Lieh Not Enough!

Addicted to PayPal???

2010-04-02T18:03:00.002+08:00

Ahaha... Find it funny that I kind of think that I'm addicted to buy stuff online via PayPal. Has the "itchy finger" feeling that just wanna click on the "buy" button, or always think of something to buy... Haha...

The first time I used PayPal was when I helped my Papa to subscribe to a Stock Market magazine. After that, I did not do much with online shopping. Only until my Birthday this year. I was playing a Facebook game, Zoo World. It had this really cheap offer of a Valentine Day animal, "Lovebird" at USD1.00 only. And by purchasing, it also gave 2 Wild Life Points, something crucial in the game. Maybe is because of the "Birthday factor", that I just couldn't help but to buy it via PayPal! To me, it was a great experience, because I really hardly buy stuff online and via PayPal, even though my sis always encouraged me to buy something online to experience the procedure and stuff.

After gotten my "first Lovebird", the game suggested me to buy another one, so that I can breed this bird later. Well, "I'm convinced" and there I was, getting another one! Wuahahaha...

My friend, Jojo, always advice me not to use real $$$ to play Facebook game. She told me to only do this during my Birthday. Now I could remember how overjoy I was when I told her "I did something really crazy today!" Haha...

Well, think few days later, this game had another offer! -- Wooly Mammoth at USD0.99! Plus 2 Wild Life Points as well. Woohoo~~~! I can't helped it! And so there I was, "Oops... I did it again!" Wuahahaha...

After this incident, I was "struggling" whether to buy the new offers by the game or not... Haha... Thank God, with the aid of my friend, Jojo, I could stopped buying a few offers. Oh... how I missed the "Flying Pig" now... :( Anyways, my latest purchase was this "UNICEF Blue Elephant". The game said that the $$$ I paid will go to UNICEF, a charity that help people to get clean water and sanitation. Jojo tried to stop me, but I "convinced" her that I was doing charity. Ahaha... As a result, I bought 2 "UNICEF Blue Elephants" via PayPal again! Haha...

Just now, I was checking my Gmail and found out the e-mail receipts from PayPal. As I read it, I had the "itchy finger" feeling again! Feel like buying something via PayPal! But got nothing to buy for now, as a result, I initiated this blog. Yup... long time never updated this blog. And this is what I blog after the long pause! Wuahaha... Something good is about to happen? Maybe! I hope! Well signing off now... I still wanna blog more, more & MORE!!!

Ironic Feeling

2009-12-26T06:52:00.002+08:00

Main Label: Random Thoughts

"How would you feel when you had gained loves and trusts of people around you, but lost the love and trust of whom you loved the most?"

It's all sadness again... :( huhuhu...

Woohoo~! I am Fasting Now!!!

2009-12-14T10:50:00.008+08:00

Life Update

Woohoo~! I hadn't been fasting for more than 3 years. But recently, I... fasted "just like that"! Am really really glad and with that kind of abundance joy, I couldn't wait to blog it down! Indeed, words cannot describe how I feel...

~ Being the Devil ~
Haha... The first paragraph is only an status update... Now I wanted to write down my down feelings... Recently a bad thing happened to me... I was like "being the devil", I felt so so sad & angry over this issue. It had been like a month already... I could still feel the hurt, and such is indeed a "daily hurt" to me now. But everyday, when I think that I could still feel the effect from the issue, I also know that the person whom I hurt the most, too, may have feel the pain too. I am really really, terribly sorry for the damage that I did upon the person. I will continue to wait for your forgiveness. "I'm sorry. Please forgive me." And I truly treasure the friendship between you...

Your words cut me deep. But I know that I hurt you too. You say, "you did it again!" I was really speechless. You were right, from your point of view, "I did it again." But from my side... sigh... I totally regret what I did, and I definitely learned a great lesson here. All I ever wish now, is to restore back our "special" friendship, and I promise, I promise I will not make any stupid mistake of gossiping & MISTRUST. Definitely, I will not fall into the trap of mistrust anymore.

You asked, "What kind of Christian are you?" You know, you're the first person who actually said that to me. The hurt is unexplainable. Things were not mean like this... But still, maybe you did sounded the alarm bell for me in my Christianity walk. Maybe... maybe this is one of the reasons that contribute to my fasting action...

Indeed, just amazed by the statement from my Pastor, he always say, "it takes years to build up the trust, but only take one stupid mistake to collapse the whole thing." Well, that's the strength of trust, mutual trust, and that's where the weaknesses lie too. I learned it, I totally regret it, and I hope you can gimme your final, final chance on me. I promise, I promise and I promise I will respect you as a very close & special friend.

"Forgiveness & re-trust, is all I ever asking from you now..."

~ The Lost of A Great Mother - My Grandma （外婆）~
I wanted to blog this down, but was delayed and delayed and delayed... Until now, I forgot what I want to say about it. Well... We all believe that she left us for good. For the condition that she suffered... I felt bad sometimes. About 2 years ago, 阿公 left us. It was really an unexpected event for all of us, even though the "signs" were there. But all of us were "lack of experience" to sense that. Ever since the lost, Grandma has become a totally different person in her physics and looks. She was so weak...

Then about 1 year ago, her only (younger) sister left too. We call her "Yee-po" （姨婆）one. Before Yee-po left, we also made a visit to her. The first time I looked at her, I really could not recognize her, I didn't even sure its her, until San-yee (三姨）asked us to call her, then I opened my mouth and called... Not long after... we received the news... The whole family didn't want to inform grandma about this. But somehow, deep down, it seemed that she knew...

But anyways, everything is alright now. She left us in peace and with great blessings! That's what the Chinese believe. ;)

~ Back to Fasting & God ~
After the issue of "being devil", God had been very good to me... He was there to comfort me, told me to lift up this whole issue upon Him and stuff like that. He always provide "word of seasons" or "word of 'just-in-time'" for me. We were talking about "team", and there were one Service, Pastor Kong ended the sermon with a short story about Michael Jordon. He said, reporters commented, "having Michael Jordon in your team is like having God in your team." Pastor then add, "God can be in your team too." I was greatly encouraged by the statement. And now I believe that "God is in my team". Ahaha...

The next great thing that God provided for me, was the opportunity to fast! I used to have the habit of fasting when I was very active in Church back then. Somehow, I was really excited about fasting. Ever since when "Fasting" was taught by my leader (Janice Seow) in Bible Study, I couldn't wait to fast!!! I could still remember the very first time of my fasting experience... :)

Anyways, a side story. Recently I happened to know 2 very very close friends in gym. Shall talk about them more next time. The point I want to make here is, I somehow told one of them, Jojo about my desire to fasting... Can't really sure why I brought this up to her, maybe I was too comfortable with her... or maybe I knew that she fasts too.

So as I told her, she encouraged me and shared with me the stuff about fasting. She told me she believed in me that I could find the chance to fast again. Nether did I know, the chance could come so fast! Thank you my dear friend, thank you for believing in me. :D

I went to the Service last week (29th Nov 2009), Pastor Kong told us that he was in the midst of fasting, and he would break his 21 days fast on 30th November. And somehow, my chance to fast started on the first day of December, i.e. the next day after he broke fast.

Generally, I fast for 8am to 8pm, 12 hours. I allow myself to drink water, plain water only. Kind of a "simple fasting" for me. And it is "convenience" too. Haha... But still, I assure you, this is not an easy task at all! You gotta go through the time of "lunch time but no lunch", "dinner time but no dinner", these are the time you will feel very much starvation to the extent that my hand would shake because of physical weakness. And the constant feel of hunger is no joke! And to me, the greater challenge is, to avoid letting my family knows about it. Because they may not think what I think, and they will strongly against it. So... :( I choose not to tell them for now.

Usually, the very first 3 days of fasting are the most difficult period, your body is at the stage of "getting used to it". I experienced a very strong "hand shake" during the 3rd day. But after the 3 days, the effect of hunger was not so strong already. It was kind of like "getting used" to it already... :)

On the 4th day of my fasting, I saw Pastor Kong posted a "note" titled "The Power of Fasting" in Facebook. I couldn't wait to read. And after reading, once again, I was greatly encouraged & inspired. To me, this is like another "word of season / word of 'just-in-time' " from my God again. Now, I was so so happy regardless of the stuff that I am going through now. :D I really thank God for everything! Anyway, this is the link for the article (both links lead to the same article):

http://www.facebook.com/notes/kong-hee/the-power-of-fasting/196460945684

http://www.konghee.com/www/2009/12/power-of-fasting/

During fasting, I always try to submit myself totally to God, i.e. extremely obedience. I will listen to what the Voice say and be ready to obey. During those period of seldom going to Church, no fasting, etc, my pride (the negative, bad pride) has risen. This is the result of the increase in my selfishness, anger problem and etc. That's why, I wanted to fast to "humble myself before God", that's the biblical purpose for fasting. To me, lack of humility is the root of selfishness and anger problem. Because it is all the bad & negative pride, you only think for yourself, and don't think on other peoples' perspective.

I really don't want to be a selfish person. I always wanted to tell everyone, this:

"Everyone is selfish, but I happen to be the least selfish one."

And I can even say this:

"If a person say 'you're selfish', actually he/she is the one who is really selfish. A selfless person will never comment anyone who is being selfish, because with his/her character, 'selfish' is never a word appear in his/her dictionary."

That is why, I always restrain myself from commenting people being selfish, because that will only reflect my own selfishness. But recently... I commented people being selfish... This is so not me... I felt so bad for my action. I really don't want to be this kind of person... :( And really,

"How you see others, is how you see yourself."

Therefore, we really gotta be wise & think twice, three-times before we comment or judge about people. That's why, I always don't talk bad things about people. Ahaha... And I always try to look at the bright side of the hill, trying to find the good points and strength in people. ;)

In addition, I don't have so much anger problem in the past, I mean I can control my emotion well, every friends see me as a nice person without getting angry... Though, I do get angry sometimes, and my anger usually subsides quickly. But not now recently, especially in this year, I lost control many times already... :( I was thinking, maybe the issue is something that really matters to me, that's why I get angry easily. But nevertheless, I will not let this be an excuse to face my anger problem / management.

I always want to fast to humble myself before God, and nothing else, that's the sole purpose of fasting. But immediately, God would tell me to fast for something else. I told God, I will fast solely on the purpose of self-humble. But God would say "that's enough". And He wants me to do something else, and He will remind me these 2 key words -- "Total submission" or "Absolute obedience", and so I gotta obey. This time round, God wanted me to fast for "Forgiveness". First, asking forgiveness from Him, and second, "Forgiveness" from people whom I hurt recently. And so I did... :)

I had been fasted for 8 days. And I really liking it. I truly wish I can keep up with the habit of fasting. I love fasting, but still, that doesn't mean it is always easy for me. It is very very tough to fast... Really. During fasting, I would always think that "I don't want to fast!" But still, as I remembered the purpose for my fasting, I would get back the desire & drive to carry on, no matter what... I really thankful to God for what he has been doing for me. :D

My 2 New Soul Mates~! Sony Vaio & HTC Touch Diamond2

2009-10-15T13:55:00.000+08:00

Main Label: Life Updates

~ I'm Back After MIA From This Blog... ~
OOPS! Neither did I know... time really flies~~~! Its been 2 months that I did not update his blog! A new record for me... Well, should I say, this is another blog about "losing focus" ba... But before that...

~ My First Soul Mate ~
oh... btw, I just realized that this is the very first time that I am using my First Soul Mate, aka Sony Vaio VGN-FW46GJ/B to blog!!! Woohoo~~~! I got my most beloved First Soul Mate on the 15^th of August 2009, in the Bersada PC Fair! I went there with my sis, Finn.

Well... got a little story about getting this soul mate... Its all my clumsiness and ended up 摆乌龙 lor... haha... Mistaken that a deposit of RM500 had been given to the sales person but ended up realizing we haven't given to them! And was a bit angry... and then when we realized it our own, we felt paiseh lor...

Also, we got a nice optical mouse as Papa's Birthday present. And sis also got herself a HP printer...

A sad story to note... I finally got My First Soul Mate on 2015^th August 2009, I was not able to collect on the day of PC Fair because no more stock already. So we rescheduled it to collect on 20^th August. So happy... But... My Sony Vaio went to "Blue Screen of Death" on the 8th day after the collection! I was so angry and was really like "the world falls apart" like that... How would you feel when your newly bought lappy goes to blue screen of death on the 8th day of purchase???

After sadness & anger, it must be the time of "get back to reality" and solve the problem... Thank-God-ly, I did follow the instruction to create "Recovery Discs" the first few times I log into Window Vista. The 4 Recovery Discs actually included the Window Vista Setup programs and other backup tools to restore the lappy back to its default factory setting. So I used it to restore my new lappy... Everything was back to the default factory setting, and I gotta reinstall those "just installed programs" lor.

I googled about the problem and realized that what made my innocent Sony Vaio went to blue screen of death could be the Apple Quicktime thing. I was not sure whether this was the true or not. However, my lappy did went dying after I installed iTunes & Quicktime. So this time round, I would not dare to install Apple product... I really got the phobia. Instead, my sis introduced me to use VLC Media Player. I installed it, and man! It was good! My blog can play the background mp3 formatted music too!

Initially, I needed Quicktime so that my blog can playback mp3. But somehow, with VLC, it is much easier now! I am so happy! This is the only gain, or lesson learned from my lappy's blue screen of death... Nevertheless, I should be grateful. :)

~ My Second Soul Mate ~
And on 7th October 2009, I got myself another soul mate! -- HTC Touch Diamond 2!!! Woohoo~~~ Irene Tan YY, a new friend I knew from Clark Hatch helped me to get it first as she worked there... I'm thankful for her help! Haha... And oops, haven't got the chance to return her $$$ yet...

Having this HTC phone got its pros and cons. I am still at the stage of exploring & getting familiarized with the phone... It is kind of like my first PDA phone too. So there are many things still new to me. I only have one thought in my mind, i.e. "can I speak to a HTC staff about this phone? I have many many questions to ask!!!"

When I first got this Second Soul Mate, I realized that we have to make times and invest $$$ on this technology thing... IT stuff... One cannot be so far away from IT nowadays. So to me, it is an investment for me to upkeep with technology... I would want to use this as the starting point to explore all other things, such as Windows Mobile 6.1, TouchFLO 3D, etc.

In the beginning, I really liked my Second Soul Mate very much... Well, simply because it is my new toy! However, as I keep on exploring the phone, I figured that this phone is not as flexible as I thought. I personally like things that are flexible, more options, etc. Because I am kind of like a niche person, niche market, I like things to be more personalized in my own style, own way and own habit, even to the extent of little details do matter to me. Therefore, I really don't like gadgets that are rigid, limited options and lack of flexibility. But as for now, I will say that everything is still under "exploration stage", so maybe the problem can solved, and new features can be discovered ba... And I am not sure whether it is the problem of Windows Mobile or HTC phone itself...

This phone is a little slow... which at times can be annoying. And then I tried my friend's iphone, and it the speed was like instantaneously, indeed faster than Touch Diamond 2. :( I kind of like iphone now... haha... And also, I am still looking forward for Sony Ericsson Satio^TM! Haha... ILIKE!

But as for now, it is still a nice phone to use... I like the messaging options, it provides many input methods for me to choose. But don't know why, sometimes the typed letter can auto capitalized and sometimes cannot. For example, the first letter of the first word, it will automatically capitalized, but sometimes, it just stays as small letter... Don't know why... I still need time to explore lor...

Oops... very long entry already... I shall stop now liao.

Too Many Things To Do ---- I Am Losing Focus!!!

2009-07-10T00:15:00.016+08:00

Main Label: Life Update

Argh... Again, too many stories happened!!! But... can I ever write them down? Sigh... Sometimes, I really wonder what is the purpose for me to set up this blog? I could remember that all the while I always wanted to write blog, to write down all my "Dramatic" stories in life, so that I can remember them, and I am so afraid that I will forget about them... With encouragement from friends, I started this blog. But I always don't have the time to update those interesting stories... Yes... My life has upgraded from "somewhat dramatic" to "totally drama-mama"! Argh~~!!!

~ ~ Too Many Things, Too Much Commitments, and Now Losing Focus ! ! ! ~ ~

~ 1. Err... HR Issues? ~
I had been busy with ... err... hmm... should I say "HR" -- Human relationship? And this eventually got me into doing some really stupid stuff... to the extent that I almost cannot forgive myself! Well... that's the time, Jesus came and challenged me again. Immediately, I gotta try my best to forgive myself... I am glad that things are rather coming to a happy ending as of until now... I thought it gonna have certain bad ending... But...

I always joke my life as a TV series... 电视连续剧... And I tell my friends this story is coming to final episode... and hoping for good ending... And... Season 2 is on the way~! With new character~! Ahaha... Yeah~! Charot!

~ 2. Angel @ work! ~
Did a super duper drama mama angel work... Confidential. ;)

~ 3. Stock Exchange ~
Started Buying Stock Exchange! Wish me good luck! I think the timing is rather right for me to go in to the market. But there're still a lot of things for me to learn, and I have yet to find the time to do the study and research, etc.

My father was very supportive and glad that I finally doing this... I asked him how he registered his online quotes service, because I wanted to buy shares too... Not long after, he introduced his broker to me. Actually, this is the way we communicated lah... haha... I hint hint him, then he would just bring his broker to me... Then this broker, Louise, is an old guy, helped me to register lor. He is kind and helpful and informative... Well informative in a sense that it's a little winding... Haha... But still, I am thankful.

I was told to open a personal current account in the bank, so that I can get the cheque book for the purpose of paying. And yeah~! I got my very personal cheque book for the first time! Ahaha...

Ok, ok... the point I want to make here is all about my beloved father's reaction... I got my share-buying account, it comes with number "121", my family love the number "21", so Papa was like... "Wah... you got such a nice number..." and he was smiling... Then I told him my current account number... He like lagi more happy lor... "Wah... also nice number leh... You asked for them to give this number for you, is it? Or... " Then I replied, "no lah, it so happened to get this number when I went to open account lor... Didn't ask them to reserve this number for me one lah..."

I think, to him, it is like good beginning lor... "好兆头!"

Then the next is about my mama... We (Papa, Mama & I) so happened to watch TV together in the morning while having breakfast, the show was “早安你好！” then it talked about investment, saying the best way to earn money, as in term of earning the interest, is by stock exchange. My Mama always put her $$$ in Fixed Deposit (FD), which Papa always knows that this is not a good method. So he emphasised it again. Because of the "economic tsunami" last year, the FD rate now is greatly reduced. Then Mama now also decided to put $$$ in stock exchange, she asked papa to buy for her, of which then, Papa refer her to me. Then recently, she finally gimme her $$$ and I transferred it into my account already...

I personally don't have much $$$ in my bank account, I only took out a little to do the "trying". Papa had asked my bro-in-law， Liang Jun（LJ) to help me with this thing. LJ was shocked the first time he heard that, because papa is the one he learned a lot from... But anyway, LJ introduced me to buy Pelikan... I wanted to buy 1 only, but my father said "buy 1 no use one, buy 2"... so I bought 2 shares lor... and of which, like left no more money for the rest liao...

Then after I transferred Mama's $$$... I thought I can "cheat" a little of those $$$ to buy my lappy... haha... But... not long after, Papa asked me to buy this shares using Mama's $$$... He asked me to call to broker and buy... He said 7 shares... But I hesitated...Then he was like, "what are you waiting for?" I replied, "7 shares? That's about 90% of Mama's $$$ liao." But eventually, I called and did the transaction already. Haha... A businessman's mindset is indeed different lor...

And now, Mama is going to gimme more $$$ to buy... Heh heh... I will try my best not to devour the $$$ for myself... haha... Oops... erm... Well... "just kidding"... I got "Integrity" one ok! Haha...

~ 4. Craving Sooo Many for Sony Products~
I am so materialistic lately... Especially I am craving for Sony products:-
1. Sony Vaio VGN-FW46GJ/B
2. Sony Ericsson Satio^TM (not released yet, or maybe C905, or W995)
3. PSP 3000!!! -- maybe red colour! And with the GPS thing...
4. Sony Bravia S20 Series - Orange colour
5. And forgetting not, PS3 16G !!!
(Lazy to put up the pictures... XP)
See that? But right now, I sooo sooo sooo want the Sony Vaio lappy... I need a super duper powerful lappy for my multi-tasking life man! There's a PC Fair on mid August here in JB, Bersada Conventional Hall I think. I definitely want to get it at ALL COST! Haha... As for Satio^TM, it is still not out yet... so gotta wait... Argh... I need more $$$ !!!

Yeah, I am not so much of a "iLife" person, but indeed, I am a "Sony Style" person, you see. ;)

"I Style" ;)

~ 5. Venture into New Business ! ~
My sis, Finn wanted to venture into T-shirt business... She kind of like feels that I am always "eng eng cheng cheng" (means "busy" in Hokkien) like that, so she asked me to help her. But of course, not because I am available so she asked me lah, but because 1. I am her brother, 2. I am clever. Haha... We did travel to KL before to look at the shirt printing machine before... But... it is not so ideal to buy it now.

At first, I only helped her as on the superficial level only, but now, I think I came out a pretty good name for our business, and that makes me now very driven for it! Haha... I hope things can work out good, better and best! Prosper, prospering & prosperous!

Prosper, prospering & prosperous in my 1. stock exchange, 2. new shirt business, and 3. Sony products!!! Ahaha...

~ 6. PeiO and Ah Fer Came In JB Again ~
Yeah~! I asked PeiO, and finally they came again! This time I introduced my new friend, Wayne to them. We were having great time together! Lunching, shopping, dinnering, nite-time teaing, and PeiO can do her auntie-hobby here -- prawn fishing! or "prawning"? Haha... I still cannot believe that I got friends who love such hobby! So auntie... Haha... But, but, but... she managed to hook 3 prawns... And this is not her best record lor...

I shared with them what I had gone through with the HR thing during a long journey to the "legendary" Japanese restaurant. The traffic was slow because it was after work time, going-home time, so I managed to tell my long long story during the long drive... Haha...

And yes, the Japanese food was nice! When we got there, we gotta wait for about 1 hour, and that's the time we went, err... I mean PeiO went prawning... Haha... Think PeiO got the photos for the day... Will ask her to upload into Facebook ba... But she is like forever busy...

Oh yes, btw, PeiO's boy boy proposed to her! I first got this news from reading Ah Fer's Multiply blog. Was a little upset that she didn't tell me in person, but its ok. After I verified with her, I am still happy for her! "HAPPILY EVER AFTER" to you PeiO, you are always my 女神!

