I will have to plan, and to keep some money for the Christmas Sale, because it really saves a lot; and also to reserve certain $$$ for gifting and really gotta give presents and "return favors" to friends... What is "return favors"? When someone give you a Christmas present but you didn't, so you buy one and give the person back one gift, this is what I call return favors. It is really another real shame when someone got you present and you didn't do the same to that person...

Oh one thing that I did to "cover", to "reconcile", to 挽回 my negligence, is to buy a log cake and had a tiny, simple Christmas celebration in my house with all my cute, funny and lovely nieces and nephews. The log cake was delicious and I regretted a little for not buying the bigger one. Didn't manage to take a photo of that delicious log cake. Also, failed to answer this question: "Why do you eat log cake during Christmas season?" Erm... I really don't know... Who can tell me? Please...?

~ My Top 3 Christmas Presents ~
I wanted to show all my "Christmas Presents Harvest 2008", but since it is over for more than a month, I will only show my top 3 harvested presents... Haha...

#1: Light of the City Audio CD by Carol Chin
Carol said she wanted to "lend" me this CD because I always wanted to listen it first before I would decide whether to buy it or not. At the time of meeting, which was during Christmas Service, she passed me this brand new CD and said it was a present for me instead. I was shocked. Thank you, Huili!

#2: Addidas Workout Shorts by Jiahui Goh This was actually "Gift Exchange" by my CG. We had a "wish list" with 3 options that tells every member what we want for our Christmas presents. Jiahui had drawn my name and she gave me this out the 3 wishes. In fact, I was a little worried that whoever bought this may not suit my need perfectly. But to my surprise, this is exactly what I want for my workout short, -- not too long nor too short. Too long if it reaches my knees actually hinders my performance when I workout. Too short will be too "sexy" that I won't wear! Haha... So that length is exactly what I wanted. And there're pockets! I got "many stuff" to carry one during workout. So I really need pockets! Thank you, Jiahui!

#3: Manchu Singlet by Peter Tan
Ever since I started to lose weight, I also started to shop for nice clothes! Haha... Yah, I know, so vain. I came across this shirt while shopping with my friend, Peter. After trying out the shirt, he offered to pay the price for me! Thank you, Peter!

This is another singlet that I got! Ahaha... I love the "simplicity" of this shirt's design. The brand is Everlast. But too bad, I still haven't got much "confident" to wear this 2 singlet out in street... :(

This Tiger beer was an award in my CG's very own "N333 Fun Awards". It was presented on 31 December 2008, before we had our 2009 Countdown. Every member got their very own awards, some got more than one award of course. I was so surprised that I also got one, because I seldom, hardly join my CG for event and CG meeting one... I am more of a "guest" than a "member" you see. But anyway, this was what Wendy had said about this Tiger Award:

Tiger: "Give these guys a Tiger!" No, I meant these guys are like tigers and tigress. Their courage and might in times of adversity and challenges is a mark of their strength. No matter how tough things may be, they do not give up but continues to fight. What remarkable fighting power! Roar!
Winners -- MK & Wei Lieh

Wendy Goh (31/12/2008)

Yup, Ming Kai (MK) was another winner of this award as well. :)

I got some other Christmas presents as well, but think not putting all of their pictures here... But again, I am thankful to people for your heart-warming presents~! See? I received more than I gave... I really gotta self-reflect in this "Season of Giving". :D