~ 7. Listening to Secret Garden music ~
I happened to find this song calls, "Song from a Secret Garden" from my data, it was sent by Ah Fer via gmail like long time ago. I listened to it and realized that I totally like it! I spent one whole Sunday trying to put it into my blog site. I was like wasting the whole day and finally found out the problem and solved it already. Now I hate box.net! It was given me the biggest problem in putting the music in my blog. The link it provided was not a mp3 format. That's why cannot play music. I uploaded the song to "google" site and it works eventually!

Anyway, I was shopping again and happened to found this song! With only a little time of hesitation, I bought this album from Secret Garden. It is a "Deluxe Version", like a compilation, it comes with 2 CDs and 1 DVD. It cost about RM80 for the whole package, after Popular Bookshop member discount. At first I thought I was buying this song for RM80. But thank-God-ly nope, I fell in love with many of the songs inside. Yeah~! Glad that I owned it now.

~ 8. Continuing My Lasam Life Now ~
There are many issues in my life that are right now in "Keep In View" (KIV) mode. At the same time, there are also many things waiting for me to do... especially work stuff. And now gotta venture into new business... Wish me all the best and pray for me ya! Gotta get busy now! Will defintely update again!

A Long Waited Update But Hope that it is Not So Long Entry

2009-06-09T10:30:00.004+08:00

Main Label: Life Updates

~ An Unusual Being ~

Woohoo~! Finally got myself a little time to do a long waited update... And oops again... The whole of May I didn't blog!!! Sigh... I am overly committed with much stuff in my life... But today I am somewhat so exited! This morning woke up just "fresh" and full of energy even though I slept about 2am last night! Well... there's something about me that I always wanted to tell people... that I really have an unusual, funny thoughts mechanism, or behavioral mechanism that is totally opposite from the usual way... Like, in this case, if people lack of sleep, they tend to appear low energy and stuff... But for me now, I am way too excited and energitic that I don't even know what's going on with me... I remembered PeiO, my 女神... she is of similar to me in this case... If she lacks of sleep, she is like a crazy woman! Haha... energitic, lots of crappy words coming out from her... Well... I am kind of like that now too... Ahaha... And that just gimme the energy, the "courage" to do some blogging now... Ahaha...

~ Drama Mama Lieh ~
Again... Too much stuff and events and stories happened in between my last blog... Really again... it is like I just can't cope up by blogging those stories down... My life is changing from "somewhat dramatic" to "really dramatic" now... And the episodes just keep on adding on and on, there's no playback! No rewind! I wanted to write down a dynamic episode, but the next moment, another dynamic event occurred! Ahhh... too much stories to tell... too little time to jog them down...

~ Emo Elmo Lieh ~
There was this time, I was really down and "Emo Elmo"... I browsed photos in my hand phone memories... those pictures was like "come to life" to me... every picture brought me back to the moment that how I wished I could go back time and dwell at that moment again... And that's the time, I realized... memory is very important to me... Technology are so advanced that you can capture all kinds of memories via photo-taking, video-recording, voice-recording, blogging down and stuff... But technology hasn't been so advanced yet that it can bring you back to the moment... Aigh... maybe it is for the good...

~ Shanghai Trip Updates??? ~
I wanted to blog down, to record down my trip to Shanghai, a moment of great experience & relax & etc. etc. But... guess nope... at least is not now... I hope I can still remember all the stuff that I had learned during the 9 days trip... Well again... a lot of things happened during the trip... It is indeed "happening"! Other than site-seeing, shopping, enjoy delicious food, buying & spending, feeling cheated by buying those stuff, relaxing and stuff... Our group also had "internal problems"... I am quite amazed by myself, about my ability to analyze, to understand people within a very short period of time! Well... somehow I think I am getting better in doing tims... Aw... my mind now is generating lots of possibility now... About how I can use such talent to change the world... for better of course... but... aigh... My God, my God arh...

~ Got My First Ever Principal Credit Card ~
Yeah~! Finally I had gotten a principal credit card for myself~! Yeah~! I myself didn't apply for it... The Maybank decided to gimme one because of certain criteria of which... I forgot! Ahaha... To think that last time I was trying to apply Eon Bank credit card but was rejected! Hmmmp! But this time round, I received a call from Maybank KL when I was at home... The lady on phone informed me about this credit card... As usual, I was skeptical about the call... afterall, phone-call cheating is very common... But then it is not a cheating phone-call afterall! The lady told me there's no "terms and condition apply", no minimum usage required, I am free to use whenever Iwant or Ican choose not to use it at all. And there's no annual fees stuff too! But... who knows what will happen in the future?!

Nevertheless... I am grateful for a credit card like that too... I always wanted my own credit card, and to be indepentant from my lovely dad. It is definitely good to have a supplement card from daddy... but he was complaining about not returning him the $$$! Ahaha...

~ New Lappy?! Definitely! ~
Now with my credit card... erm... 2 credit cards! I am planning to buy a laptop! Sony Vaio! Seires FW something... Now waiting for a PC Fair or something... Yeah~! Buy via instalment! Hallelujah~!

~ New Way of Blogging?! ~
Well... until now you may have noticed... my different style of blogging... I wanted to try new style of blogging too... My previous way was way too meticulous, although that's me. Yet still... it is time consuming and I am always looking for a quiet time for me to write down a very detailed entry, and of which, such time is very difficult to get... So I am writing more stories... like a summary, by minimizing those little details, and of which, are still very important to me though...

Another reason for blogging in this manner is because... well... you know... I am now very excited & energitic due to lack of sleep (LOS)... so I didn't care much and "just do it" lor...

Yes! This style of blogging is extremely disorganized and messy and raw and blah blah... But... that's what blogging is all about... Your style, your mood, your attitude, your literature, etc... all blended in, or mixed into your blog entry... Don't have to make any sense sometimes, because there are times it is not the stories, or "what is going on?" that words are trying to capture, but the "emo", "feelings", "memory" that words are trying to capture, you know what I mean? Cos I am now really can't be bothered about how people reading this entry, I am aware that it can be misleading... but... still... I am "just do(ing) it"! Charot! Ahaha...

Going to do some work now... I wish I can blog more and more and more! Do more and more and more! Life is not boring to me, but life is too busy for me! Charot! Ahaha... Char! Charring! Charito! Oops... XP

Life Can't Cope Up with My Blog Updates

2009-04-09T18:33:00.002+08:00

Main Label: Life Updates

Haha... Time really flies when I'm busy living with my life with all sorts of funny incidents and stories keep on going around my life and eventually I kind of like "lost contact" with my recent memories and therefore failed to update my blogs with the freshness of those stories.. It was like I was so busy living with those interesting, somewhat dramatic life and it was so "intense" that I left not much time blogging them down... Ahaha... funny, funny...

Now I really don't know where to start... Hmmm... Okay, got it...

~ A Social-able Year of Reunion with Old Friends & Getting Know New Friends! ~
In the beginning of this year, I happened to read a source of Chinese Horoscope about this year. I read mine, of which is "monkey". It said that this year happened to be a very socializing year for me of the possibility of getting back, or reunion with old friends and the chances of getting new friends. And also, in the middle year, there will have higher chance of getting attached!

Well.. I find it very true for the initial statements... Until now, I had met lots of old friends, and those hard / seldom to see one. There was once I went to Singapore Immigration Centre and I met Chew Peng, my secondary school band member! She was rushing to work, so we didn't talk much... And in my previous entries, I already mentioned that I had met Samuel, Haw Chon and Wei Yuan... Also, it so happened that Haw Chon had teamed with Cher Sie, my secondary school classmate to gimme a "surprise" Birthday celebration! I was touched and "surprised" by their "bloated-out surprise"! Haha... But that was another story...

Then in the Facebook (FB), Yi Wen posted our secondary school photos that eventually attracts all those classmate to drop a message. And because of that, we all had added one another in the FB! It brought back lots and lots of memories of those school times...

I guess those were enough to explain that I indeed had met many old friends... So what about new friends? Recently, I met Wayne Sam in the Clark Hatch Fitness Centre. Wayne was a friend of my sis, Finn. She asked him to add me in the FB and gym together with me. And he did. The first time we talked, he was like saying every time he saw me in the gym and he commented this "Hmmm... this guy really look like Finn." Ahaha... So I told him "so you must approach me first mah because you can recognize me..." At first, I saw his FB profile photo and it was quite difficult to recognize him, so I asked him to approach me first...

I always gym alone, attending those classes alone. And of course, I don't mean that I am being lonely and pathetic lah... At times, I prefer to be alone while working out, I can be more focus and time saving. I really don't like those social talk with people there, because it is really diverting my focus and wasting my time. And again, of course I am not rude enough not to talk to anyone who approach me lah. Then now came along Wayne who spices up my gym time. And because we have a lot of common interests and stuff, within shortest possible time, we became very good friend and gym buddy lor... Haha... Now we always go to classes together like Body Pump and Body Combat. And because now got someone accompanying and encouraging me to go for other classes, I attended Body Balance recently and found myself like it very much! Though I still can't balance lah... Haha... In fact, I find that Body Balance is really of good help for me to do some work while working... With some balance body gesture, I can do the work with more effectiveness!

Then there's this instructor from Philippines, his name is Dan. He is the one who teaches Body Combat and Body Pump. He talked to me first and then he introduced his friend Ryan to me. Ryan was a member of the Clark Hatch too. And actually, Wayne had already made friend with Ryan and Dan before I did. Yesterday was a public holiday for us. We actually met up for lunch, (Wayne wasn't with us for the lunch because he had something on) movie and dinner. There's a total of 6 of us. The 3 Philippines Instructor, Dan, Ireen and Edward, Ryan, Wayne and I. Ireen is the Body Balance instructor and Edward is teaching Pilate, Yoga and Body Balance too. Because of common interests, we get along very well... Ahaha...

~ Movie: Fast & Furious 4 ~
And this week I was suppose to meet Samuel for a movie and it ended up he watched a movie with the 6 of us in Tebrau Jusco. So the 7 of us watched "Fast & Furious 4" which was in fact a very good, well-done movie. I was surprised and touched by the movie the fact that the story has certain depth in it... of friendships, loves, betrayal, and stuff... At first, I thought this kind of movie is all about car racing, get a dumpy storyline to fit in those racing scenes or car chasing scenes like that. But this movie is not so, it is packed with interesting story with twist at certain moments and with those really exciting speeding scenes. I find it the last scenes of car chasing in the hidden mine area is something very new. I simply enjoyed the movie perfectly!

After the movie, Samuel gotta leave to do his own stuff and back to the 6 of us, went for a dinner at the famous Nasi Lemak shop at Permas Jaya. My stomuch wasn't feeling well, but as a courtesy, I joined them to eat the famous Nasi Lemak. And the fact is, that was my first time there, so I would like to try it out. But to my taste, I don't really like it leh... Maybe because I heard so much about it and had high expectation towards it... Or maybe because my stomuch wasn't good that time... Anyway, we continued our "crazy" topics there and Ireen kept asking me to talk... "So 'Willy', tell us something about yourself" she said... And yah, they called me "Willy"... Haha... I got a new name... Anyways, my mind was empty and I couldn't really talk much... Ouch, stomachache, can't talk lah.. .Haha... Anyways, we called it a day about 9pm++.

The moment I got home and read an SMS from Phyllis... OOPS! I was not supposed to eat my dinner because I had previously promised to do a blood test the next day (i.e. today)! Aiya... to think that I was considering whether to eat or not just now... Sigh... Nevertheless, have to postpone the blood test...

The Dan, being the natural leader in the gang of 6, has a habit of sms-ing us a "motivational message of the day". As a way of "returning favours", or "showing off", if you prefer to say that, heh heh... I "counter" back a quote to him. And this morning, I prepared a message for him too... Just waiting for him to send me first, and in fact, he did. The moment I read the message, I was so shocked! It was the exact quote from Oprah Winfrey that I prepared this morning! How in the heaven could such coincidence be happening! You know, “买马票都没有将准啦！” "Buy 4D also no such accurate lor!" That makes me wonder, maybe I do come with certain psychic power afterall... Haha... Anyways, here's the quote:

"Doing your best at this moment puts you in the best place for the next moment."
- Oprah Winfrey.

Well, I guess those new friends are more than enough to illustrate my "really"-social life already? Haha... Let's see will I get attached this mid-year... Ahaha...

~ Revelation of Love ~
Sigh... When I thought this chapter of my life (no, I am not refering to "revelation of love" here) is coming to an end, then there it comes a glimpse of hope that light up the possibility of next chapter... new episode... Sigh... somehow my life is full of so many possibility of interesting story and even though, there are so many interesting story going on with my life now... Haha... I do have a very positive mindset afterall... Wayne commented that my sis and I are high EQ people with very positive thoughts... Haha... I am just overly positive and keep on imagine stuff lah...

I always say this, and this became my very own favorite quote:

"He who loves much, possesses much."
- Guru Willy... Ahaha... that's me.

And maybe because I really love, and love a lot, I do possess those I love in one way or another. And also because, "love" and "pain" are related, I suffered pain as well at times. Love more, hurt more; Love deeper, the cut is deeper... But all and all, that does not stop me from loving... :D

Recently, just recently... something stirred in my heart, and that was what I referred in the sub-topic "Revelation of Love", that brings me back to the love of God once again... Hah! Somehow, when you think that "God is not in the office", "He is in the workspace working right next to you!" Or if you would prefer, "He is working right inside your very heart..." In fact, God was speaking to me in the beginning of the movie yesterday... Something had troubled me and I couldn't focus on the movie, and so I told God to gimme the peace and stuff, so that I can focus and enjoy the movie. Then He comforted me, giving me the peace I needed. I didn't feel the goose bump, the intense of God's presence wasn't there as well. But there's this "certain love feelings" that flows out from my heart and was telling me something, thus eventually settled my heart so that I could enjoy the movie...

Last night, as inspired by many sources of thoughts and stuff... I came into this "Revelation of Love", and when the full sentence is finally formed, it somehow sounded so familiar as if I had thought of this before... Sigh... I am really a forgetful person lor... Here's the quote:

"It is funny that in love-ship, we tend to find the one and only Mr. & Mrs. Right that worth us giving up everything and anything in life just to be with them, yearning for the 'Happily Ever After'. You search high and low, and finally... and (of course) surprisingly, you've truly found him / her, someone that worth so much that you are willing to give up your faith, your family, your friend, your money, time and effort, your future and stuff... and that's the time you will realize that the one and only Mr. & Mrs. Right of yours, will not ask you to give up your faith, your family, your friends, your future, your everything just to be with him / her! I'm not sure whether this is the 'true love', But one thing I am sure is that, this is indeed 'the love in its purest form'. Oh, God I'm contented! Really..."
- Guru Willy, and that's me... Ahaha...

Well... my tears almost running down now... Haha... Hmmm... I think this is something similar to the idea that was saying around the Internet long lond time ago... "The one who worth your tears is the one who won't make you cry..." “一个值得让你流泪的人，是不会让你流泪的。。。” or something like that... haha... I was just talking to my sis in MSN now... here's another quote that I wrote to her...:

"When a couple's love becomes stable, it opens the opportunity for the couple to go for his / her own interests. And this brings back the threat of losing attention of one another"
- Guru Willy again... haha...

Heh Heh... If you could truly understand the essence of "He who loves much, possesses much"... May you find inner healing in any situation of your life now. ;) gtg to help Papa in his PC now... I wish I can blog more. :(

Reunion with Good Friends - Part 3

2009-03-24T07:38:00.002+08:00

Main Label: Life Flashback

Yes! A long waited entry... Finally again... managed to find some time to continue this long waited entry liao... Haha... Hmmm... now I even forgot how to continue the story... sigh...

I guessed I stopped at we "lost contact" after Nanyang Poly ba... Then we carried on with our life not contacting one another until... this year's CNY... On the 4th day, 初四，after receiving this special sms, and in the afternoon, he called me finally and we had a short chat after which, we arranged to meet on that night to have a long catching up!

And then another twist had come then... Not long after, Haw Chon, sms me again. Haw Chon... the very best friend of mine when we were in secondary school... Well, he is also another long stories lor... To really cut short the story, Haw Chon also befriended with Samuel very well every since we all know one another. Haw Chon and I had also "lost contact" some times / years after we graduated from Riverside Secondary School... He went to KL to further study since then, we managed to meet a few times. But after he flew to Australia, we really lost contact since then. And until recently, like last year, managed to "find him back lor"...

Ok, come back to the CNY story. Haw Chon, who prefers people to call him as "Haw" now, happened to be in JB, his hometown for CNY. And he asked me whether I got any programs for the night, I quickly replied to him the news about Samuel. And the very night, the 3 of us met up together after a separation for about 12 years!!! We all concluded that it was an absolutely rare gathering! We had a good catching up and stuff and finally went for a movie, Underworld: Rise of the Lycans, a highly not recommended movie though...

Through the chatting / conversation / catching up, I learned that:-
1. His father had died of lung cancer before CNY, therefore he was in JB to 避年 “avoid CNY", and he stayed in his "friend's" house.
2. I asked, "of all the years, what makes you contact me now?" And he said that he so happened to check the e-mails in the "friend's" house, and happened to read my "Cow-Bull-Ox" email and then he was reminded about me.. .Ahaha... So I guessed sending greetings occasionally does provide "certain" help one way or another ba...
3. I changed my mobile phone number quite frequently, and I just wonder how he got this Malaysia number of mine. I remembered that I didn't tell everyone about this number leh... After some time of thinking, I remembered that I did emailed everybody this number, and the Singapore number last time ba... That's the only possible way le...
4. He then changed the word "my friend" to "my girl friend". Haha... so funny, should have said it in the beginning mah... And that could explain lots of stuff already... lol.
5. He knew his girl friend in JB. She is working in a facial wash shop where Sam went there very often. It was through the regular met-up that the 2 of them had come together. And therefore he always comes in JB here to do the spending and as usual, his comment about spending in JB is definitely "real cheap". He comes in here to buy birdnest for his mother, car washing, movie, etc. etc.
6. And now I have one movie-kaki here in JB liao... No need to watch "expensive movies" in Singapore liao.
7. Now we are planning to meet more old friends! But until now, not much progress... :( I also planned to go to his house to "finally" pay his family a visit to show my gratitude and stuff, but again... I failed to do until now, because I am reserving my passport pages for Shanghai trip on April.

There was once we planned to meet up for a lunch with another mutual friend, Wei Yuan, who is now a wanton mee business owner. It was his family business for the three genation, and if have any chance, I will definitely bring my friends and family to eat one. It is very tasty one! And he had a website one: http://www.hosengkee.com go there for more information.

His timing is always very pack and had little holiday or rest, but it so happened that recently he gotta move to a new location, his family and himself had one week "holiday" to do the shifting preparation and stuff. And thank-God-ly, we arranged one Saturday for the lunch in Permas Jaya, 二重丸, another nice Japanese food restaurant in JB... Their Salmon Sashimi comes with dry ice as decoration and giving those smokey effect lor... Just before the day we had arranged the three of us for the lunch, I received a sms from Haw Chon, saying that he would be back to JB this weekend and asked me got any plans or not. So I told him he had come back for the right timing! And on that Saturday afternoon, it was another mere rare gathering for the 4 of us! Don't think that this is not so rare lor, poor Wei Yuan gotta head back for preparing his new shop after his lunch. His phone kept ringing while he was eating. And we had spent only an hour together for the lunch and after that, he rushed back to do his stuff liao lor...

It only left the 3 of us and we planned to watch movie, but no timing suited 3 of us because I would be having a company dinner that night. So we shopped around and sat down in Starbuck in Jusco. Talking about many stuff, and Haw Chon was eyeing at a new dual SIM phone from Samsung, the Samsung D980 Dual SIM touchscreen phone. But it was quite expensive... When about 5.30pm, we left and called it a day lor...

In life, there are many things that you can happy of, and of course, there are also things that make you sad and want to complain about life. To me, even when life has many problems that are yet to solved, as long as there're also stuff or events that can "make my day", I will be very happy and ragain the hope and energy and belief to challenge those problems again. What are those stuff that can "make my day"? -- Meeting close friends, talking topics that we are interested to, watching movies and stuff, etc. etc.

But I had a challenge... most of my friends are in Singapore... And really, the spending in Singapore is quite expensive, and to me, because of the currency rate, everything are all double cost to be. But as compare to JB, it is another story, another heaven for Singaporeans. That's why I keep promoting to Singapore friends to come JB here to spend, to watch movie. My idea of watching movie in JB as compared to Singapore is, using the price of one Singapore cinema ticket to watch movie in JB (or Malaysia) is like "buy one gets one free". yes, you can buy two tickets in JB with the price of one Singapore movie ticket lor... This is like a win-win situation for both party... First win is for friends who can "save a lot" while spending here, second win is for myself that I no need to spend those double cost lor... Unlike when I am meeting friends in Singapore, it is not a win-win situation, everything is double cost for me. And for themselves, they only spend "normally", and not cheaper lor... Haha...

That's why I appreciate friends like Sam a lot lor... And also to those who love to spend in JB one lor... Haha... Oh yes, Ting Ting, if you're reading this, I am refering to Reub and you lor... Ahaha... If wanna save up for London Legoland trip, then must spend time and money in JB lor... Haha... I am waiting for you 2 to come in and find me!

Just recently, I had another 2 friends to come in JB to meet me... But that was another interesting story that waiting for me to blog about if I have the time lor... But nevertheless, I also wish that I have more friends who are willing to go out of the comfort zone in Singapore and make a trip to JB where heaven awaits you... Erm... heaven lor... win-win situation also, you're either in shopping and eating and movie heaven or if you meet robbery, you might also go up to heaven straights... Ahaha... just joking... NO, just becareful when you're in JB. :)

A Lot to Blog, No Time to Blog

2009-03-03T12:12:00.002+08:00

Main Label: Life Updates

Just want to pin down some thoughts and update here before I go about doing my work... Now is the beginning of a new month -- March, and oh no! Can't believe it! 2 months has passed just like that again! Argh~~~! And I haven't finished my CNY event updates and ... my Birthday updates... I thought that I am going to write all of these down now but since is the new month, I got many work to do...

You know it is kind of different to blog / write down what's in your mind right now the very moment, and to write a flashback of your life. Those memories that is closer to you in time, tend to be clearer in your head; and those of past-tense-stories, you will need a time of sit down and recall, of which it takes more time... So I thought of writing some random thoughts in my mind now rather than continue my CNY and Birthday updates! And I kind of worried that I will forget these thoughts so I think I better to write them down now...

~ A Lot to Blog, No Time to Blog ~
My life is full of "somewhat dramatic" stories that I always wanted to write them down... Those stories and thoughts are sooo interesting that I am so afraid that I will forget about them. This is one of the reasons that I started to blog, to write down all the interesting stories in my life... However, after I had setup a space in blogspot to blog, wanting or having the desire to write down every memorable events that I ever encountered, until now I still haven't written much of those stories yet... Just like in my "What's In My Mind Right Now?" column (only in lieh-not-enough.blogspot.com) had said, “有好多好多的想法，概念；有好多好多的回忆，都想把他们一一记载下来。。。因为我真得很害怕把它们给忘了。。。我发现。。。我是个健忘的人。。。”

I discovered 3 reasons for this...
1. Inconveninces for blogging, such as time and places and availability of Internet connection. No time, because of work, other stuff, daily / routine stuff, and stuffs that I always wanted to do. No places... Whenever I want to blog, I will prefer a place of quietness or being alone, because any distractions or interruptions will hinder my thoughts mechanism, resulting me forget what to write or how to continue the sentence or paragraph. When that happens, I will tend to become frustrated and losing my temper a little. And this is what I don't want to happen.

A place of quietness is not easy to get... Definitely, people will think of going to cafe, like Starbucks to use the Wi-Fi there to surf Internet or doing anything online with their precious laptop, but to me... I got a lousy laptop... Well, that laptop of mine, I just suddenly recalled that there are quite a lot of stories about it too! Not of good testimony though. But of those how noisy is it and it is not for outdoor purpose because the battery will run out within an hour... Erm... "an hour" was too nice of saying... Actually is within 30 minutes! And so, I can't go out to Starbuck with that laptop of mine and order a 10 bucks ++ coffee sitting there all day long to do my blogging! And that's why, I always wanted to buy a brand new laptop for myself... I am thinking of Sony VAIO... But nevertheless... I cannot afford it now...

2. Another reason, which I think is very true is "my interesting stories of life is getting more and more and so much more that eventually I couldn't cope up / catch up / capture with!" Ahaha... You see... the reason why I will skip my 2 "promised" previous updates and writing something different now, could tell that this is so true already...

I could still remember the time when I started this blog (blogspot one), I was in the "transition" of giving up my SPR status. For that, I also got a series of events that happened directly and indirectly related to the story... I thought of writing something else first, like more about myself before I would write the story down. But till now, I haven't written that SPR stories... Haha... And in fact, I haven't finished talking "everything about myself" yet... Whatever I wanted to write about myself, such as "A Typical Piscean" and etc, I also haven't written them yet...

Events... somewhat dramatic events, interesting events in my life keeps on coming and coming that I cannot catch up / capture by writing them now. And story will go on / carry on and somtimes, the twist will come in an unexpected way (well, that's why it is called a twist ya!) that might change the course or add colours into my story... I go about from one status to another status without writing whatever has happened... Status... include my spiritual well-beings, my physical health condition such as weight, emotional feelings, environment around me and stuff. And in fact (again), I haven't blog about my unhealthy and fatness condition until now, even I had lost some weight already! Haha...

3. The third reason simply because is... I write very long... Well, most people can agree with this. Time is used to write a super duper long entry! But to me, it is the every and very little details that eventually make up the big story, making the story the way and the reason how / why it is interesting what...

~ Why Am I Talking About All These? ~
Well... I started to write about this is because a friend of mine asked me whether I am happy or not in MSN. This is the reason for initiated this entry but however, this is not the answer for the question whether I am happy or not...

Actually, it was Eliz who asked me "Are you happy now?" in MSN yesterday. Though this question can be simple, casually asked, it somehow got me thinking... I went about telling her "I supposed to be happy, because I am supposed to be positive minded." Then she kind of like asking me to share... That moment all I had in my mind was one recent "interesting story" that I encountered, so I bursted out to her about the story, not in full details though. And one of the words that I used to conclude is something like this: "You may think that such case is rare, but to me, I already get used to it because I always encountered such things... A simple task that can be done within one step, will take me more than two weeks to accomplish simply because something happen in the middle of the process."

Well... that's already a very simple way of telling her... in fact, sometimes there are tasks that took months or even years to accomplish if you would believe... and to add on that "something happen in the middle of the process", is like, some more thing will happen in the middle of the process, and also in the middle-middle of the process... Haha... It is like: Step 1. Start, Step 2. Done. But because something happen in the middle, so the process become, Step 1, 1a, 2. If got more problem, then: Step 1, 1a, 1b, 2. But when Step 1b got problem of its own, then: Step 1, 1a, 1b(i), 2. For more steps: Step 1, 1a, 1b(i), 1b(ii), 1b(iii), 2.

You don't believe? Well... let me show you one of my life experience, the story that I told Eliz, but this time, in perfected full details... A story of "How I wanted to Install Symantec Norton Antivirus Software (SNAS) into My Office Computer" Sound pretty easy? NOT SO in my case... and now you could have total understanding that why my blog is always so long one...

1. Mami (Elyn) asked me to buy antivirus software because hers had expired.
2. Promised her to buy and that's before CNY.
3. Went to Cytech, a computer shop in Taman University (in Johor) that sells whole lot of cheapest computer stuff... A shop that I always recommend to my friends. I ordered the SNAS, but the boss said this needed to wait for the trasport to come, they don't have stock at hand. I was awared of possibility of delay, so I asked him how long, he said 2 days. So I reassured with him, "are you sure?" he replied, "if no accident, it can reach in 2 days."

I placed my ordered on 19th Jan (Monday), thinking that could get it 2 or 3 days later, i.e. Thursday. And we, Daddee (Meng Hua), Mami, Phyllis, Cai Yan and I had already fixed on Friday to have our "Reunion Dinner", and I thought that I could install the SNAS for Daddee & Mami on that day.

4. On Thursday, I went to take my order. They said the driver (who did the delivery work from other supplier) had already stopped working because of the CNY. So my ordered was delayed. I had to wait after the CNY of which, is not 2, 3 days... but 1 week.

5. The shop reopened on 2nd February, I went to check out again on 3rd Feb... Oh... the supplier there said haven't started work yet... or something happened... Gotta wait...

6. One more week over, think about Friday, the 13th, finally I had gotten the SNAS. So next thing is to go Elyn house to install.

7. In the end, we fixed a day on 20th Feb, Friday to go to her house to do the installation. And also, I expected they would gimme a "surprise Birthday" celebration! Haha... Indeed, the surprise came on...

8. the morning of 20th Feb, received a message from Phyllis that Elyn was warded into hospital, waiting for giving birth to the cute Dora. Indeed a surpirse...

9. That Friday night, after work, went to hospital to see Daddee & Mami. Mami was waiting for giving birth. In the end, we didn't have time to go to her house to install the antivirus software...

10. Mami only out of hospital on 23th, Monday. But their baby Dora had to stayed in the hospital for few days because of the skin colour stuff... Wanted to go to Elyn house to install the thing again, eventually, we fixed on 27th, Friday. It was the day that the baby came home too...

11. Finally, was able to install the thing into Elyn's laptop successfully! And the story didn't stop here...

The version of the antivirus software I bought allowed for 3 users' installation. I thought Daddee and Mami got 2 computers to install, but realized that they only needed 1 account, another computer could not access to Internet connection... Initially, I didn't want to install antivirus software in my computer this time round, but since I got extra users' account, so I thought of installig it.

THE NEXT DAY -- 28th February, Saturday.
12. Insert the installation CD into my office computer only to realize that the DVD-rom had problem.
13. Test the DVD-rom with another computer to confirm that it did not function already.
14. Went to Cytech to buy for a new DVD-writer. The boss asked me whether I want IDE or SATA. My old computer can only use IDE and of which... NO STOCK!
15. Suddenly remembered that my home PC supports SATA, went home and check.
16. Took out the DVD-writer from home PC, because it is IDE, I could use it for my office PC.
17. Went to office to install the IDE DVD-writer. Successful.
18. Inserted the installation CD and successful installed the antivirus software.

NOW... the biggest hit of the story is here...
19. The software now asked for activation, which required Internet connection. (anger not yet bursted)

20. Realised that I didn't connect the modem. So I did it and turned on the modem and tried again... then that software had a message saying that "failed to connect to Internet, make sure that I had connect to the Internet and try again." And it automatically launched Internet Explorer with a link that is... erm... broken... (anger not yet bursted)

21. Restarted and tried again. Failed again... Thought that something was not right already. (anger not yet bursted)

22. Tried go to Symantec main site itself, but received message "Page Load Error". Tried many times and still gotten the same thing. So I concluded that, the site must be busy. Let me wait for Monday to try again. So I went about doing my other work. (not yet)

23. After work, went to the shop again to buy a SATA DVD-driver for my home PC. The moment I got there, they were shutting down the door already... What a luck... (not yet)

24. Sunday went to Singapore... another side story here... so on Monday, 2nd March, i.e. yesterday, came to office and tried the activation again... SAME THING. (not yet)

25. Went to the main site again, SAME THING. So I googled about "Symantec site down" and... found news saying that someone, a hacker spot a bug or something in Symantec site, and the Symantec company shut down the whole Symantec site! Even until now! Yes... I just tried again and still "Page Load Error". Other sites work perfectly fine one lor...

This is one of the links to the news, from networkworld.com.

And for now... I couldn't stop the negative thoughts already... It is not that you can see an antivirus software company's web site got pulled down everyday of your life one lor... And even until now, I still couldn't activate my account. And the interesting story here is, on Friday, installed on Elyn's laptop it was perfectly successful! But THE NEXT DAY, (now you know why I capitalised these 3 words previously), when it was my turn to install for myself. I could not have it done perfectly! And to think that before installation, I gotta change a DVD-driver first! And I am not done yet with this story... now the Symantec site still down and..

26. 2nd March, went to buy the SATA, LG 22X DVD writer and installed it on my home PC. But kind of "not compatible", and in fact, the motherboard of the PC has already got problem itself... and that, was another story about that home PC of mine...

Now... finally... "Am I happy?" I should be... And that's another story too... Ahaha... Got such interesting source of story to tell, should I not be happy? And that just reminded me... my lovely Jesus had told me in person, "I only want you to be happy..." So I am!

My 29th Happy?? Birthday

2009-02-26T05:36:00.001+08:00

Main Label: Birthday

Yesterday was my 29th Birthday, the last of 20s... Many stories to tell... But I haven't finished my previous story yet... Wanted so much to continue and on hold about my Birthday updates because I will be having another belated celebration with my Poly friends on the 1st March. But something... unpleasant happened yesterday that left me no mood to continue my CNY updates... sigh...

Don't think I will write these unhappy experience here. Thinking whether should I confront with that person or not... But then now my anger has already dropped and maybe just let the matter be gone with the time ba...

Anyways... just a little updates for my Birthday... I already received my first present from Phyllis (Feili) on 20th February, Friday. I think they wanna gimme a surprise celebration but somebody spoiled their whole plan... Who? Haha... the person is none other than the tiny little Dora! The daughter of Daddee & Mami (Meng Hua & Elyn). OK! More details after my last celebration on 1st March...

The point I want to make here is, Phyllis gimme 2 shirts as my present. When I gave it to my mum for wash, she complained that I had so many clothes already and she asked me to tell my friends to give angbao instead! Ahaha... I wanted so much to voice-record her dialogue! She was so cute lor... Very funny lor... Ask my friends to gimme angbao instead... Though, I think I really wanted it! Ahaha...

Then on 24th, I got another "surprise", but a "bloated out surprise" celebration with a special source of friends that is really something that I never had before. We even celebrated in a Hotel room! Ahaha... Of course, details on hold for now. Guess what? These friends had given me another 2 pieces of clothes! Ahaha... and now I don't dare to "haolian" in front of my mother liao...

Oops... Almost forgot to mention, my sis went to Bangkok recently... early of February... and guess what she bought for me? 2 shirts!!! well... one piece is a very-Finn green colour shirts and another one is a very-Tomy (one of my sis's close friend) red singlet! And you see... within a single month, I already received 6 shirts! And with some mother's complains and nagging! Ahaha... So... no more shirt-present please...... I am writing this here because I know that Minnie, who will be celebrating my Birthday on the 1st March, will most probably reading my blog! AHaha... so buy something else lah...

Anyway, Mini Minnie, and thank you so much to keep on coordinating all these gatherings. I know that it is very hard to get everyone together, and to contact each individual asking for their available time and only to get some last minute changes and have to go about doing the recycle of contacting each individual again and only to get someone complains about the food budget, location and stuff... Ahaha... thank you so much, let's get marry when we are free ya! Ahaha... you're the only girl... erm... lady in my life that I can propose to whenever and wherever I want without a ring or kneeling down! Ahaha... You're my "Freelance Laopo"!

Ok, will continue with my CNY story after I feel better... Maybe like tomorrow... And then will write about my this last 20-n Birthday with presents photo ba... For now, let me have peace and calm my grudges... And maybe will buy myself a Birthday present to make me, myself happy... Haha...

Part 2: Continuation of Previous Entry, But Contents Irrelevant to the Title

2009-02-24T11:42:00.006+08:00

Main Label: Technology

~ The "Lost Contacts" in Time of "Technology Advancement" ~
What do I mean by that? Well, I believe that this is something that most people may experience as well in this era of "technology advancement"... If you scan through your contact list, you will realized that you have... erm... maybe about 200 over contacts? Wow... more than you have in your Facebook huh? But the question is, how many contact numbers will you call a day? How many will you need in a day? You get what I mean? Even though we had whole lot of friends' contact numbers in this era of "everyone has at least one cell phone", we could still "lost contact" with one another. There are a lot of "redundant" contacts in our contact list... but still we cannot delete them away. Simply because that would mean the total, really "lost contact" liao...

People will often be so busy / caught up with stuff surround their environment, such as family, work, colleagues, some friends, we tend to neglect some other friends, i.e. people who are not in your direct / close environments... I used to have my secondary school friends called me and asked me out. But because I got "other stuff" to take care of, I rejected them. And eventually, they stopped asking me out... I felt bad, I felt left out. But what can I do?? It is usually that the timing that does not match... People usually will organize event or outing during weekend. But people only got Friday night, Saturday and Sunday. And to me, I gotta work on Saturday too and most of my friends are in Singapore. This means that it made the meeting of friends even more difficult. That's why I will say, one Sunday per week is not enough for me... I want to meet many friends! Haha...

In the past, one thing that I tried to do to "maintain friendship" via sms was to send mass sms to everyone in my contact list occasionally. But having the kind of technology level that time, I had problem sending... It would be interrupted when someone replied to you immediately while you're still sending to the half of your contact list... This would mean that you have to resend again... Sometimes that message maybe corrupted and people may receive "Alien" language or like incomplete message. And when you resent it again... and again... it turned out to be annoying and the original purpose had defeated. Another point... when you tried to send seasonal well wishes "on time". For example, after countdown for Christmas, you might want to send "Merry Christmas" to all of your friends and that's the time you would realize all other people think the same as you. So everybody would send to everybody sms-es and eventually it congested the network... duh... sianz... So in order to avoid the busy hour, some people will send the message earlier.

All and all, mass sms turns out to be a very much troublesome thing to do... It may takes like 30 minutes or more to finish sending the message to everyone in your contact list... And of course, this would really cost a lot... 200 contacts will mean 200 sms like that leh... So... I gave up this habit. But the most disappointed reason for sending mass sms-es is when you receive a simple, 3-letter, rude-felt reply of "wru?" Grr... I really think that this is so rude lor...

You should have written politely like, "I'm sorry, I do not have this number of yours. May I know who is this? This is Wei Lieh / Adrian, the Creative Mind / JB Shaoyeah" something like that mah... or: "I lost my phone recently, so I don't have your number. May I know who is this?" "wru?" is way to "friendly" ya! Lost of cell phones are a common thing now. However, some replies were actually from absolute strangers! That makes you wonder... "How come my friend didn't update with me his/her new contact?" "Maybe he/she lost his/her phone and applied a new line?" "So all the while I have been keeping this stranger's mobile phone number?" "Damn! I should have deleted it away!" “早知道就把它洗掉！” "How long does this redundant number has been staying in my phone for nothing?"

And that leads to the ultimate doubts... "Do I have more such numbers in my phone?" "Wait a minute, is the Steven (just an illustrated name) in my contacts the Steven I know?" "If I call this number, looking for Minnie (another illustrated name), will I get a rude response of "WRONG NUMBER!" *Hanged off!* ?" "Do the numbers that I have really the phone numbers of people I know?" "This number didn't reply to me after I had sent a few sms-es, call also no answer, like didn't switch on like that... so should I delete it away?" And also, you don't know whether the other party has your latest phone number or not.

~ My Experiences with the "Constant Change of Phone Number" ~
In my case, my personal experiences, I also happened to change phone numbers quite often. And I realize that this is quite annoyed. There was this time I got a new Singapore prepaid line but not long after, I found out another way of saving $$$. So I gotta change another phone line. The story goes like this... Not long after I got my prepaid line. A friend of mine was subscribing a new line in order to get the phone he wanted. Because it was cheaper by purchasing the phone he wanted via a new line. At the same time, he would still wanna keep his existing contact number because it was still in contracts. So he was paying an additional phone bill monthly without actually using the new line. Since in such a condition, I "volunteered" / "proposed" to help to use his line instead. Of which, he agreed. To further assure him, I told him that if I used / spent more than he usually pays, I would pay him back the "over-use" amount. I only need the Singapore line when I am in Singapore, so the usage could hardly cross over the basic amount. And that's how I got my existing Singapore phone line number... However, after his contracts with this line is over, I think I gotta change phone number again... haha...

I was aware that it would be such a nuisance to give another update to people not long after I had just updated them my new line. So I thought that I would kind of "delay" this process later... Then there was this one friend I knew from church, erm... to make story easy to tell, and not to say anything bad about this person -- he had a little attitude problem or insecure in certain manner. He MSN-ed me about his new contacts and asked for mine. I told me I was about to change a new line, so I would give him my latest contact number after I got it. In my mind, this was not a top priority task to do now, because I was intending to delay this process too... So I went about doing other tasks and leaving this behind.

Like few weeks later, I still hadn't told everyone about my change of phone number except to a few who I usually or most-frequently would contact to. At that time, we "met" in MSN again, and this friend was asking me for my number again. I wasn't in good mood that time because of many stuff to deal with, I guessed my tone wasn't good too... I replied to him, "I still haven't got the time to do the update yet." In my mind, I was planning the update to be a mass one, of which is time-consuming. However I believed that he perceived the other way round... He was very much pissed off and got upset / angry with me. He said he would deleted my MSN account and we shall never talked again. And the last words he said was, "I deleted you in my MSN liao, bye!" I was shocked and there's nothing much I could do with an angry person. All I could reply to him was, "no matter what, I would not delete you from my MSN account." But everything was too late...

Although I expected that people could not understand the way I handled stuff or tasks at hand, especially in this case, I would still fail to anticipate the reaction of this friend. Well, I thought I could carry on with my story telling him the reasons behind all this, but before I could do that, he was already pissed off and thinking that I do not treasure this friendship with him. "How much time will it take just to give me your number?" He must be thinking in this way... But I was thinking of doing something like "once and for all" thing like that, i.e. to mass sms everybody...

But anyway... something about friendship... I am not standing here saying that I'm a prideful person who don't need friends! Anyone who would have known me inside out, deep-deeply understand me about my character and personality, would know that a friend like me, has no criteria in accepting friends... "All are welcome!" that's what I would say. And sometimes that's how... I got to know some weird people... Haha... Because of distance, time and situations, I may not be ready for you as a friend, I'm sorry about that. But when I am available, I will be my best to be there for you... Frankly speaking, about that friend of mine, I would say that he needs a friend like me more than I need a friend like him. He suffered "more lost" than I did. Well, my words could be cruel and sound prideful and ignorant. But of course it is not. If you still think in that way. All I can say is that, I'm sorry that my word can mislead you in that way...

So in the end... I didn't initiate to MSN him even when I saw him online... And in my impression, I think I e-mailed to everyone about my change of phone number instead of sms-es. Because, e-mailing is free of charge! Haha...

Come back to my story about me keep changing phone numbers. I do have people failed to contact me with my new line... And I got sms-ed friend via a number that was no longer valid as well... All of such leads to many misunderstanding and miscommunication... Felt bad... I do have a few stories regarding these misunderstanding and miscommunication. For example, there was once that my friend, Mini Minnie canceled a gathering and informed me via sms, and sms-ed to my old number. In the end, I met up with PeiO and only to realize that the rest of them not coming... So we ended up having our very private "dating" together. And later my sis also joined in! Haha...

Now really, my contact list must be in an absolute mess and confusion. And at the same time, people who had my contact number may not be the exact number that could reach me. :( And "no choice", gotta still keep every number inside my contact list...

Other than phone numbers, another similar case goes to the e-mail addresses too... Some people keep changing e-mail addresses without telling you. And some people after being told about change of e-mail address, forgot or lazy to update it. All and all, we do have some redundant e-mail contact list too... Last time I sent e-mailsss to people and if the addresses bounced back few times, then I would delete those contacts already...

Well... all and all, this is what I meant by "Lost Contacts in the Lost World of Technology Advancement". Was supposed to carry on with my CNY stories about the reunion with a close friend of mine, but ended up talking about this story of mobile phones and e-mails. Nevertheless, this phenomena played a part in the reunion story I am telling. But really nowadays, cell phones, e-mails and MSN play an interesting part in communication and people's network that seemed minimal and unimportant but still, it is the key to everybody's interesting stories... Many movies has already involved all this in their story plots and eventually became a common thing now in movies.

Dear all friends, I love you all. I'm sorry if you still keeping my redundant or outdated numbers. Please do not let this as a hindrance for our friendship. Even if my real numbers do not stay in your mobile phone memories, but please be told that you will still be part of my heart, spirit and memory. If you don't have my number, you can still reach me here in my blog, or MSN, or Facebook, or Friendster, or twitter... Ahaha...

My Chinese “牛” Year 2009 & More Life Flashbacks! Part 1

2009-02-21T10:51:00.003+08:00

Main Label: Life Updates, Life Flashbacks

I thought I was going to have another usual, boring Chinese New Year (CNY)... But somehow something spiced it up and I eventually realized that I enjoy this season of celebration very much!

~ Spice #1. Very Committed into Spring Cleaning ~
I realized that this year I was very committed into the boring, tiresome, hard-work Spring Cleaning. The usual me is like that, the more I do and focus, the more I enjoy doing it. So the idea is to "keep the ball rolling". I have been cleaning a lot of stuff, both office and my big big house, but however, there are still a lot of stuff that I missed doing... Really got no choice, it will take a whole lot of time, maybe more than 1 month to clean everything thoroughly... To rate my own's hardwork, I am pretty satisfied with what I had done. XD And... Oops! I didn't do a list of all the tasks to do! Haha... Am so lazy...

~ Spice #2. My Cow-Bull-Ox Greetings / Well-Wishes ~

Before the New Year come, I already received and read many well wishes... Because it is a “牛” year, I found out that different people translate the animal differently, all I could remember in the past was, people always used "cow" as the translation. But this time round I saw people used "Bull" and some "Ox". That made me wonder... which is the correct translation. But of course, I know that they are all acceptable. Then somehow my mind started to play with the Chinese & English translation and stuff. Eventually, my "poem" was out! I think I am so "creative"! Haha... I especially like the part of "Oxpicious" (Auspicious) and "PrOxperOx" (Prosperous)! I feel so happy whenever I read the whole passage too! So happy~~! A sense of fulfillment in my heart. And it will usually made my day~! Ahaha...

~ Spice #3. “守岁” until 7am!
I think this is the first time that I could stay awake overnight for so long! 7am! Well... I was surfing the Internet... And this is really a good time-killer! Ahaha...

~ Spice #4. My "Long Lost" Friend Contacted Me! ~
Well... This is one very major spice... or rather, it was really a big surprise for me! So this part is going to be a very long story!

On the 3rd day of New Year，年初三，I slept at about 11pm++, before I switched off my handphone, somehow I had an sudden idea that "maybe someone will call me". But still, I turned off my handphone and went to sleep... Indeed the next morning, after I switched on my mobile phone, I received message that telling me there's missed call from an unknown number. And there's another message from that unknown number saying:

"Hi, weilieh, happy Chinese New Year to u and ur family. This is my Malaysia line. Keep in contact! Samuel. God Bless."

For awhile, I was thinking who is this "Samuel"? Could this be a "wrong number". But no... this person could spell my name correctly and perfectly! I will think that it is "rare" for people to spell my name correctly, especially my "Lieh" has the extra and essential "H" at the end. So he is definitely someone I know and he is definitely someone who is very close to me. And really, I don't know many guys with the name Samuel, other than two... One is really an acquaintance who confirm don't have my contact number. And the other one is none other than my friend I knew since secondary school time... And indeed, it was him...

~ Secondary School Life Flashback ~
Ahaha... it brings back some memories now... Samuel (Sam) and his whole family are very special to me...

When I was in secondary school, during the 'O' Level year, I felt that my time was wasted in traveling to and fro Singapore and Malaysia, and also the jam and crowded Custom during peak hour. So I thought that I could stay in a Singapore friend's house, so that I will have more time for revision and homework. Sam, was also one of my band member-cum-friend. I forgot the reason why or how I had asked him whether I could stay in his house... I guess he was a very open guy ba... Indeed, one thing I realized about him was, and really amazed about him was, he never say "NO" to people... So I think that's how I gotta stayed in his house ba...

That time we were very close then. Because we stayed together, we do whole lot of things together... Go to school together, late together (grrr...), go back home together, play together, eat together, do homework together, torn overnight for rushing technical portfolio together, and even sleep together! Haha... Because he stayed in a small flat, with one of the rooms rented out. So he, his sister and I squeezed in one room together... We were really "that buddy" lor...

Back then, I was also very close to his family. I especially liked his mother and his Popo... I respected them a lot. They always took care of me and treated me as their own son / grandson. They cooked food for me and even gimme to drink chicken essence whenever we had to torn overnight for technical portfolio. Popo played mahjong with us and we loved playing mahjong!!! My parents passed me an amount of money and asked me to pass to Sam's family as a mean of "rental fees". But his mother refused to accept it when I offered to her. I was so touched and don't know what to do... I always think that I am indebted to this family with gratitude and appreciation. I remembered one time that my parents brought durians for this family! But after eating a lot, some of them fall sick... :( Felt so paiseh you know...

Oh! One of the most important things that we did together, was to go to church together. His elder sister, Mabel and himself were devoted Christians since then already. During Sunday, if I didn't go back to JB, I would go to their local church together. In a way, you could say that "he brought me to church". But actually the fact was that... That time I already "interested" or found curious about this religion called, Christian. So I was using this opportunity to go to church and get to know more, a little more about Christianity...

~ Hearing His Voice for the First Time ~
Oh... God... It really brought back some memories back then... It was the first time ever that I heard Your voice... You spoke to me with Your gentle, whispered voice, yet of which, still could resound / echo in my head now... I was lying on my bed that night, regretting to you, I said: "Oh God, I'm sorry that I cannot become a Christian now..." Then Your voice, not that inner voice... I really heard a gentle, whispered voice at that moment, right next to my ear... Though I spoke to You in English... You replied me with Chinese... You said... “不能就不能吧。。。” (meaning: cannot then cannot lor...) With that gentle, soothing voice, I was able to sleep at peace...

Maybe people could not really understand why would a God that response in this manner? Such answer can be perceived as being negative, and not so "biblical" way... Well... that's why God would never speak to you! Ahaha... throughout the years of experiences of being a Christian, one of the things that I realized about God is... Sometimes as He speaks, to you, He will not finish a long sentence, but instead, He will say something like... half of it?? And the rest of the sentence, or conversation is "said", or rather "transmitted" directly, immediately and without delays, into your heart... What God would trying to say to me at that moment, of course, which was understood to me perfectly or near-perfectly was something like this:

"I understand the reasons / barriers for you not being able to become a believer. It is okay. I know your heart and I know that now is not the time for your conversion yet. And that doesn't mean that you will not become a Christian in the future / for the rest of your life. Everything is under control... And for now... sleep..." You know? That's my God. :)

~ Life After 'O' Level ~
Ok. To summarize the rest of the flashback stories: After 'O' Level, I left Sam house and came back to my JB big house... And after that... we kind of "lost contact" to each other... But of course, not really lost contact lah... I found out that we happened to be at the same school again! And that was Nanyang Polytechnic... Though we took different courses and we could hardly met. And since then, I always wanted to afford some time to go back to his house and visit his family... But... too much things... that eventually until now I haven't got a time to go back to see them! So "no heart" right...

At that time, cell phones haven't be much popular yet for teenagers. But not long after, like after Poly life, I managed to get a cell phone and that's the "High peak of SMS-es time of my life"... Whatever stuff, I usually sms-ed friends... It was like an "in" thing to do. It was like a game that is "soooo fun" to play like that... haha... I remembered that was once I sms-cum-chat with 3 different friends and they were also sms-ed to one another like that! But now, I guess I am so "old" that I lazy to sms... Would rather call the person if he or she is available to talk... It is time wasting to wait for the reply and lazy to type lor...

So anyway, come back to the story... Through other band members, I managed to get his contact. So in this manner, we "found each other" again... I meant that, we were not in "lost contact" mode... Haha... Right after we got each other's phone number, we called and had a short conversation, or catching up... And after that... we "lost contact" again... aiyo... haha...

Oops... Still got a long way to go... Shall continue in a new entry...

That's right, to be continued...

Flashbacks of Christmas 2008

2009-02-19T10:38:00.004+08:00

Main Label: Life Flashback

Woohoo~~! Now is middle of February already! Time really flies! ... No... I think time "dashes"! Ahaha... Finally, after being busy for many stuffs, and still going to be busy with many stuffs, I am now able to gimme some times to do some blog updates...

Time is like a rocket shoot up to the heaven, no U-turning, no slowing and stuff. It just keep dashing towards the sky and you can't grab a hold or make it stop for you. So many days pass with so many interesting events happened and eventually I forgot them and now not able to recall and blog them down... Sigh... But one thing that I remembered that I must blog down, which is also like last year thing, is the Christmas time... So I will start writing them down now before I eventually forget about it...

~ Confession of Not Gifting ~
One thing that I finally realized about my Christmas every year was that I didn't manage to get presents for my friends! One reason, or excuse that I came out myself was "I'm in the midst of Building Fund." What I could recall was, before the Building Fund started some years ago, I managed to buy small, cheap presents for my CG during the Christmas season. But when I committed to the Building Fund my very first time, I stopped this gifting habits. And ever since, Building Fund became my valid reason, or excuse for not gifting...

And this Christmas... erm... I mean the last Christmas, it was like a light bulb lighted up in my head, that I realized that I should have reserve some money for gifting. This happened after a friend of mine, a non-Christian, who is also happened to be an "Anti-CHC", bought us (my friends and I), each of us a Christmas present when we were actually celebrating her belated, very belated Birthday... I kind of felt paiseh / disgrace about myself... So that's how I gotta confess about this mindset that I have.

This is what my friend had given to us... It was not something expensive, and she wrapped those presents with magazine which was costing-saving and at the same time, creative. I was touched by her action and disgrace about myself... It was like: "Shame on you... You called yourself a Christian? A non-Christian gave you a Christmas present!"

This is our group photo for the Birthday gathering. Notice the magazine-paper-wrapped-presents. Oh my sis, Finn happened to join us as well. PeiO, the one who had prepared the presents, was sitting on the very left of this photo. She also got prepared a present for my sis! That's very nice and thoughtful of her! PeiO, you're always my 女神~! Always...

~ Side Story: Building Fund; CPF ~
This time's Building Fund is rather really stressed to me. I realized that I kind of "out-give", or "over-give". And I thought I was in the edge of not able to fulfill it because what I planned in my mind did not happen in reality. Someone who owed me money delayed the payment and I finally realized that I could not rely on the source of income already. And that's the time I am thinking of new source, of which, it could be late already...

I was listening to the FM95.8 where someone talked about money matter, or some monetary policy that was using in Singapore (the exact details I could not remember). And suddenly I was reminded I have certain savings in my Central Provident Fund (CPF) that I can withdraw! It was like God reminding me that "I am not that broke lah..." I gave up my Singapore Permanent Residence (SPR) like about one year ago from now, but my CPF account is still valid for me. Since I am no longer a SPR, the amount in my account can be withdrawn according to my likes. The only bad thing about it was, if I ever want to get back my SPR, i.e. which means to work in Singapore, I gotta returned back the amount withdrawn and together with the interest.

It is very interesting when I looked at the timing that "God" would reveal / remind those "hidden treasures" that I had but which I was not aware of or forgotten. Somehow, I would thank God that He reveals it after I had pledged the amount. If I were to be reminded about the hidden sum before the Building Fund, I would have considered those amount... Haha... But nevertheless, the CPF account should serve as my "reserved fund", 储备金 in this time of Economic Tsunami, which means I shall not use it unless it is very urgent...

Right now I have fuifilled 75% of my Building Fund. And I don't want to convert my Ringgit Malaysia to fuifill the 25%. I think I will fulfill the 25% using my money in CPF account and later in the time, I will put back the amount that I have withdrawn... Man! I thought my CPF account ain't got much leh... until recently CPF mailed to me the latest update. Wow~! Ahaha... And to think that the yearly interest is 2.5%, I think I would rather save my money in this account le...

~ Back to Confession of Not Gifting ~
I figured that it was "lame" to use "Because I am in the midst of Building Fund" as a rejection of buying and giving Christmas presents. And to think that I was still able to buy quite a lot of stuff for myself because of the "Christmas Sale"! This should not be it man! So that's why, even Christmas had over for more than 1 month, I knew that I must blog this confession down to remind myself about this mistake / negligence that I had made. Next time's Building Fund, I will have to plan, and to keep some money for the Christmas Sale, because it really saves a lot; and also to reserve certain $$$ for gifting and really gotta give presents and "return favors" to friends... What is "return favors"? When someone give you a Christmas present but you didn't, so you buy one and give the person back one gift, this is what I call return favors. It is really another real shame when someone got you present and you didn't do the same to that person...

Oh one thing that I did to "cover", to "reconcile", to 挽回 my negligence, is to buy a log cake and had a tiny, simple Christmas celebration in my house with all my cute, funny and lovely nieces and nephews. The log cake was delicious and I regretted a little for not buying the bigger one. Didn't manage to take a photo of that delicious log cake. Also, failed to answer this question: "Why do you eat log cake during Christmas season?" Erm... I really don't know... Who can tell me? Please...?

~ My Top 3 Christmas Presents ~
I wanted to show all my "Christmas Presents Harvest 2008", but since it is over for more than a month, I will only show my top 3 harvested presents... Haha...

#1: Light of the City Audio CD by Carol Chin
Carol said she wanted to "lend" me this CD because I always wanted to listen it first before I would decide whether to buy it or not. At the time of meeting, which was during Christmas Service, she passed me this brand new CD and said it was a present for me instead. I was shocked. Thank you, Huili!

#2: Addidas Workout Shorts by Jiahui Goh This was actually "Gift Exchange" by my CG. We had a "wish list" with 3 options that tells every member what we want for our Christmas presents. Jiahui had drawn my name and she gave me this out the 3 wishes. In fact, I was a little worried that whoever bought this may not suit my need perfectly. But to my surprise, this is exactly what I want for my workout short, -- not too long nor too short. Too long if it reaches my knees actually hinders my performance when I workout. Too short will be too "sexy" that I won't wear! Haha... So that length is exactly what I wanted. And there're pockets! I got "many stuff" to carry one during workout. So I really need pockets! Thank you, Jiahui!

#3: Manchu Singlet by Peter Tan
Ever since I started to lose weight, I also started to shop for nice clothes! Haha... Yah, I know, so vain. I came across this shirt while shopping with my friend, Peter. After trying out the shirt, he offered to pay the price for me! Thank you, Peter!

This is another singlet that I got! Ahaha... I love the "simplicity" of this shirt's design. The brand is Everlast. But too bad, I still haven't got much "confident" to wear this 2 singlet out in street... :(

This Tiger beer was an award in my CG's very own "N333 Fun Awards". It was presented on 31 December 2008, before we had our 2009 Countdown. Every member got their very own awards, some got more than one award of course. I was so surprised that I also got one, because I seldom, hardly join my CG for event and CG meeting one... I am more of a "guest" than a "member" you see. But anyway, this was what Wendy had said about this Tiger Award:

Tiger: "Give these guys a Tiger!" No, I meant these guys are like tigers and tigress. Their courage and might in times of adversity and challenges is a mark of their strength. No matter how tough things may be, they do not give up but continues to fight. What remarkable fighting power! Roar!
Winners -- MK & Wei Lieh
Wendy Goh (31/12/2008)

Yup, Ming Kai (MK) was another winner of this award as well. :)

I got some other Christmas presents as well, but think not putting all of their pictures here... But again, I am thankful to people for your heart-warming presents~! See? I received more than I gave... I really gotta self-reflect in this "Season of Giving". :D

黑皮“牛”意儿~！ Happy “牛” Year~!

2009-01-24T10:59:00.005+08:00

Main Label: Seasons Greeting

Hey... it's year of Cow... er, Bull...? ... or Ox??? ... Aiya... Why so many names one? Which is the right word to use?? Very funny de neh... Haha...

But anyway, here's your Lieh-not-enough to wish you a very very great Cow-Bull-Ox year ahead~!
恭喜发财~！Gong Xi Fa Cai~!

~ It's a year of the COW~! ~
年年有余~！May you have lots and lots and abundant $ $ $ to COW (count). Always got more than enough in every aspect of your life (except problems...).

天天COW（高）兴~! 幸福美满~！May happiness always be with you. Wish you can meet your ideal COW-boy / COW-girl this year too~! Heh heh...

~ It's a year of the BULL~! ~
心想事成~！May God answers the desires of your heart and your dreams come true~! May you hit the "BULL's eyes" of your goals~!

BULL BULL COW Sheng~! (步步高升~！) Wish you success in whatever you're doing in your business or career~! May God brings you up to the next level~!

身体健康~！May you stay healthy and as fit & strong as the BULL~!

~ It's a “牛” year~! ~
“牛”转乾坤~！牛年行大运~！May you be an overcomer of your challenges and turn the challenges into good opportunities~!

~ It's a Moo Moo Year~! ~
万事如意~！May everything will go sMooMoothly to you~!

It's a year of the OX~!
OX(傲视)群雄~! May you stand out against all OXs (odds) and be a winner / leader, overseeing all others~! XD

Last but not least, may you have an OXpicious (Auspicious) and PrOXperOX (Prosperous) year ahead~! XD

I Love you all~! Let's us gambatte together~!

Before Chinese New Year Updates

2009-01-20T11:23:00.002+08:00

Main Label: Life Update

Well... Just wanna give another long entry of updates about this month, January 2009...

~ New Year "Common" Thoughts ~

Whenever new years draw in, people always commented this "time flies~~~", “一年就将过去了。。。” really, this year is also the same. Everyone seems to agree that time flies... It was like few months ago that we had our countdown party like that, but we had it another one for 2009 already... sigh...

Usually, I don't like to go countdown one... What is the purpose for counting down? It is like... "5, 4, 3, 2, 1, 0... Happy New Year", and you go about wishing people "Happy New Year~!", but my heart, my mind always say this "Happy New Year, One Year Older~!" so, what's the big fuzz huh? Anyway, I only join people for counting down event merely for the gathering, the fellowship purpose one...

~ New Year Old Problems ~
Indeed, a brand new year has come. But old problems and challenges does not fade off, nor resolved nor overcome. And new challenges are knocking in your heart of door! It is always like that... Sometimes, I really don't like "new years", every time when new year come, I am really refreshed because I can start things anew. It is always like that, people have the mentality that when new year come, you will have new resolution and stuff. This is the same to me. But when I have the mind of "the start of something new", then I am reminded again for the failure that I had encountered in the past, year after year, when I tried to do something to improve myself, to clear off my long To-Do-List (TDL), problems are coming excitingly to make things complicated to me. Sometimes I resolved certain problems, but most of the time, major problems are like big stumbling block, or road block that get in my way... This always got me thinking... "why am I doing this? I should have spent my time doing the things that I love to do, instead of wasting my time here" A simple task can exhaust most of my time and effort just because unnecessary problems join in. I do consider myself a positive person, I tried to solve those problems that I can, but there are times, problems I alone cannot solve by myself and the fact is, there is only me doing this. :( I am positive, but again, I am not a very determined, long stamina person. In fighting problems over a long period of time, I guess, I will eventually be defeated... This is what I wanted to change again in this new year. Though I may not very determined, but still, I am a very stubborn person~! (not the way you can see it usually, my stubbornness is not easily spotted on) I don't want to give up~! I will try my best to "retry", "Try again"~! This is the game-playing spirit~! Wahahaha~~~

~ New Year New Problems ~
While old problems piled up, new problems also like to join into the fun. This year I got new things to do... Cholesterol to minimize, fats to burn, new company works, and Eliz (one of my "favourite" CG friend) has asking me to commit into the CG's very own blog. The usual-don't-know-how-to-say-no-me wouldn't bear to reject her, so... Ai... more things for me lor... Regardless, I am thinking that this is the least I can do for the CG ba...

While I guess everyone has their goal setting done, I still the same, couldn't get myself the time to do it... Well... busyness. I will think that this year's Chinese New Year come in rather early, it is at end of January. However, the work itself also got many stuff to do, like prepare documents for audit, calculating bonuses etc etc... And to add, I got a brand new company to take care of. In fact, before the new year started, I had done the design of payment and receiving vouchers, official receipts, and sent it for printing. My father wanted this new company to start operation in this new year, so I was rather busy again. And all this busyness had left me and my family not much time for the spring clean for the Chinese New Year~! And that's why... I am very occupied by this January... and now is the 20th day of the new year already! 6 more days toward Chinese New Year some more~! Lieh-not-enough~!

~ My Sundays Usage ~
I used 2 Sundays for the spring cleaning also not enough~! on 4th Jan, I was asked by father to replace the old, colour-faded, electric lanterns in front of the living room's main door, my "Chinese garden, the 中国亭", and the side area... I thought of doing some cleaning on the wire part also, well... this whole process used up that Sunday of mine. And it was only like half done. It was only fully completed like on the Tuesday. I wanted to take the photo of these new lanterns... But... erm... lazy lor...

The next Sunday I managed to go to Singapore for Service, because I had met friends for a belated Birthday celebration on the Saturday evening. Minnie and I managed to watch the "Ponyo on the Cliff by the Sea" movie before meeting the others. That Saturday evening had a "little story" in my family... My mum also came into Singapore with me actually. She went to attend the company dinner by my 二姐's husband's family business. It was a major event for them, my 二姐 thought that I will be going, but instead, I went to meet my friends. She was disappointed. In the end, my 四姐, aka Finn aka Ah Bee went to the dinner with my mum instead.

Everyone in my family automatically put me into the dinner, as if I am sure to go, I am always free to go. But my friends and I already settled that Saturday for the gathering, because our time are also very, extremely difficult to coordinate, everyone seems to be busy with other things during the weekends. So it is also very rare for us to have a gathering, and I am not willing to give up this meeting for anything, that includes the company dinner. Then, I felt very "strange"... It seems like it is a very big thing to my family that I am not able to go for the company dinner... Everyone was assuming that I can go, and when they realized that I cannot go, they will keep asking me and one another, why I cannot go. Well... this is so strange to me... It is a big thing to them that I cannot make it for the company dinner~!

Actually, this is what I want to "break the pattern" in the mind of my family... I am using this opportunity to do it. I really don't like their assumptions... I felt disrespected by their assumptions. No one had asked me to go, they expected / presumed me to go! I am not invited, but I am an automatically-added guest. Well, good and no good. But I just don't like it. I have my own time to do my own things too! There are many words and thoughts and feelings about this. But I don't want to go about that here. I am now grateful that I used this opportunity to break the mindset of my family...

Coming back to the Sunday bah... I stayed overnight in my 二姐's newly renovated house. It was all nicely done. And I went to the Expo's Service the next moring (i.e. 11th January). It was John Bevere~! Actually he was rather "familiar" to me, I think I didn't hear his preaching before, but his name just so familiar that I can remember easily... Only like about 75% time of his preaching, when he talks about his experience in writing books or translating his books, that's the time I realized that I get to know his name in Christian books... He wrote a lot of Christian books. And the name "John Bevere" is always seen in the Christian bookstores and in the midst of Christian bookshelves!

About his sermon that day... Man, it was like another surprise from God. The day before, I was thinking about "Honour your father and mother" (Exodus 20:12, Deuteronomy 5:16). And I always have this desire, that to honour my father and mother. And once in a while, I will imagine, think about how can I honour them. That Saturday, I thought a lot about it again. I was so inspired and stuff... And on the Sunday morning, his topic was "Honour's Reward". And one of the note was definitely "Honour your father and mother". I was so wanted to buy the "Honour's Reward"'s book and CDs... But in the end, I didn't... Because it was too expensive~~! Haha... Nevertheless, I am once again be thankful to God that he is like telling me, "I am not forgotten"...

Last Sunday... i.e. 18th January. The day before, I was thinking whether should I go to Singapore until my father had asked me not to go and stay at home to do spring cleaning. Then, no choice, no need to go Singapore liao lor. I spent that Sunday vacuum-cleaning the ceilings, until afternoon, I only managed to complete the downstairs' rooms. And I went to exercise after I had my nap. XP

About spring cleaning... I have that mixed feelings... Sometimes I really don't like to do it, but there are times I really want to do it. One of my goal, erm, life time goal, is to take initiative to do this spring cleaning before my father asked me to do. This year, I managed to notice that he bought new lanterns, but failed to initiated the replacement. I asked my father how much he bought for those lantern, but he didn't really answer my question, instead, he asked me to replace them! I was like... “炸到”. So next time, I must do it before he even asked. Then last week, he had asked me to vacuum clean the ceilings... Hmmm... next time I wanted to do this before he even asked too!

On the other hand, it is a really tiring, boring, time-wasting job to do spring clean. My progress is always slow, and until now, I haven't found a time for myself to do some goal setting yet, and January 2009 is soon going to finish~! That's why I will feel unwilling and reluctant to do it sometimes, I will prefer some personal time before I want to commit all these... Man, all and all, it all goes back to the title of this blog "Lieh-Not-Enough"~! And there is only me... :(

But anyway, I think I should put this "Chinese New Year Spring Cleaning" in to my TDL... To jot down what to do, all the list of tasks, and proposed time-frame of doing those tasks, etc, etc. And there are certain cleaning that can be done by external professional service, such leather car seats I guess... Such stuff can be done much earlier before Chinese New Year... Yah, something like that.

Hmmm... So many more things to tell... I even wanted to say something about my "Christmas Gifts Harvest" last year and thoughts... But... Nevertheless, I should stop blogging and get going with my work and spring clean now!

Me and My Disney Kingdom !!!

2009-01-06T09:45:00.001+08:00

Main Label: Disney

Oh~~~! Look at what "Disney" has blessed me with~! Haha~!

Well this is really creative and interesting and really surprising and shocking and really filled with joy and happiness to look at~!

I received this from one of my good friend in Church, Fabian. Was really happy and surprised when I watched it. And I immediately give "my Disney Kingdom" to some of my good friends... Sorry, if I didn't "email" you one of such "news", please do tell me if you want one. Haha~~~!

Oh, actually, just go here: www.sun7news.com :)

Season Greetings: A Home-Brewed Poem - Marry My Merry Mary Merrily

2008-12-22T09:28:00.001+08:00

Main Label: Home-brewed Poem

Oh... erm... a poem inspired when I was trying to "suan" a friend of mine, but in the end, I came out this poem. Haha... I created this like last year, near Christmas. Oh gosh~! I can't believe it! It has been a year already~! Everything seems "still the same" to me. No going up, nor going down. But really, there're things going down, if you're not going up! Anyways, that is not the topic here, but my greetings for everyone~!

~ Wei Lieh - Adrian, the Creative Mind - JB Shaoyeah - Lieh-Ger ~

here to wish you a Really, Merry, Merry Christmas & A Happy New Year
May abundance Love & Joy & Peace be with you always!
God Loves you, so am I!

Marry My Merry Mary Merrily

1. Mary, Mary, merry Mary,

You’re my lovely merry Mary.

2. Mary, Mary, merry Mary,

You’re very merry

That I want to marry.

3. Mary, Mary, merry Mary,
I want to spend my Christmas with you, my merry Mary
So that I have a merry, merry Christmas

4. Mary, Mary, merry Mary,
I just want to marry merry Mary
So that I have a merrily merry marriage

5. Mary, Mary, merry Mary,
Oh, I have met many Mary (in the Bible)
Mother Mary, Martha Mary, Mary Madeline
I may not merry.

6. Mary, Mary, merry Mary,
There are very many Mary
Money Mary, cherry Mary, busy Mary, macho Mary
Nor I marry.

7. I just want my merry Mary!
Oh, Mary, Mary, my merry Mary,
Make me merry, so that I can marry, and I will merry.

8. Mary, Mary, my merry Mary,
Where is my merry Mary that I can marry?

9. Mary, Mary, my merry Mary,
I just want to marry my merry Mary merrily.

10. Mary, Mary, my merry Mary,
Oh, I have not met my merry Mary that I can marry...

A merry, merry Christmas, to my many merry friendsss.

If you have not found your merry Mary that you can marry,

Don't worry, be merry!

If you have married your merry Mary,

Spend your merry Christmas with your merry Mary,

and you better make your Mary merry, or she will seek other to marry!

Just Want To Give Another Long Update

2008-12-12T15:45:00.003+08:00

Main Label: Life Update

Well, was "busy" again that I had not been updating this blog. XP The followings are what I wanted to say...

1. Asia Conference !!!
Yeah~! Now then talk about it... Was definitely glad that I use the whole of that Sunday for Asia Conference. I was late for the morning session, ended up sitting in the overflowing area. Then met CG for lunch and thought that got some free time after lunch, but nope. Nicole, Eliz, Meiyan and I went for the queue immediately after lunch. Well, we missed the lunch session with Dr. A.R. Bernard. The queue was long and squeeze-y, but not that boring though. Then finally able to sit in for the night session. Yang Yit (YY) and Ming Kai (MK) had chopped the seats for us. And then we had the Manhunt and Miss Pageant thing... I missed the result thing because I was queuing for the toilet! Yeah~! It was a rare scene that men's toilet needed a queue, long queue!

After I missed the result, it was finally the time for the final session for the Asia Conference! I was real glad that I stayed for this session. During the Praise & Worship, I realized that the lightings were so bright and beautiful! While singing the worship song, my mind was dreaming off of my wonderful idea of worshiping God; my mouth was singing, but my brain was dreaming. Then that's the time, somehow Holy Spirit made a "switch" on my head or something, suddenly my mind was like "opened" and immediately I came into the realm, the Presence of God where I could sing with heart touched and tears flowing down... The Presence of God was once again, strong~! I simply love this Presence of God.

Oh yeah~! I pre-ordered the Asia Conference DVD! Oh, btw, the Benny Hinn was a big news! and erm... a big topic for gossip too. Haha... Wonder how will I react if I was in the session... Some of my friends had concluded that the "certain part" by him will be "cut off", or taken out from the DVD... Sigh... That's the big difference between going to the Conference LIVE and watching the DVD. Duh...

2. The Stress of Building Fund: Money-not-enough... and no, not really.
The moment of pledging the Building Fund, is the moment of "full faith" and "full confidence" and "fully emotional" and etc. It was when my mind had calm down, had come back to once again the reality, that's when the moment I could feel the "stress" of giving money... :( I calculated the amount with the expectation that someone will return me the money owed. But he... delayed... That's the time, I was affected. Nevertheless, I did standby plan for such situation. I.e. converted my Ringgit Malaysia (RM) Savings into Singapore Dollar (SGD). But this is no joke! -- the exchange rate was a killer. I converted RM1,200 for only SGD500! Do you know how much Rm1,200 is? And do you know how little SGD500 is? I feel so stressed now... my friend commented that: "这样才可以感觉到痛／the pressure of Building Fund吗..." True lah... But still...

The truth is... until now, I had only fulfilled 1/3 of my November pledging... If the person didn't return me the money... I am gonna lose a lot of RM Savings! My heart is vomitting blood now! And now is the season of celebrations... Weddings, Birthdays and Christmas! I still spent some money for birthday gifts, wedding ang bao, birthday love offerings... Oh, the Asia Conference's offering, because it was meant for the poor and needy. I gave quite a blood-vomiting amount again~! And there's this Popular Mega Sales or something here in JB, I spend some money for DVD and books... Because, the sales was "so cheap!" Other than that, I still bought a lot of other DVD titles... One of it was the "十兄弟"!!! Hahaha... Erm... I actually like this series! Haha... oh, and forgetting not my medical report -- blood and urine test, and not to mention that I paid RM200 for the report that tells me bad news~~ :(

So Building fund and spending and spending... But somehow, the truth for now is, I still got some $$$ in my bank~! I am not that broke afterall... Haha... That's the "blessings of the Lord" I guess... I am not in lack I guess? But still again, I have not fulfilled my intended 75% of Building Fund for the first month! I really gotta stop spending whole lot of money and I really wanna make a big fullstop going to Singapore! Because that's my major spending area. Everything that was double cost to me because of the exchange rate... But what can I do? Now is December leh, an eventful month... Just realised that there's this Candlelight Service, and Christmas (and Eve) Service, both are different things... Really wanna go for these 2. And there's this Countdown and CG Appreciation at end of December... And I really don't wanna go for this... :( Passport's available pages are getting less... "Argh~~~!"

I feel heart pain... looking at my Bank's saving amount diminishing... I always wanted to save money... but everytime I saved some, it then come the Building Fund. My mind always think that "don't give too much." But when the "inspiration" or "confirmation" come, I left no other amount to give... I am not complaining about Building Fund. I know I had the choice of "to give, or not to give". And I chose to give. And the fact is, in my mind, I cannot imagine if I didn't commit for the building fund. It is plain empty. The moment I think that "if I don't participate for the building fund...", it is plain empty, nothing can continue after the phrase. And I can simply think nothing at all. That's one of the main reason, or drive (motivation) for me to commit for this building fund again, regardless of my faith situation, this is a significant reason / motivation.

I once told a friend of mine, and she pointed out that, "since your faith is not in the Lord already, why give to the building fund?" Well, I didn't tell her the perfect answer for this question, but it was stated in my previous statement: "I cannot imagine (anything) if I don't give to the building fund."

For now, what I am lack of doing is, to come out a plan and to calculate those $$$., including tithes matter as well. And also come out some backup plan or ideas like that... And also, really hope that I shall not spend so much for now. I really wish this... I really do not want to draw out $$$ from my Malaysia bank account liao. I wanna cry out loud~! *cry*

3. Lost of my precious (and maybe not so precious) Nintendo Dual Screen (NDS) Lite
Before blessings come in... I already lost something precious in the midst of this money spending season. I left my NDS after working out in the gym. *cry* I only realized it the moment I got home, parked my car, turned off the engine, then my mind became clear:"where is my NDS?" / "I don't think I brought back my NDS." The moment I came into the living room, I checked my bag. But that was the time, my mum talked to me and asked me, “二姐还没有去韩国啊，她刚刚打来。” Sorry, I lost my temper and raised my voice and answered, “我不懂！” This was the second time she asked me, she had asked me before in the day time. So my mind was thinking, "I really don't know, why you keep asking me. And you could tell me that she just called, why don't you ask her yourself?" So I was angry... because all I wanted to do that moment, was to search my bag for NDS. But the usual me... the moment I raised voice and replied, I already felt bad and regret...

Well, I couldn't find the NDS. So I called to the gym centre and had the person helped me. Think he was passionate to help too. But too bad, no good news. The next morning, I quickly went down to check again for myself, but no avail... :( So I here by announced that I had lost my bought-not-more-than-6-months-NDS-Lite. *cry out loud*~!

The guy who helped me was quite steady, he asked me not to worry and said that gotta wait for a few days... he was responsible for the "Lost & Found" records. And he told me that there were cases that stuff was lost and was found few days later... So I still got some hope lah...

Actually, the moment I knew that I lost the NDS, I wasn't that sad... One thing that I am not satisfied with the purchase of this NDS was, not long after the purchase I saw an article about a brand new model of NDS! To me, everytime is like that. The moment I bought certain gadget, that new version of gadget will come out not long after my purchase. My sis and I went to buy PSP that time was the same thing. We bought the fat PSP, and not long after, they came out the PSP Slim/Lite. We only found it "lucky"/"heng~ ar"/庆幸 is that, we bought the limited edition GOLD colour PSP. My sis always wanted black colour stuff, but luckily, we chose the gold colour PSP instead, otherwise, the fat PSP really got no value man!

So actually, the moment I knew that I lost the NDS, my mind was saying "nevermind, I can get a new one, the new model in the future." So it wasn't that bad afterall... It is only like “越想就越伤心” like that, "the more I think about it, the more I feel sad", then I began to feel so sad about it lor. But what can I do? I did all I could to try to find it back already... Ai... it was so new... not more than 6 months...

Actually, this was the second time that I lost the NDS. The first time was also in the gym... I realized that I lost it when I was in the locker room, so I immediately went back to the treadmills to look for it, an old uncle was using the machine that I used before. I went there to look for it. His body language was kind of rude, he was like "ooi", and pointed the NDS on the machine, and he seemed impatient... He was running then. But I felt such a relief and I thanked him. He didn't smile nor said anything. I took back my NDS and left... But this time... not that lucky anymore... I only realized it the moment I got home...

The usual me will do a feedback or study or reflect when bad things happened or I made a mistake... I figured out the reasons that contributed to the lost of NDS were as followed:-
1. The NDS was in black colour.
When I bought the NDS, the choices for nice colour aren't that much. White colour looks like iPod, other colours were like "erm..." like that. So I chose black colour in the end. But the colour was so easily "camouflage" to the machines like that. I tell you, if the colour was not in black, it could really help for me not to miss it or neglected it. But other colours are not that nice...

2. Too much gadgets and stuff.
I carry too many gadgets to gym, to go and do cardio... 1. Handphone, 2. MP3 player, 3. handheld game. My pockets are always full... Not only that, I also carried gloves, towel, locker keys... see? So many things.

3. Don't have a bag to carry everything
Actually, I did have a bag that I kept my gloves. But it was a little too small to keep those gadgets inside. so not enough space to put in games, handphone and MP3 player. I was thinking, if I could get myself a slightly bigger bag, big enough to keep those stuff, it will be good. But then, toooo late for now... :( It could have helped.

4. Have not getting used to go to gym
Well, this is another problem that linked to other stuff also. Until now, I have not been getting used my "working out" lifestyle. I always got distracted by something, that resulted I can only go to gym like once a week like that. I really feel frustrated at times.

5. My mind was not clear
Many stuff stuck in my head, many things that I wanted to "voice out", etc. etc. I wasn't focusing and stuff like that.

So all the point can only summarized into one word: "careless" ><:; My sis just said that I had given someone a Christmas present~! What a way to put it man~! Haha... Wonder who is the lucky guy/gal. Hah!

Dear God, I am not giving up the hope that I can still get back my NDS. I pray that the whoever is holding my NDS will return it to the Clark Hatch counter. However, if there is a purpose for my NDS to be gone, I pray that You will bless the person who is holding it. May it be a surprise from You, let it be his/her Christmas gift like my sis said. If, my NDS can help the person by any ways, or can change his/her life even the slightest manner, I am most willingly to let it happen! God, I am not a hypocrite here to tell You that I don't want Your blessings~! Of course I wanted those blessings~! God, I pray that as I give upon the building fund, please had my blessings back "real soon"! Haha... God You know that I got so many more things to buy and I wanted them badly. God, You never fail to surprise me with new ways. I am here waiting for your surprises again, surprise me! Oh God. Thank You. With name of Jesus, Amen~! Haha...

Church & Stuff Final Episode -- Just Wanna End This Series...

2008-11-05T10:55:00.003+08:00

Main Label: Life Update | God & Spirituality | Somewhat Dramatic Life

Hmmm... actually after the Arise & Build 2008 Pledge Day, I had no "desire" to write about it anymore... But I am still writing here just to end this story lor...

Should I say? Pastor Kong's sermon was once again... astonishing~! He lead his sermon to the climax by preaching about "Unusual Response" which was indeed, very daring, risky and also astonished! Nevertheless, because it was the pledging moment, the atmosphere, or the Presence of God was so tense and sensitive that no one would want to disturb or interrupt such moment...

In the beginning of the sermon, he talked about "manifestation" and its highest form, i.e. "Word became flesh" (John 1:14). I was much inspired again because I had never know that "Word became flesh" could have such revelations... Then he stated this:

"It is immoral to put a creature in an environment contrary to its basic nature"
Ps. Kong (02/11/08)

That statement was critical but to me, it was debatable... Anyways, he talked to us about "how to turn word into flesh?" and that's the time, he brought up the "unusual response" message! Oh man~! Once again, I never thought of that too! However, like I said such message was quite risky because "unusual" can be both ways, positive and negative manner. However again, like I said, the Presence of God and the atmosphere was filled with awe and seriousness, though the message could be risky, God was there to "make sure everything gonna be alright". God was there to touch people's heart and desire and stuff. There would have no "spirit of objection" at that moment...

"For every biblical manifestation, there is always first and unusual response."
Ps. Kong (02/11/08)

That was his another excellent revelation. At near end. Pastor also mentioned that "unusual response" was the key to change your usual, routine, unchanging life style or cycle. It is the key to breakthrough! (Breakthrough means "sudden burst of power that takes you from previous point to the next level.") And by that, he brought us onto the very moment of pledging!

~ My Unusual Response ~ | ~ Somewhat Dramatic ~
Ahaha... LOL... Sometimes, I really find it funny how sermons can be so relevant with my current life like that... Pastor talked about "unusual response" which was really an unusual sermon as well... But to my surprise, I also got my very own "unusual response" too... Haha...

First Unusual: Pledge pattern. This was my fourth Building Fund ever since I was in this Church. My first three Building Funds, I pledge in the usual pattern of giving monthly over a period of six month. Mostly, the amount was divided equally over that six months. Meaning, I gave an equal amount every month until the end of the Arise & Build. But this time round, like some weeks ago, I had already decided to give in an "unusual" way. Actually, I wanted to try to give all at once, without spreading the amount for the six months period. This idea of giving was influenced by my decision to "leave Church"... As wanting not to come so often, so I don't want to "give so frequent" also mah... Haha... But it ended up "unusual" lor which was so "in line" with the sermon. Haha... In addition, I decided to give more... so I had decided to give additional amount at the last month of the Building Fund. And that's how I got the pledge pattern: "75% for first month, remaining 25% at last month". And in between, no giving. But actually, I will finish the 25% the moment I got the amount, so no need to wait for last month actually...

Second Unusual: Not much tearing this time round... But instead, during the whole Service, I could feel that I was "trembling" all the time! Especially towards the end of the Service... or the climax atmosphere... This was very unusual to me... I thought I am gonna to cry, but actually I personally knew that I was controlling my tears lah... The intense of His Presence made the whole atmosphere very sensitive... I knew that I could burst into tears easily... The trembling of my heart could tell that... But I was controlling... until the worship songs started, my tears flowed... But with my control, I didn't weep so bitterly that kind, only tears and a little bit of "crying out loud"...

Then I Holy Spirit was like telling me this (in Chinese) “要哭就哭啦。。。” (If you want to cry, then carry on crying...) After hearing that, I wanted to cry out loud, but the "climax" had gone, so I couldn't cry a lot like nobody's business... However one thing that I realized, and couldn't help to say that this is quite relevant... That "the closer you are to the stage, the stronger the Presence of God is". I find it quite true... In the week before this Service, I sat nearer to the stage, floor area, and I cried non-stop! I wanted to stop, I ask God to stop it, but He didn't heed my words... So all I could do, is crying in the Presence of God, in other words too, in His embrace... But last Service, I was sitting in the terrace side, but I could control the tears... just wondering whether this was really got to do with the distance between myself and the center stage...?

Anyways, such crying was like, the "Third Unusual" thing to me... Because I "cried in advance"... before the actual pledge day... To add, after the weeping during Service, the next day, I cried bitterly too while I was driving. (This part of story was written in much details in the Episode 4.) And this was indeed unusual to me. In conclusion, I was thinking, maybe God wants me to response in this way ba...

~ One Thing ~
Pastor had us to simply and only write down one thing at the back fold of the offering envelope... I wrote of course... one thing... one of my life thing... I've thought many things... Indeed, "writing one thing" was obviously not enough... So my mind was thinking, prioritizing and in the end... only that one word became very impressive, all my mind was giving credit to push that word into the top priority... At the moment, this was the only thing I could think of... I was thinking, indeed, this could at the end of the day, help to solve many other questions and problems in my life... I really needed that as I thought... so I wrote: "one thing: Mxxxxxxx"! Well, was kind of embarrass (paiseh) to write it down now... But then later I realized that I was too general with the keyword... Should have be more specific... sigh... God I pray that You know what I want, what I mean. And I know that You will always give me the best answer for me, like You always do. Thank Ya~! In Jesus' name. Amen~! Haha... Thank You God.

~ Usher's Nature ~ | ~ Phyllis' Unusual Response ~
Hmmm... Really thank God that I was still doing usher work eventhough I was not an official usher already... In the morning, I help a friend, Carol Chin Huili actually, to bring her to Church. She called and asked me whether I could go to her house and fetch her, when she found out that I was going into Singapore on Saturday night... Because she just had her leg surgery and she wanted to go to Service to write down the pledge card. She told me while I drove to Church that this time round, she really could feel the "excitement" of pledging and giving to Building Fund regardless her previous number of times of Building Funds... And she said the she was so excited that she couldn't sleep~! And the end result was... I gotta give her morning call!!! *... ... ...* Maybe she gave excuses~! Haha... Joking lah, Chin Huili, don't scold me~~!

After she treated me a drive-through MacDonald breakfast with carpark fees SGD2.60 per entry (on Sunday), we headed to Singapore Expo, driving in from the "back entrance". And this was my first usher work for that day...

Phyllis (Feili) also came to the Service from JB. She was so busy most of the time partly because of her 万香城 Restaurant. But she made an effort to come for today lor... And made the commitment in the Building Fund as well... But she was kind of slow in writing... she sat next to me, while passing the offering bucket, she was still writing something on the envelope... I wanted to wait for her, but... after some waiting, I guess others couldn't wait too, so I gotta pass the offering bucket passing-by her... Felt bad...

Pastor wanted all the offerings (and buckets) to be brought to the stage by ushers because he wanted to pray for it. I think this is very important for those... our offerings and pledge cards to be brought to stage and be prayed about. But Feili's offering envelope was still with her... Just as others... most buckets had reached the stage, I realized that Feili had finished writing hers. With the kind of "usher's nature" and of course, "the attitude of CHC's Usher", I asked her to gimme her offering envelope and helped her to pass to the stage... Well, I thought I could do it... I passed to a security, but he "rejected" me... Just as I wanted to go back to seat, an usher stopped me and pointed to another usher who was having a piled up buckets of offerings! I was released with a gratitude to God, "Thank God!" So I put the envelope into the top bucket and had the usher went to the stage! Haha... "Thank God!" I guessed... that was Feili's "unusual response" afterall... Erm... unusual way of giving offering... Well, she was much different from those who had the usual way of putting offering envelope what... Haha...

~ Lieh-Not-Enough ~
That Sunday, I met 3 different groups of friends... In the morning, I fetched Carol Chin Huili. After Service, helped Mami (Elyn) to buy her "This is Our God" Hillsongs DVD/CD. Then went to River Valley Road to meet CG for lunch. I was a "little" lost way during the journey. And I thought that the place they wanted to go was in front of the Great World City... Only later to realise that it was the 5 Stars Chicken Rice in River Valley Road! Man~! That was one of my favourite food! Of course I knew where it is... After the lunch, I drove back to Carol's house, because I was carrying her chair in my car! Haha... I thought that "just in case we needed it", so I decided to bring her chair along... The chair served as wheelchair for her... She now can't live without it! So must bring back for her. And I don't want to drive around with the chair too! Haha...

After that, met another friend for movie. We watched "The Coffin"... Erm, not really a horror movie, but got a message to tell... Kind of find it funny when Karen Mok said: "I don't want to disturb the wheel." Well, don't feel like telling the movie here and give anymore comments...

Then I went back to JB. Oh... there was a little traffic jam... Anyways, I once again had the "Lieh-not-enough" feeling again... Everybody wants a piece of Lieh again! On Saturday night, I met my sis, Finn actually. We went to her friend's Birthday party. She was invited to cut cake together, because her Birthday was near to her friend. After that, we met another group of her friends... She wanted me to go with her for a lunch on Sunday with her other group of friends, because they wanted to celebrate her Birthday as well. But I rejected her, because I could meet others... At home, my lovely Papa wanted to "chop tree", he had "hinted" us, but too late, I already decided to go to Singapore on Saturday night. What's more, that Sunday's Service was very very important to me! I am so sorry that I gotta forego helping Papa to chop tree... :(

Feel like time not enough, thereby resulting love not enough, effort not enough... On Sunday, certain part of my time was used for driving / transportation too... I figured, recently I had attended the Sunday Services consecutively about 4 times (that makes a month), because of the Building Fund, and I already felt so tired... :( I thought I am not gonna come back next week. But my Poly friends just organized a dinner on the coming Sunday because we got 2 friends' Birthdays to celebrate, although their Birthday had just over... 2nd and 3rd week of October. That time, Minnie, who is also the organizer / initiator of this dinner, had her Psychology course examination. So she couldn't make it to meet up. And she is organizing this dinner now lor, after her exam... So this week, will come into Singapore again...

Then soon... the Church's very own Asia Conference 2008 is coming on the way... From 19th to 23 November. For more details: click here. Guess I can only go for Sunday one... On 22nd November, Saturday night, gonna attend a good friend's wedding dinner... Feel so desired and interested for the Asia Conference, but the timing and venue is not suitable for me. But afterall, I wanted to cut down my commitment in Church too... Then again, I could wait for the CD or DVD for Asia Conference to be published... But again... it gonna cost a lot~! Definitely 3 digits pricing! Hai...

Oh and there's Christmas in December... then, that's... New Year... ... ... Really ain't exciting for gaining one year older leh... Sigh... Year end, October, November and December is always busy for me... Good friends' Birthday all lie in these months... Money not enough ah... Birthday blessings, Wedding blessings, Building Fund commitment, other expenses... And there is a new PSP model coming out~! PSP-3000~!!! It has this accessory called Go!Explore, which is simply a GPS Receiver attachment! I wanted it too~! So that I won't go lost in Singapore again~! Haha...

Wanted to write more... But that's long liao... With much loves and excitement...

Imported Blog Entries (From Blogger) to Multiply

2008-11-01T10:06:00.000+08:00

Just trying imported all the blog entries from Blogger to Multiply... And it was done within a minute! Hmmm... Just wonder... is there a need to import here or not??? Haha...

Church & Stuff Episode 4 -- And It Has To Be That Accurate

2008-10-31T23:50:00.004+08:00

Main Label: Life Update

Attended the Service this Sunday... My usual CG went to the Saturday Service actually. And it turned out that Wendy,- my CGL, came along with Adelle,- a new friend of N333, David and myself, a total of 4 person attended the Service. I found the seats on floor area again, quite near to the stage actually... It was right behind the Deaf-Ministry area...

To my surprise... Pastor Kong's sermon was "critical" again!

Side track: In fact, most of the time, the sermons from Pastors are very critical to me, as in, the message speaks like directly to me like that! This "phenomenon" occurred to me even when I attended a neighborhood Church when I was in Secondary School... It is like, when I have a particular question in my mind, the next sermon that I am going to listen, will somehow answer that specific question of mine. It is not like... I got lots of questions & doubts, so much that you anyhow say anything, answer anything you will definitely hit one spot like that. It is like God answers the very, specific question of my heart like that... Don't really know how to describe it in an easily understood manner... For example, I was thinking what is sin... then the Service sermon will say something about it, whether it is the main topic, or it is just one point of the sermon like that lor...

OK. Come back to the story... About the sermon... Pastor Kong talked about the CHC-DNA again. He pointed out that the DNA was founded... the DNA's 3 foundational pillars are: (1) the Great Commandment, (2) the Great Commission, and (3) the Cultural Mandate (Kristo Kai Kosmos). The very first point he pointed made me feels that I don't have the DNA afterall... :( However, the Holy Spirit was like telling, "do not judge so early..." In fact, as I listened along, I could still "qualify" myself having that DNA. Ahaha...

~ About the Sermon ~
As Pastor talked about "how Unchurch / "Unchristian" think about the Church?", a research survey regarding that topic, my heart burned, was boiling, and my tear almost ran down, especially he talked about those traditional, former mindset of Christianity from those old spiritual leader... Seriously to say, I personally do not have any bad experience with any "old" mindset Christian, but whenever I think about how their behaviours and stuff had "scared off" people to come to Church, I will be very angry... These people are really like the Pharisees and Scribes in the time of Jesus... I don't know why, whenever I think about such people and eventhough I personally don't know any of such people, I got a strong angry feeling towards them. And every time it is God / Jesus who calm me down...

~ Movie - Finn's Girl ~
I just watched a movie call, Finn's Girl. I bought it because it has my sis's name on it, Finn. So was much interested about this movie. In this movie, the main lead, i.e. Finn had an abortion clinic, and in front of her clinic, got these Christian couple who setup banners saying stuff like, Baby-Killer, Jesus hates abortions and stuff. To my surprise, they even called her house and said this: "Stop killing babies! God will punish you!" And it so happened that it was Finn's 11 years old daughter answered the call and she was definitely scared! But the best part is, Finn was protected by police because there were people wanted to assassin her! In fact, she was gun-shot 2 times in the movie, but she was alright eventually. The movie didn't tell who was behind this assassination, but accordingly, it seems like it was those "Christians" lor...

At some point of my life, I was thinking, why there were Anti-Christians or Anti-Christ. I mean Jesus is sooo good that why would people rather reject Him, His Love, His sacrifice and stuff? Will it not be good just to have "one more friend" in your life? Why people are so skeptical about Jesus? What is so wrong with Jesus that people gotta reject Him? Then I pointed my judgment towards these people... these Christians, or so-called Christians... They were the ones who had shaped the religion call Christian / Christianity. They setup many things to judge people, and judge in the name of Jesus. I think that they are the main culprits for stopping people going to Churches~! To the extend, I would rather say they are the real Anti-Christ! Because they use their own righteousness to shield people away from their Jesus!

But anyways, the above paragraph is rather "raw" or draft... I somehow couldn't get the inspiration to write it perfectly... I need some more thoughts for that... anyways, this is not the point I want to make here... so continue my main story... Haha...

~ Back to "About the Sermon" ~
Then later Pastor talked about something like a visitor commented about the twin girls, he mentioned something like "kiddie porn" (is that the correct spelling?? Cos I didn't know about such things too... Haha...) And then Pastor said that a verse was reminded to him, "to the pure, all things are pure." The exact verse is like this:

"To the pure all things are pure, but to those who are defiled and unbelieving nothing is pure; but even their mind and conscience are defiled."
Titus 1:15 (NKJV)

The moment Pastor said that, my heart burned with that burning desire again, it was like my heart was boiling, and tears started to flow... But I stopped it immediately... I really don't know the very reason why I teared, there were many things in my mind... Indeed, they are many things running in my head. But I just don't know whether the tears were sad, for injustice, for my own weakness, etc. etc.? I don't know. But all I know is, these words brought me to a climax in my heart...

~ I Guess I Couldn't Wait to Cry, So I Cry Now Lor... ~
That's the 2 parts in the Sermon that touched me greatly - 1. traditional Church mindset and 2. to the pure all things are pure... Then at the near-end of the Service, Pastor had us gave the offering, I didn't give much, only some coins... Like 4 dollars... In fact, I prepared those coins one because I knew that I don't have small change, but only 1 fifty dollars note. XP After the offering, when we started to stand up and sing the worship song again... the moment I stood up and wanted to start singing, that's the time I started weeping instead... It was non-controllable, and in fact, I didn't know the reason for this weeping... I really don't want to cry... I told God, "God please stop this, I don't want~!" But God just "ignored me". Though this was not the first time that I wept like that during Service, sometimes I would think that this is so embarrassing...

I asked God to stop but He didn't, and I personally could not stop the tears, so I might as well "enjoying" the moment lor... haha... My mind was "quite empty" while I cried, so I was thinking, what should I think now? Immediately, I thought of something... so I simply told God / Jesus, "God, I miss you... I really love you..." something like that to "incorporate" with my tears, my weeping... Haha... So I cried until Pastor asked us to join hands with others to pray... and the Service ... ... ended...

After the incident, I thought that, "I couldn't wait for the next Sunday to cry... so I cry today~~~" Haha... And it takes awhile for my heart to 'settle" down again...

~ I Guess I Really Cannot Accept Other Churches Other Than (Singapore) CHC Liao... ~
One thing about Pastor and his sermon... Are really powerful and ciritical to me... It was like the "meat" stuff for my spiritual food. His sermon and his viewpoints are rather "mature" for me, more than enough for me to think more than twice for his every sermon. And sometimes I couldn't help to have this mentality: "we (Pastor Kong and I) thought the same." or "My thought exactly" like that... At one point during the sermon, I was so desired to come back to this Church to listen to his sermon like that... But, I still got valid reasons for "leaving this Church"...

Another revelation that I have is... It is really true to me that not every Church "qualify" for me to go to... Last time, I tried the CHC JB Church, but the sermon... the Church is too "young" that it does not suit me... "Young" not only the congregation's age, but also the Church is at the stage of "start up". That's why, I would still prefer to come to Singapore's CHC, with Pastor Kong being the preacher... Sometimes, Pastor Kong is so busy that we seldom see him preaching... Though other Pastors can preach very good, real good, I would still prefer Pastor Kong, or "miss" him instead. He is really somebody lor... The way he preaches reflects his confident and faith towards God...

At some point of the sermon, he said that someone wants to "support" him. And he immediately said "with or without your support, I will still go on preaching! I stand up here preaching the truth, is not to gain your support!" Wow... and I was like thinking... "Oh Pastor, come on, people are just being nice to say "I support you" lah... You don't have to say until like that lor..." Haha... However, nevertheless, I do learned something about this statement of his... As long as it is your purpose in life, you gotta do it no matter whether you will fail or succeed... That statement became clearer in my heart, just as Pastor made his stand...

OK, to say again... Really, "switching Church" is not really the solution for my situation. I couldn't imagine how will all other the preachers preach especially you have tasted Pastor Kong's. I couldn't imagine what will those praise and worship of other churhes be like? Will I enjoy those just as I enjoy CHC's??? Oh God... Do I really have to go and look for other churches in JB??? Unless there are really purposes for me to go in lor...

~ About the Pledge Confirmation ~
Oh, at one point of the Service / Sermon, I already told God that the amount to pledge had confirmed, please do not let me have other confusions. Please do not confuse me anymore, I am not going to think about the amount to pledge during the week. And I thank You for the amount confirmed. And with silent nodding, God was like telling me, "Okie, noted."

So in the end... ... ... I didn't double the amount... I don't really have the "peace" or "confirmation" to double it... I do have the amount available... But somehow I was reminded that those amount are "untouchable" due to certain determination / decision or factors. God was like telling me, "have you not told Me that you don't want to give Me those amount because they were given from your family? Because it can be easily found out if you spend those money. And your Papa had "warned" you not to "anyhow" spend the amount." And I was like "oh yah hor..." Haha... So in the end, still the same old "confirmation" as the previous week. This is the pattern I am going to give this time round: First month, November: 75% of the pledge. Then "rest, rest, rest" until the last month, i.e. April: the remaining 25%. And when it is possible, I will fulfill the amount even before Apirl come, i.e. to give as long I got the 25%. My mind has set up for it already. I really don't want any confusions again... Thank you.

Oh... so long already... and I haven't finished writing... should I continue?? Ok I should. Haha...

After the Service Wendy, Adelle and I went to eat Botak John at Bedok North. It turned out that I was the only one who ordered Botak John! I thought maybe the portions were too big for the 2 ladies ba... and I didn't think about that before. After the luch, I met my sis, Finn and we went to find ２姐 together and to see her lovely children. Our initial plan was to watch "High School Musical 3" with the elderst niece, as a mean to accompany her after her PSLE. But she "dua" us, she wanted to go swimming with her siblings instead. So the ２姐 family went for swimming while Finn and I headed for our backup plan, i.e. meet her friend, Axelle instead. We then went to Ang Mo Kio Hub to buy game - Patapon (that's how I got the pata pata pata pon * pon pon pata pon) and fetch Axelle to her wedding dinner at Mandai. And that night, I stayed overnight at Finn's house, because Monday was a public holiday -- Deepavali. At first, I thought I gotta work, but later I was told that I got the holiday too... Haha... My sis's friends and I played mahjong overnight~~ Haha... But it was a rather not-so-exiciting mahjong session... Nevertheless, we were still enjoying... Then before fetching Axelle back to home, we went to Geylang to have supper! Wow... haha...

I slept like about 4am or later... the next day I woke up, and decided to meet a friend for movie. So I said goodbye to sis and drove to the destination... And finally, that's the time I could find myself alone and thereby giving myself sometimes to ponder, to think about Sunday's crying... I was thinking about the whole thing... I was thinking about writing it in the blog... I was thinking and at the same time, talking to God... As I talked and thought, tears started to flow down again... The tear flowed down gently in the beginning... But as I thought more, and the moment I thought and told God that, "God, this is the amount I can give to you. It is not much, it is really not much to do great things with such little amount of money. God please take it, use it for Your kingdom. I am sorry that I can only give that much..." Then I started crying out loud instead! And I was driving... And I was reminded, the very first time that I wept like that while driving was when my Mama was warded into Intensive Care Unit (ICU)(加护病房) like many years ago... I thought that was the only time I would "weep and drive" at the same time... But now, I had it again... I was telling God, "God I am driving leh, please stop the tear..." But Thank-God-ly, because I got the "previous experience" I could drive safely lah...

It is just that... I don't know why I will cry until like that... I do admit that "I love to weep in the Presence of God", but somehow when I got it, I will be like "erm... what the heaven am I doing? Why I can cry until like that???" I could still remember last year's pledging day, I told God the same thing, "God, this isn't much of money, and I could only give you such. Please accept them... I am sorry that I cannot give you a lot, please forgive me..." something like that, then I could start crying like nobody's business liao... It is the same this time... the attitude of giving is still the same...

Oh, I could feel the "feeling" again right now... And I think I still got many things to say... But still, I think this would be enough liao... Still got many things to say, but that would be enough liao... Oh~! I actually typed that 2 times!! Then I guess I really gotta stop here liao. Wish to write more... wish to type a letter address to God... But I guess, maybe next Episode ba...

With Loves...

Get Hooked with Blogging!!!

2008-10-29T11:20:00.003+08:00

Main Label: Life Update

Hmmm... Just realized that I kind of get hooked with blogs right now... Just feel like writing and writing and writing as my mind is always thinking and thinking and thinking... And like I say before, I still got a lot to write~! In fact, too much... I feel like writing my life update, my past-memorable-sweet moment, my stories ideas, my thoughts, and etc. etc. etc. But Lieh is not enough... Lieh gotta work, gotta meet friends, celebrate Birthdays for them, Lieh gotta gym and gotta play games, many games indeed, Lieh gotta go Singapore for Church Service and blah blah blah, Lieh gotta find girl friend, Lieh gotta be a good and filial son and get married, etc. etc. etc.... Lieh also wanna live his very own life according to his very own desire leh... Lieh is not enough le... and Lieh is still not enough... Oh...

But anyways, that wasn't a complain but rather showing off lah... Ahahahahaha... How I wish I can put the Panda-laughing smiley from the MSN here... Anyways, I realized one "easily-developed" habit every morning when I reach at my office desk... Usually, I will check my e-mails. And when the Facebook thing came in, I got additional habit, i.e. to check out the updates and notifications. In fact, I set my home page in Firefox to be Facebook leh... In the past, I used to play a few of the games there, the most committed one is called the "(fluff)Friends". It was a petting-cum-racing game, and it comes with other features as well... Was quite surprised by the popularity of it... There are people willing to buy the stuff it offers via real money! You can buy some of those limited and rare stuff they got with real money, and the stuff is digital, you can see it in your computer only! And... there are people there really treating the pets as "real pets", they say something like "it is cruel to leave your fluff Friend alone..." or stuff like that lor... Sooooo funny to me lor... Not to mention that the food will not go bad if you leave it for days and months... Haha...

Oops... Got side track again... I wanted to say that my new habit in the morning is browsing through / around friends' blog sites, in the hope that I can read their latest entries like that... And the hunger was like... the moment I found one new entry, I will read it immediately (provided that I got the time), and finish reading / browsing the entry at once. But like not long after, I cannot recall what is the entry about... Hmmm, I am being forgetful... yes...

Most of the time, their blogs will not update like daily like that... which means most probably I will see the same thing in their blog sites every morning. When I knew there is nothing new in their sites, and I left "nothing to do", I tend to yearn for more blogs to read... I will go to the links from my friends' sites that will direct to their friends' blogs, so that I got something to read on, to explore... It seems like I wish I have a pool, or a library of blogs for me so that I will not run out of blogs to read like that... Haha... But then really, I don't need to read so much lah, I got many other things to do... And then I realized that, this "hunger" for blogs, is more like a “心灵空虚” (spiritual hunger??) thing... Maybe this is a bad habit... Maybe this reflect my lack of spiritual or emotional security?? Hmmm... don't know lah... But one thing I figured, I will rather not searching high and low for blogs to feed on, but instead, I will blog my own entries instead! Haha... and that reminds me, I haven't finished introduce myself yet leh... Haha...

I can understand that why most of my friends don't update so often... Busy of course. I am like that also sometimes... Most of all, I think that "to blog or not to blog" the decision really based a lot on your "current mood", ... ... or, just thought of this, your "inspiring level" (as in how much you're "inspired" to write an entry) as opposed to the discipline... If you don't feel like blogging, you will not discipline yourself to even write something... You are not gonna to have entries like this... "Today I got nothing to blog about, but I just want to discipline myself to blog, so I blog lor... but I really got nothing to blog about, so I have come to the end of this entry, tu-tu... Cya, bye~~!" Haha... Another common factor that I can think of, is because of "losing passion in blog already". Maybe some people only want to "follow the crowd", so they just started their very own blog site when their friends already had theirs. And in the beginning, it was fun thing to do, so people blog a lot... But as time goes, the passion decreases, and so less update like that lor... Hmmm... the point I want to make here is, "I wonder how long my passion to blog will last..." Haha...

Regardlessly, people blog because of any reasons they have, be it postive or negative comments, blog in secret entries, "fans are waiting" (such as people are waiting for your professional replies or update regarding certain subjects; or also, people are waiting to read your updates), and etc, the entries they make, I will believe that it is all heart-felt. Because "no one will blog when they got nothing to blog about", whatever they blog, is something that they really wanna say or stand. (Unless, you got other ulterior motive lah, that's another thing...) Maybe... maybe that's what my heart is yearning... yearning to know, to find out such heart-feeling thing, to feel the inside of... the depth of humanity ba... Hmmm... come to think of it, it makes sense for me now... the reason why I will go about reading people's blogs... Oh yah, now I know that I was looking for the "touch heart" entries, searching for the life-inspiring articles, looking for the “英雄所见略同” people (people who have the same thoughts as mine, or simply, like-minded people), and etc. Haha, now I know that what my heart is looking! 我现在知道我心灵在为什么空虚呢！哈哈。。。

OK lah, that's enough for "about blog" lah... I wanted to blog down the following issues before I will go about continuing my Episode 4 in Church and stuff... And here goes:-

(1). The Ripple Effect of Economy Tsunami has finally hit us...
Finally, the economy crisis had hit my family business. The value for waste paper had dropped tremendously, even the TV news and newspaper had interviewed the "Karang Kuni", or those who collected old newspaper. My Mama was telling my sis that my Papa was gonna to be more “脸黑” (sad face) because of this, but as I observed, my father is still like "happy go lucky" like that leh... Then I realized that, maybe it is just because of my Mama's usual negative thoughts ba... Actually, not all types of waste paper's value has dropped. The demand for certain types of waste paper is still there, so not that greatly affected actually... My Papa and Mama's vision was right in the past... That we did not focus on collecting old newspaper... My Mama will keep saying the story when Papa wanted to collect old newspaper in the past, but she will be stopping him from doing, as the competition was high... And there were these brothers who used to collect old newspaper and was now seen nowhere liao... their business had failed some years ago because they collected old newspaper... This is according to my Mama's story lah... Sometimes, I will disagree with what she says regarding this. But now, as seen in TV and newspaper, the value for old newspaper has tremendously recently, I couldn't help to think that my Papa & Mama's vision is rather brilliant! Thank God we didn't focus on old newspaper lor... haha... Nevertheless, we will still have certain tough times though... As in, the overall business will still be affected in one way or another... It is the ripple effect of Economy Tsunami afterall... :(

(2). 白发魔烈！！！
Oh... not again... About last year, I spotted one single white hair on my head. I was upset about it. I had it said in my MSN Status, I wrote “ 白发魔男”，as inspired by the “ 白发魔女”. But later I changed to “白发魔烈” lor... Because more unique lor... Haha... But anyways, recently I spotted another white hair!!! Yeah, the one before is still there, and near to it, there is another! I thought the first one should have gone by now, and I was wondering, my hair keep dropping everyday, how come the white one didn't drop off? And now, to my a little and not so disaster, I got 2 strand of white hair in total now! And I am back to 白发魔烈 again! Sigh... :(

Last year was also the time that I started playing the Facebook (fluff)Friends game I mentioned earlier this entry. Because of this white hair thing, I was inspired to choose a white tiger as my pet in the game, and I named it “白发魔虎”！Haha...

Ai... me old liao...

(3). 中医师。。。
I decided to go to seek Chinese Medical to heal my nose block and I had hinted my Mama to bring me to see one. As in my mentality, she should have known which is the good one... But to my surprise... and she never fails to surprise me... She introduced and brought me to this “德教会” (don't know what this is called in English), which also provides Chinese Medical service and you "pay by" voluntary donation. She claimed that the doctor was good and stuff like that.

So we went to this 德教会 in the Pelangi (a place in JB) one day and see the Chinese doctor there. While waiting, I walked around the temple and saw the Jesus' picture there also... Haha... 德教会 is a religion that is like "combined religions", it has some of the religions' spiritual leaders put together... Such as Jesus, Buddha and Prophet Mohammad... something like that. I didn't really know much actually. Anyways, seen the doctor and he said that my sickness can only be healed over a period of time and he gave me some medicine... btw, here you gotta bring your own bottle for the medicine, which my mum did. If you don't carry your own, you will have to buy from them.

In addition, the doctor also realized that we stay in Skudai, so he suggested us to go to Perling Guan Yin (观音) Temple instead, he will be there every Tuesday and Thursday, from 9am to 12nn. We found this arrangement was better as our workplace is near to Perling... I had my third visit to the doctor yesterday, (third visit to the doctor but second time going to the Guan Yin temple). The facilities here are much better than the one in Pelangi 德教会... Until now, my condition hasn't got any significant improvement, but nevertheless, I could feel that my throat was better than before. :D

Oh btw, the first time seeing the doctor, he said that I can still go for exercise, because my nose problem is not connected with the lung. And he says that I should exercise too, and eat more fruits and vegetable too! That encouraged me to go to gym often as well... But... that's another issue... shall write this another time...

(4). Indeed, Building Fund is coming~!
How do I judge by saying this? Erm... Last year, during this season I had a car accident (no one had injured severely) and I gotta pay "saman" (summon) of RM300! This year, I ganna another "saman" that makes me feel that "Building Fund is coming"...

Usually at this season of Building Fund thing, "funny" thing will happen one, especially those "money out" thing... Maybe it is a test, maybe there's a force to test you whether you still want to give eventhough you gotta pay other things like that... But of course, the "saman" thing ultimately was due to my own carelessness, I haven't know how much to pay yet... but I think that this should be less than RM300 ba...

Another thing that makes me feel the Building Fund is coming, or rather, comes at the very right timing, is the "World Economy Tsunami" thing. Pastor Kong always share with us how the Jurong West Church was built during Economy downtime at 1997 (if I am not wrong about the year). And no banks would lend us money for the purchase of land, and in the end, we still got that piece of land without any loan from banks... (Correct me if I am wrong about this story, because I do not know the full details, thankz.) Therefore, when the economic is bad, it is also a sign for "something great is about to happen" like that lor... Of course, should I mention that, this is according to the CHC's context? Oh... erm... at least, it is in my own context. XD

Okie. that's all for now. Gonna write my Episode 4 soon ba... I think...

Church & Stuff Episode 3 -- The Confirmation??? Or the Confusion?

2008-10-25T16:55:00.008+08:00

Main Label: Life Update

"The feeling of the "confirmation" was like "so sure" that I no need to go to Church next week to confirm the amount again~!"
Lieh (22/10/2008)

~ The "Promoted" Sermon -- Fourth Dimension Living ~
The week before, Pastor Kong had already "promoted" his sermon to come, he was very exciting and he asked everybody to come. Indeed, the sermon was amazing~!

Some side track... There is also one new worship song the Church is singing. I just made a little research because I wanted to find out the exact lyrics which had "touched my heart" greatly. So touching that the moment I listened and sang it, my tears started to flow down... This is the YouTube video that I had found:

At first I thought it was a brand new song for the Church's Arise & Build 2008. But after the research, I then realized that this was not composed by the CHC's song artists. Oh yeah, the part that touched my heart greatly is the chorus lor...

"Greater things have yet to come
Greater things are still to be done
In this city"
God of This City, by Chris Tomlin

The lyrics information was found in this website:
http://chosenfast.com/2008/03/31/greater-things-are-still-to-be-done-in-this-city/

Ok, that's all for the side track. :)

That Sunday morning I happened to be the first to reach the hall, and I managed to help my CG to have one whole row of seats, about 20++. Felt great that God had also created this opportunity for me to serve the CG as well. Haha... Though I no longer served in the Usher Ministry mah, God still able to provide such chance lor... Aiya... but my God is like that one lah...

But then not long after... when the praise song had started singing, that's the time I realized that there would not have enough seats! But actually, it was only short of 1 seat. Then, me being the "seats organizer" for the day, definitely gotta be ready to sacrifice lor... Kind of like no choice, because the person who was late, or the last one to come happened to be a newcomer, brought by the CG's new members, Lawrence and Lydia... Then I got no choice lor... Couldn't asked a new friend to sit alone mah... That's the time, I "complained" to God again... It was like, every time I am the one who sacrifice... I seldom come to the Service and CG already, now You wanted me to sit alone again!!! The moment I thought that I gotta give up the seats that I "found" for the CG and leave to search for another one just for myself, alone, I was so sad~~! My "grudge" almost had my tears ran down. Yah, it was that serious! Sometimes, I hated to be at the stage of being "alone"... The feeling was like... ... ... Don't know how to say it lah... But anyway, I spotted a seat just right in front of me... The seat was not that obvious actually... But you can't fool an experienced CHC Usher like me. Of course, I could tell whether the seat was taken or not... Haha... So I grabbed this chance, had the usher in duty to help me to double check or confirm. And then I got it! Haha... Not so far away from the CG! Yeah~! Yeah~!

That moment, I somehow learned something... You can pray and ask God to help you do something... You ask in prayer and wait in faith. But you ain't getting anything. Because on God's side, God is also waiting for you to do something~! Haha... When you wanted something, you yourself gotta take action for it, "God don't wait for you to wait for Him!" Haha... But rather, "God moves the moment we move!" This is the quote that I came out with...

"Many of the time, we ask God something in prayer, waiting and expecting Him to do that something. But at the same time, God is also waiting and expecting you to do that specific something!"
Lieh (25/10/2008)

Haha... But anyways, that's another way that God wanted me to do the Usher duty lah... My God is sooo cute one lor...

OK, anyways... So the sermon was expectantly great! Pastor Kong used Doctor Masaru Emoto's research and theory about water crystals which response to human's words and thoughts and stuff. I knew a little bit about this Doctor Emoto's work before. I even got his book like few years ago... But until now, I haven't read the book yet. xp Anyways, this piece of information got me to think a lot... again. I was like wanted to tape down the message to listen again and to point down my thoughts... Seriously, the sermon was quite difficult to jot down notes. And even I did made some notes, but in the end... I gotta "pass up" the note!

Yah~! We were given a piece of paper that was thought to be the sermon notes by me and some other friends! So I was happily jotting down points at the back of the "sermon note" and only to realize that Pastor expected us to write something, and "pass up"... We were to write particularly about goals and achievement in these 5 areas: health, finance, marriage / family, career, and ministry, of which, we must confess positively and persistently in order to achieve them... Pastor wanted us to submit that piece of paper together with our offering. And he gave us some time to write them down... And that was the time, I immediately tried my best to transfer whatever I have written regarding the goals and the sermon notes on my note book! Haha... But thank-God-ly, the sermon was quite difficult to jot down detailed notes actually... Like I said before, so I could quickly rewrite those important points...

That Service, the Presence of God was exceptionally strong too!Actually, at first, I didn't know about that. I wasn't having 100% concentration actually... Haha... Only until Pastor Kong said that "the Presence of God is here" and then I felt "nothing", so I "turned on" my "Spirit-sense" and only to realize that the Presence of God was indeed very strong~! It was so strong that it was almost like on the day of Building Fund Pledging! Only a little bit "lower" lah... Wah~~~ I couldn't wait for the day of pledging to come~! The Presence of God gonna be extremely superb ba~! Haha... Then I can wept "happily"... erm... "satisfactory" in the Presence of God again! Yeah~!

Don't know why... I love to "weep in the Presence of God"... I feel that it is one of the most comfortable things to do... Erm... sounds weird I think... Haha... But nevertheless, the feeling of "being embraced in His Presence" was very comforting... It was like in the moment, there are only God and you, there are no one else. No one can disturb this moment, and you will be very close to God and to Him only. At that very moment, "the world has only God and you only" like that... erm... I mean that you will care not even a bit of the circumstances lah.

And I was thinking, this time round, I definitely got something to "cry about"... It was concerning some money that I gave up... or rather someone refused to pay me and the business was given to him at a very cheap price! Like I said before, “过河拆桥”！I was really angry at times... But what to do, life must still go on... There are times I tried to forget, I told myself not to think of this so much, and gotta leave this matter off... I gotta practice "showing grace"... But then again, such showing of grace will not be noticed and will not be appreciated... Sigh... Then that's the time I had this "divine revelation":

"Showing grace sometimes will not be shown (to other people / the public)."
Lieh (25/10/2008)

Sometimes, I imagine this scenario, someone who is at fault, knees down and begs for the person who he has offended to, asking for forgiveness... Then the person will be like, angry at first, then he melts his heart and forgives the person. The begging person feels at ease and the whole crowd cheer for the "forgiving" person... Well, it occurs to me that this is "showing off" rather than "showing grace"... In fact, there are times, many times, "showing grace and mercy" will not be "let-known", "publicize" and etc. The most forgiving person, forgive people "just like that" (meaning simple and nice and discreetly), without having a big drama first to tell the world he is the victim and have the world to look into his situation, have sympathy on him and start to blame the offending party.. until the offending party cannot "tahan", and "admits" his "mistake" and finally, knees down and begs for forgiveness like that... That will be hypocrite, isn't it?

I don't know lah... I am not the most forgiving person lah, maybe God is ba... Is He? Well... ... ... of course I gotta confess that He is lah, if not I will be "blasphemy" lah~! Oops... XP

Anyways, I am trying my best to let go the amount and have mercy to my debtors lah... There are times I will still feel angry & 不爽 lor... But "Thank God got God lor..." He always consoles me and I can find comfort in Him...

~ The Amount to Pledge in Mind... ~
Ok, about the pledge thing, of which, is the main reason and purpose for me to start this series of "Church and Stuff" entries... Throughout these weeks, I had been thinking about the amount to pledge lor... Some figures crossed my mind, big and small... Then the "spiritual pointer" which that points the figures up and down stopped at this amount, let's called it "x", of which I am comfortable with also. The feeling was like, hmmm... "we (God, or Holy Spirit here, and I) thought the same thing" like that lor... So I thought the amount to be pledged was more or less confirmed liao... And in fact, this time round, I am thinking of giving a "one time building fund pledge", instead of the usual 6 months installment method. Because I already want to cut down the numbers of coming to this Church liao mah... And "everything" "works pretty fine" and "feels pretty fine", even Pastor had showed the past years statistic of amount pledged, and I was looking at the "Salaried / Self-employed" column, though my amount in mind was less than the average, I could still have the "peace of mind". So I hereby confirmed my amount to pledge~! ! ! Haha~~~ ... ... ...

But then... Just when the Monday came, my mind started to rethink... Then I got confused... And ultimately, I could feel the challenge~! The moment I thought for that... to double the amount, my heart would start to "tremble"... Now I face the choice... a "peaceful" amount? or a "challenged" amount? Ai... now my mind gotta rethink again... and gotta fight over this decision... All external circumstances factors come in, like the world's "economy tsunami", they called it this way... It was expected the coming year, 2009 will be the worst year yet leh... Yet then again, my possitive mindset also starts to function, all those possitive stuff join into this fight... So resulting... an amount yet to confirm again... :( Gotta pray and ask God more... But anyways, still feeling excited~! Haha... gonna cry, gonna cry with His embrace~! Haha~!

Church & Stuff Episode 2 -- Back to Church for a Purpose??

2008-10-24T15:33:00.007+08:00

Main Label: Life Update

Well, I am supposed to write about how I got back to the Singapore CHC again after ... ... like maybe 6 weeks or something? Anyways, I forgot the exact period.

On mid September，one Saturday afternoon, one CG friend, actually she is JiahUi lah, one who always visited my site and leaves messages. Anyways, thank ya~! She MSNed the moment she saw me online and said "Long time no see, how have you been? Is everything all right? Are you going to Service tomorrow? Will I see you?" Yah, saying some caring stuff like that lor. But before that, I was thinking, erm... debating whether should I go back to CHC that Sunday, because "going back once in a while" is something in my mind also. So was I debating, giving myself the values of going to Service and of not going to... then she MSNed me and I was stunned by her questions actually. Simply because to tell one that the reasons for not going back would take a very long time, especially chatting in MSN. I will prefer to tell things in person or via phone now. Last time, I MSN storiesss and SMS storiesss a lot, but now it is just feel so tired and "a lot" to write about, which is time consuming and in addition, such communication couldn't really that effective. I think MSN & SMS belongs to young people who still can afford to waste some time... Me? Old liao lor... Haha...

So anyway, to give a simple and nice and quick and direct answer to JiahUi, I simply answered her by saying something like, everything is all right lah... blah blah blah... and "see you tomorrow" like that. Then I think she mentioned something about watching movie... like she wanted to watch "Make It Happen" but no one wanted to "make it happen" for her... Then, I was thinking, since her Birthday was coming, I might be able to accompany her like that... Oh btw, hope you have realised it, I can remember people's Birthday one... Not everyone though, and though trying my best to remember everyone's Birthday... I got one method to help me to remember people's Birthday, it is something like link people's face and name with 2 sets of numbers, first number is the month and of course, the other number is the days. And then link the people with the same months, and/or same days to help myself to do the remembrance stuff. For example... erm... taking JiahUi as example... (JiahUi, Please allow me to use yours as example, ok? haha...) September, I got friends like jiahUi, Samuel, Duncan, Janice, Jenny, Earnest, Jessica, my 2nd sister, their Birthday lie on the September, the ninth month, this is the first number. Then I also think about the numbers form 1 to 31 (of course, September don't have 31 lah). Like I remembered Samuel's on the 4th, and actually, the moment I thought about that, Jenny and Duncan's Birthday was reminded, because I suddenly remembered, their "number" is 9 and 4 also. So I added the name to the list above... Then, Janice and my 2nd sister is on day 9. Yah something like that... as for JiahUi, her Birthday is on the 15th, the exact mid number for a month, so is easy to remember, and in fact, my mind already reminded someone whose Birthday is on the 15th day... And then, OOPS! Sorry for side track, let's go back for the main story!!!

Erm... where was I?? Oh, ok... so I thought that maybe it will be a blessing or a present for her by accompanying her to watch movie like that... Though that day we didn't watch the "Make it Happen" lah, we watched "Mama Mia". And that was just another story...

So on the Sunday morning, I set off to Singapore Expo like I used to do. On the journey I SMS Wendy and Eliz, telling them that I was on the way, but of course, is to hint that "please gimme a seat, ok" haha... And it seemed that everyone in my CG was so surprised to see me! Haha... I'm like a special guest to them! Haha...

Well, after a long break of not coming to CHC, I realized 2 significant changes in the Church. First, the bigger... erm I mean the wider screen in centre stage... Wow~! Wow~! WOW~~~! Eliz told me it was installed for the "Money No Enough 2" movie and it stayed there ever since. The second change was the "3 minutes chit chat" thing, that was very new to me. In fact, I was nervous about this. Because I don't talk much, yes I type a lot, but sometimes I ran out of words to say. I am very much a silent people. I am not "talkative", I am only "typative" lah~! Haha... And usually I don't like such "casual" talking, I prefer "quality time" of fellowshipping and chit-chatting. Really, how much can you know and get familiar with someone only with the "given" and "limited" time? And when times up, you gotta wrap your story real quick if not both you and the Pastor on stage will start talking at the same time! Well of course, it has its own usefulness and I am not here comdamning. This is just not for me lah... Oh another reason is that, I will get even more nervous when no one is talking to me! Or when you ran out of stuff to say with one another, that will be... erm... “冷场” silent moment lor...

In fact, these few Sunday while I went for the Service, during the worships, I was actually thinking of the 3 minute thing... My mind was like... later whom to talk to? Will someone talk to me? Should I talk to the one who is on my left? or Right? In front or behind? What should we talk about? Hmmm... Let me prepare some questions first... maybe start by asking CG? etc. ... ... ... Yup, I was distracted by it and I couldn't focus on the worship... Haha...

Oh... Oops again... That's enough for the side story... On that Sunday which I came back after a long break, they actually also started a new praise song... I don't know the title... But the song has this verse in the lyrics that says "(to God) Well You got me here, You got me"... The moment I saw & listened to it, my heart and mind was thinking like "so accurate" again! It was really You got me here, God. Haha... This was the first thing that touched me once again on that day regarding this church...

Then the next thing they had, was had a couple to share with their testimony, "how God has changed them" stuff... Half way listening to their testimony, I heard them mentioning about Building Fund... And it got me thinking, so I asked Eliz who was sitting next to me, and she confirmed to me that the Building Fund is coming. From that moment, I was almost to exclaim this out loud at my fullest revelation of the reason why I am here back to Church again... -- "No wonder I am back to Church!" Of course I didn't say lah, if not I would get chased out by the security.

And this is very true, as regarding of the "I-want-it-that-way" thing. I wanted to come back to Church, or as some people would prefer to say, "come back to God", when God has something important for me to do or know, and this is so important that I must not miss it. In the usual Service, "if there is nothing so important that I must not miss it", my God will "allow" me not to come to Service. Erm... it is like, what I want to say is that, God will make sure that I will not miss out the important thing and those things that He wants me to be awared of... Of course, I am not saying that people can no need to go to every Sunday Service; I am not saying that people only goes to Church when there is something "important" is happening like that... In consideration of my current faith level, "According to your faith" (Matthew 9:29) is all I can say and comment about.

The testimony to me, is like it served as a reminder from God saying, "the Building Fund is coming, so you better make time to come to the following Services to "hear" the amount to pledge, so that on the day of pledging, you know how much to pledge." This was my fourth time of Arise & Build, according from my previous experiences, as on how much to pledge, I learned that it will be better... ... erm... more accurate to "get to know" the amount to pledge during Church's corporate worships and sermon. Of course you can know the numbers during your personal quiet time with God. But however, somehow coming to the Church and "ask God in person" will seem like a confirmation to that whatever amount you have in your mind. And so the testimony was like the second thing that touched me that day...

So what is the third? Coming through~ Well it was Pastor Kong's sermon. The contents were about CHC-DNA. He mentioned something about the CHC's DNA, meaning to say, those similar characteristics or straits or culture or habits and stuff that most / majority of the City Harvesters share. To me, that moment I was thinking about my "spirit sensitivity"... I was "praising" myself for able to know that Building Fund is coming simply by listening to the testimony. And so it was, Pastor commenting about this "CHC-DNA"! Haha... As I thought along, because of my "changed in heart" situation, obviously I don't have the 100% CHC-DNA lah. However, I am much grateful to "qualify" myself to have such DNA! Haha... ... ... I don't know lah... maybe this is very important to me ba... Maybe I really love this Church that I am not willing to give it up... Erm... maybe my love for the Church is so much that until Jesus Himself "buay tahan", and He gotta tell me in person that "I will leave this Church"! Haha... Those words are not necessary negative if you know your God well, if you know how to decode those words lah...

Hmmm... Yah, after the Service, I already confirmed that I would make time to come back for the Service until the pledging day... And most probably, you will be sure that I will go "Whoosh!" again after I had pledge the amount! Haha... Pledging must be done within Church, during sermon and prayers, to "secure the divine pledging spiritually". However, the actual giving do not need to be in Church, you can give by Credit Card or Internet Banking, I am sure those who go to CHC can hear this every time during the offering time! Haha...

So shall end of Episode 2 here. Gonna do the Episode 3 real soon.

Some Flash Back, Regarding Church and Stuff (Episode 1)

2008-10-22T13:13:00.008+08:00

Main Label: Life Update

Hmmm... Couldn't wait to blog this down actually... I was really excited after the Sunday Service because I thought that I got the amount to pledge already... The feeling of the "confirmation" was like "so sure" that I no need to go to Church next week to confirm the amount again~! Haha... What am I talking about leh?! Aiya... really got a lot of stuff that I missed up writing... Guess I really got no time to write down all those tiny little details, but gotta write the stories in summaries ba... But wait a minute... Can I really write summaries?? Not that I know of, I know that I couldn't write an effective summary... Simply because, I don't know what to eliminate~! Everything, every single details seem important to me leh... Haha...

Ok, maybe I will do a "Content Page" and a brief, real brief description to that... So here goes:

(1). Introduction -- "Leave Church" Decision
(2). Back To Church for a Purpose??
(3). The Sunday Service-- "Fourth Dimension Living" Sermon & Amount to Pledge Confirmation
(4). And wait, is that really the confirmation?! Cos I am thinking of doubling it...

And now, for the story...

(1). Introduction -- "Leave Church" Decision

Indeed, this is really like a "long ago" thing... But nevertheless, it still happened within this year, 2008. Since it had been sometimes already, I don't really know how to started it... Let me think...
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Ok, got it. In the past, I always traveled into Singapore every Sunday morning for Service and Usher Ministry and it was definitely tired. In the further past, I traveled in by bus! I gotta ask my Papa to fetch me down to the custom because that time I was a Singapore Permanent Residence (SPR) which means I couldn't drive Malaysia plated car into Singapore. That time was a much difficult time that I had to trouble my Papa to fetch me. I thought of parking the car in the nearby shopping complex -- City Square, but that would cost a lot as I maybe staying in Singapore for almost the whole day. So things got better when I gave up my SPR and I started to drive my Honda Accord... erm... not really "mine", but my Papa's Honda Accord for the Service! It was definitely great~! However... sigh... God never makes "going to Service" easily for me... It is true to me... I always got different challenges while going to Church at different point of my time...

~ Different Challenges for Attending Service at Different Point of Life ~
At the initial stage of my CHC life, I was doing part-time waiter in a Japanese Restaurant, which means weekends were usually gotta work. At that time, I was new to CHC also, and there were lots of negative feedbacks regarding this church from my friends, so I was doubtful and would "drag myself" going to Friday Service... I requested not to work on Friday so that I can go for the Service. I remembered that was one Friday that I didn't work and "supposed" to meet a friend from CHC, actually he is Eugene Goh lah, for attending Service together... But in the end I met other friends for dinner instead. Haha... I felt bad that I flied aeroplane to Eugene. But thank-God-ly, he managed to find his other Church friends to attend the Service together. Nevertheless, he does know a lot of people in Church, so it shouldn't be a difficult task for him lah... haha...

Later, I gave up my part time job so that I can go to the Service as well as the Cell Group Meeting (CGM). I could remembered, I attended the CG three times only, and for the third time, it was their "Multiplication Day"! Haha... And I was still "blur-blur" that time. That time, mg CG Leader, was Sia Hon Yu. Then I was transferred to a new CGL, Janice Seow. And that was the time I was under her direct "discipleship" and I gotta learned a lot from her. That was the moment when I decided to go into Usher Ministry, sole purpose is to fulfill the mission statement of the Church...

Usher Ministry... I also got lots of memories for it... I signed up the ministry via the Internet and I actually waited for about 3 months for the person in charge to contact me! Indeed, a time of waiting... Anyways, shall write those stories regarding Usher Ministry some other time...

Doing usher duty was another different challenge for me to go for the Service. This time was like, balance between duty and worshipping God; a balance between Martha and Mary... Sometimes, I was asked to do Traffic Marshal (TM), which means I served outside the main auditorium. Man! That was so far away from the Presence of God leh... All these sacrifces were affordable to me, as my heart was fervent for God, and being a new convert, my heart was burning with desires also. Until...

Until after graduated from MDIS, my Papa wanted me to come back for JB... I wasn't willing to do that... And I asked God, but I felt the response from God also... He says "It is time to go back." But actually, Jesus was telling me: "That's enough, let's do something else." Well, that's another long story here...

Anyways, the challenge got much more difficult now... The traveling from JB into Singapore via bus and MRT, and going to Expo, was a killing man! This greatly affected my habit before, especially usher ministry... The report time for usher was 7.30am. I really hardly make it that time. Sometimes, I stayed overnight in Singapore on Saturday, so that the next morning I can go to Expo much early to report for Usher ministry. It was tough, it was tough, it was very tough for me, in the physical, in the emotion and in the spirit. Much later, I decided to stop this and only report to usher at 8.30am, or 9.30am. So that I no need to come over to Singapore the day before. But sometimes, I was late... reach after 10am where Service has started... sigh...

Thank-God-ly, after I gave up my SPR, the very useful benefit of this is I can drive my JBV 21 into Singapore! And so I was, driving car into Singapore happily and showing-off-ly. But, I still report 8.30am or 9.30am... Haha... sometimes, I was late also, because of jam, drove wrong way, missed the exit in highway... haha... aiyo... Things got much settled down again, until...

~ Factors that Contributes to the Decision to "Leave Church" ~
Until my heart changed... I had "severe" doubt about Christianity... Now this is not the challenge of the physical body, but of the mind and of the spirit. They (the Christian friends, the pastor) say that when such things happen, we should press on to God even more . I did, I pressed on and I pressed on until I do not know how to do anything any more... Buts still, it doesn't seem to help. Now, every Sunday morning, my mind was battling... fighting for the answer "to go or not to go". Most of the time, the answer "go" prevailed. Actually, this happened even before I could drive car into Singapore... But then I could remembered the very first time that I drove into Singapore... The mixed feeling... or that kind of feeling that is hardly for me to describe with words... it is like... having those doubts, and then driving for the first time in Singapore, (not really first time driving in Singapore, but had a break in between for years) and I was not familiar with the roads 人生地不熟 like that. And the best part is, I was doing this all by my lonely self only! Sometimes, I could wish I am not alone, things could have been better. But there was once I traveled in with my friend, but we were talking until I missed turning into the Tampines Express Way (TPE)! Haha... Then ended up going via Pan Island Express Way (PIE)! Haha... aiyo... My friend was blaming herself and me also for gossiping in the car! Haha...

Anyway, the feeling that I had when I was driving into Singapore for the first time alone, with doubts and not-so-fervent heart... It was a weird feeling. I was telling God in the car "God, I am coming for Ya~!" Really, I thought this could settle me down for sometimes, but it was not so... again... That's why I say God never makes this simple for me...

The usual, common jam I had learned to avoid... But then, there was this Mas Selamat escaping in Singapore, making the security of the Custom got to be much more tight and secure, and of course, this resulting in severe traffic jam... Then like after the news of the Mas Selamat, maybe about 2 months or like that, they got a brand new story of one Singaporean father took his son's passport and successfully crossed the Custom, and he only realised it when he reached Vietnam! Oh no... this even "strengthened" the security of the custom... My minimum jamming time at the Custom while going back to JB was like 45 minutes! And then few months back later... the greatly increased petrol price came into picture~! From Ringgit Malaysia (RM) 1.70++ to RM2.70++! Oops, I forgot the exact amount liao. Though it was not me to pay the petrol price, (my Papa pays of course) I could still feel the "pain" man! And all this factors got me into raising a question of going into Singapore often or not... Ok, latest update! The petrol price had dropped! And will be dropping again soon, erm... maybe only. And the traffic condition at the Singapose Custom had improved as well, meaning less traffic jam on the time that I go back.

However, these are not all the factors, I got more reasons coming in... I am a think-a-lot person, so my factors got a lot also lah... But not sure should I say it here...

Sigh... another long story here... OK! I will really try my best to do summary from now on! Haha... I had come into a revelation that Singapore CHC is really a Church for Singaporean, it is their's local mega Church, not us the Malaysian's. Though there are a small population of Malaysian coming into Singapore for CHC Service just like me, it is still not really targeted for us. And to consider with my future, which most likely to be stationed in JB, I think it is not wise for me to go to Singapore Church, because I am considering of my "future wife". People always have the mentality that I go to Church can get to know nice girl, or gal that I have feeling with. My CG members and other church friends always ask me, "your Usher Ministry don't have girls meh? How come you don't get to know them?" And the Usher friends will be like "your CG don't have girls meh?" Erm... to answer such questions perfectly, it takes another long entry of blog lah... Haha... But to cut short, what I am considering for my "future wife" my girlfriend, is another complex one. Singapore ladies may not really fulfill my need as my ideal wife / girlfriend, at the same time, they may not want a JB guy like me lah... Therefore, this raise an very important question which is not so easily seen / observed, i.e.: even if I got a girl that I like, and the very fact that I do have one in mind =D (and in my heart also), will I confess my feeling to the girl? And my current answer is obviously "No". Why not? Many other factors got in... Well it is really got many things got into the way, and not to mention what my 算命师傅 had said regarding my 姻缘~！Anyways, but to quote one killing reason, or "excuse" if you would prefer to use such word, it is the timing and different in place that both had. You know, 异国恋情是很难的。。。It is very difficult to maintain a love-ship between 2 distant places, at least it is very difficult at the initial stage of a boy-girl relationship. (BGR). Therefore, "to know your "future wife" in Singapore Church" this statement does not really stand for my case.

Another reason that got me is... the yearning for more personal time. Ok, ok... cut short cut short. Throughout the near-to-3-years-life in JB, I had gained weight as I did not go to gym anymore. But this May, I signed up a newly opened fitness centre in City Square. It is called the Clark Hatch Fitness Centre. At the beginning, I still don't have much time to go to gym. So I am thinking of using my Sunday morning to do the work out instead. True enough, times that I didn't go to Singapore Service, I went to gym, and I was really hardworking at it!

But all and all... the trigger point for the decision for not going into Singapore Church is this: "my passport's pages are using up!" It was not the main problem initially, I got a solution for that... I got one Malaysian church friend, Caiyan (or Choy Ngan), I sometimes call her “二妈”, she mentioned to me that there was this one entry permit, or social visit entry "card" that we Malaysian could apply, so that we no need to get chopped in our passport so frequently. All we need to provide is some of our idenfication documents and the "prove" that you travel into Singapore a lot, erm... i.e. to show your passport got many chops lah... haha... I asked her for details, got prepared and went to apply... But I was rejected! My application was rejected! Caiyan said it is very easy one. But I got rejected! Why? The staff there said that Ex-PR cannot apply. And she asked me to come back after the expiry of my PR is over for 6 months. That time I went to apply was about July. And my 6 months expiry period of PR should be about August or September. Yah, yah, now October already, which means I can go and apply again. But I do not do so. Why?? That time when I was rejected, the lady actually asked me to come back and "try" to apply again on August or September... I heard the key word, it is "try" to apply. Then I asked her so next time I come back to apply, after my PR had expired for 6 month, then I confirm can get the entry pass is it? But her response let me had the revelation that I would not coming back to apply any sooner... She said, "don't know. Not sure one. You must try only."

Yes, that's the words that trigger my decision for not coming into Singapore so often liao! I told my CGL, Wendy Goh, about it and shared with her all these things, and to tell her my intention to find a local church in JB. However, I did not find at all, "many factors" again. But really, to tell one convincing one, it is easier to said than done, it is easy to say to find a local church and get planted. But it is extremely difficult to find another CHC in JB. If you got CHC-DNA, or if you have tasted the Service style of CHC and fall in love with it, it is not that easy to fall in love with another Churches one... And my problems cannot be solved by simply "looking for a local church"! .

Yes. So all these are the factors that accumulated together, with the trigger point for this decision of "Leave Church (CHC)". Let me summarize all the points here... (1). Spiritual not-well-beings (I do hope you had realized it by now, if you had been reading this entry), (2). yearning for more of personal time and space, (3). external circumstance condition such as traffic jam. Though this problem is no longer valid for now. (4). Future settlement consideration, to find a girlfriend in JB? or Singapore? (5). Passport's pages using up! And application for entry pass got rejected! This is the trigger point! Cheh... only got 5 main points after summarizing them...

However, there is another reason that I didn't mention until now... Actually it is not really a Factor that contributes to the decision, but it is absolutely crucial to know, i.e. Jesus had once told me something in person during the period when I had the "severe" doubts. It happened at the end of one of the Services last year, while Pastor asked us to join hand and pray for your neighbors of left and right, then the words of Jesus came in, He says clearly to me, "You will leave this Church..." The moment I heard it, my tears immediately ran out and I cried a little... Wish to write down the whole story, but this entry already been very very long liao. Nevertheless, I am glad that all these things work out in the "I-want-it-that-way" manner. I want to say, God is Good! But I doubt not many trully can understand the essence of such saying as considering my case lah...

Lieh Not Enough~! (Par 7) -- L.I.E.H cHange thE WorLd~!

2008-10-14T11:35:00.002+08:00

Main Label: I, Me & Myself

"Oh no... Lieh not enough le... Everybody wants a piece of Lieh! I wish for 8 more Liehs: (1) One for God, (2) One for family, (3) One for friends (and maybe one more for more friends!), (4) One for games! (5) One for gym and be handsome, (6) One to do Great things! (7) One to do all other little things, (8) One to enjoy every beautiful things in the world, (9) And last one just for simply doing nothing! ... ... ... Ok, reserve for girl friend lah!"
Lieh

Haha... Obviously the concept of the picture cames from the movie, "L - Change the World", side story of "Death Note". These two are the original pictures I've found in the web:

Hmmm... Should I say the copyright thing?? "I do not own the 2 pictures above...

Needless to say, I love this story, "Death Note" and of course, the character, L. I am always attracted to wisdom and stuff, I love to think and think hard, think all sort of things, and sometimes you can say that I 走火入魔 (think until mind goes haywire)~! Haha... Nevertheless, I still like it that way... You can't stop me from thinking and talking nonsense, you know~ Haha...

Anyways, it is the title of the movie that makes me thinking... "What change(s) the world?", or "What can change the world?" Before answering that, 2 other important questions must be answered also: (1) "What needs to be changed (actually)?" (2) "What is the direction for the change?" For Q2, I mean that what do you want to achieve, what is your goal? When you have the answers for the 2 questions, then it should not be difficult to answer "what change the world?', right?

Another way of Analyzing the question of "What change the world?", is first by knowing the Current World Setting (CWS), oops, another new acronym from me~! Haha... The CWS can be further found out by asking this question: "What shape the world?" Yeah~! This is what I want to say actually lah... "What shape the world?" Because I had created a quote for that, and I'd put it in my MSN status once:-

"Do you know what shape(s) the world? But before answering that, do you know what is the shape of the world?"

And I further answered the question myself, or rather "teasing" the question, by saying:

"We live in a round round world, so we goes on round and round and round..."

Yeah~! That's me~! I like to play with words, be it Chinese or English, though I am not so good with languages.

"Shape" is another word of saying what has already been changed. Because a shape is an already-formed outline; it is there already; it has been shaped; It is not unformed or unshaped. Though certain shapes are not visible easily with the eyes, it does not necessary mean that the shape is not there. And I am implying this theory into our world. That's why, "what shape(s) the world?" is actually questions about the world, such as "what influence(s) this world?" "What are the major 'stakeholders' (is that a right word to use here?) in the world?" "What has caused our world today? Our cultures, our lifestyle, our belief system, and etc. stuff?" And the questions goes on... Rationally, in order to answer them, the first step is to list down, to identify those "points" individually, and that is the question "what is the shape of our world?" ! !

One of the most basic shapes that we ever learned, is round shape, or circle. In fact, the Earth we live on is a sphere, in 2D, it is a circle! So we live in a round world, or round round world (if you're Chinese like me, you usually will say it 2 times.) The Earth revolves around the Sun in a circle pattern. That is Astronomy, that is Science. What about our lifestyle? Yes, it is repeatable, it repeats around our History. We usually say it this way: "History repeats itself" (历史重演）. And when things repeat repeatedly (running out of words to describe), ok, when things keeps on repeating, it becomes a cycle. Do I need to tell you that there are many cycles in the world? So, we do live in a round round world, or rather round round round round ... ... ... ... (round x n) ... ... ... ... world... And if you sit in front of a monitor, working all days or blogging all days like me, your tummy gonna turn round round too~! Haha...

Oh! Just realised that I haven't come into the main course! My name, Lieh, the acronym of Lieh. And how it can change the world blah blah blah... ok, I will say it now...

I purposely give my name an acronym for ... ... ... fun~! Haha... That's why I do what. Haha... ok, but really, to give a purpose or meaning to it, so that I can live my life to it... Something that I treasure, and also something that can speak of me, because it is my name, right? Also something that I want to achieve in my life... I had thought a lot for it, looking for the "best fit" and "best mix" for the 4 letter words, -- LIEH. Indeed, I had chosen the most difficult values that is more than enough for my whole life to run after, to achieve, and to maintain...:-

L - Love, no doubt.
I - Integrity, very difficult, you say it.
E - Erm... Excellency, to be frank, I rather Enjoy
H - Humility, a real "tricky" value.

Hmmm... it gonna be extremely long again if I am to going through each point in detailsss. I guess I will briefly say about how such values can change the current world only ba...

Love. - Like I say, no doubt. (Eh... I don't mean that the definition of love means have no doubt, I am saying that "no doubt that love is one the most treasured, important, critical values in our world.) If everyone in the world has love, knows how to love, and knows how to love effectively, the world would have like, 90% of the problems gone, "Whoosh!"

Integrity - it is always easy to live a life without integrity, really~! And I am saying that. It helps a lot to achieve short term goals... But a life without integrity, it will spoils you in the long long run of your life journey, especially when storm of life comes and hits... or when you ran out of your lies... that's the time you face Integrity. That's the time you will realize how precious it is, the Integrity. To me, Integrity is like a solid rock, or firm soils the Bible and Jesus is talking about. And that's why Chinese has such idiom: “脚踏实地” which when translated it says: standing on the firm ground. The definition means to live a life of integrity， such as honesty, truthfulness and earnest. Integrity, is like a foundation of your life, if you have it, it won't collapse when the Earth is shaking. If you don't, well, your life collapse in your very eye... You can only hope for the "peaceful" life in order for your lies and fancy stories not to be exposed.

Oh, another main thing about Integrity is that... The world usually seek this in the field of $$$, - Finance. Another thing that makes the world round is money. "Money makes the world go round", have you not heard? When everyone has integrity over his own $$$ and other people's $$$, the whole world's $$$ issues or problems will go like this: "Whoosh!" Indeed, the value of Integrity is priceless~!

Excellency - the quality of your service, the quality of your life, ... ... ... the quality of your everything, revolve around this value, Excellency. Jesus' parable of "going for the extra mile" speaks of the quality of service you can ever provide for the people (like customers), and it is also the key towards your business /career excellency. When everyone has a heart of going towards excellency, in that journey, they will discover their fullest potential also, there by unleashing the 100% purpose of your life, living the best and very best out of your very own life, your life will have no regrets, I tell you.

Humility - I had personal interesting encounter with God regarding this, it is as if Jesus Himself came down and washed my leg, just like the Bible story. After the extremely touching event with Jesus, I would boldly declared that who is this Jesus that I am talking about. From that moment onwards, I can forgive people easily and I will try my best to be as humble as possible. Though at times, I like to "show off" lah, but that's not the pride issue here.

Humility is important... when everyone throws away their pride, the sinful pride, or the self-centered pride I mean of course, human relationships with one another will be like no more barrier, people will love one another in a much better way, thereby increasing the value / quality of love as well. :)

All such values are also associated with other values as well... Such as Love, which is also the greatest of all values, definitely links with whole lot of other values, like caring, edifying, encouraging, sacrifice, commitment, creativity etc. Integrity is associated with trust, truthfulness, security, and stuff. Excellency, can also relate to creativity, and all other values that stands out for the purpose of improving and excelling a business. Indeed,

"there is no success business, but only success people (if "people" is what you want to say) or success system (of course, all successful system is developed by human beings, if not the God, if not... ... ... the devil, you say it.)"

Therefore Excellency is definitely associated with unleashing potential, talents and stuff. Also forgetting not the word "believe", why? In order to unleash your potential, you gotta "believe yourself" right? Yah... and so when "belief" comes in, the "faith" factor also comes in. Excellency itself, is never alone. You cannot say I want to excel, I want to be excellent. Well, you gotta have a direction (or a goal) you can excel in, for example, you say, "I want to excel in my career." And that's more like it, yah?

Lastly, Humility is greatly linked with the value, "Greatness". I got such revelation from the Bible, though Pastor preached about it also, and he used the word "Servanthood" to illustrate.

Heh heh... if you're reading, thank you for reading. Will give more details of my value system in the next blogs ya~! Stay on. Mean while, please help me to live a life, to be the person with those values that I treasure and wanted to achieve. With much loves and appreciation, THANKZ~!

Critical Life Updates!

2008-09-18T23:23:00.007+08:00

Main Label: Life Update

Oh no... It has been more than a month that I didn't blog~! So lazy... why? Not that something bad had happened to me; not that I ran out of stuff to blog; But rather the opposite, I had been sooo happily playing my favourite game, Final Fantasy Tactics Advance 2: Grimoire of the Rift (and yes, the full name of the game is that long) that I neglected my blog world and always dwelt in the land of Ivalice, the world where the game is set on. Only until now that I have finished much of the game, and so I decided to blog now... Haha...

Where do I get the inspiration of this blog's title, i.e. "Critical Life Updates!" Well, it is from the Norton Anti-Virus software. This program will warn you to run "LiveUpdate" if you haven't been doing it. And it warns you with words like "Critical LiveUpdate required". How true this is for my blog too... I had even skipped blogging in the beautiful date like 080808, which was also the opening of Beijing Olympic, and oh no... the whole of Olympic I also didn't blog!!! But anyways, not that I got lots of stuff to write about Olympic. Nevertheless, the opening and ending ceremonials were still marvelous and grand and beautiful and inspiring. It definitely worth everybody's time watching man~! Well, it had ended like 2 to 3 weeks ago liao... Another beautiful date in August that I like is August 28. I wanted to blog on this day but still... ... ... I had nothing memorable happened on this day in my history but I always wanted to make that date memorable in my future, maybe my ROM date... Haha...

So why so special about August 28? This is where one of my favourite verses in the Bible lies...

"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose."
Romans 8:28

There was one moment of my down-time life, this verse kept running in my head until I decided to memorise it and that was the time when the Service's sermon was about this verse too! Anyways, since then I can recite this verse perfectly and it always encourages me whenever and wherever I feel downs or ups! To add, there is another "coincident" about this number 8:28. I usually leave for work at about 8am, and will fetch my workers (who are my relatives also) in the bustop before we head to work. Sometimes I gotta wait for them as the bus timings are random. By the time we reach our factory, it is usually about 8.30am. Most of the time, when I look at the clock in my car or on my office desk, they usually read "8:28"! And everytime I see that, it reminds me of the verse. I am not saying that this happens like 100%, but you can say that it happens like maybe 90%? Anyways, that's my relationship with 8:28. :D

Like I always mention, I really got a lot of stuff to write down, a lot of my life stories as well as my imaginery stories to tell. But I until now I haven't been blogging much... and interesting stories of my life just keep on happening~! Not that my life is dynamic and absolutely dramatic, but still, I do have some interesting things happen in my life once in a while like that. The followings are the random thoughts that I wanted to blog but finds it "no time" to do it ever since I started this blog early this year. Yah, the time is that long...

(1). Feeling with a girl!? - "I'm in Love"~~!?
This is one of the "top priority" I wanted to mention. I did share with some of my best friends. And this story gotta link with my "fate" and "destiny" thing, whereby it also links to the time my mum and 三姐 brought me to 算命！Well, the 师傅's analysis are quite relevant~! Especially about my 姻缘... And that's one of the stories in my life that I find it somewhat dramatic lor... Can shoot into movie one...

(2). More about myself.
There are a lot more that I can write about myself. And this is in my original plan for the sequence of my early blog entries. I wanted to write everything about myself before I started my somewhat dramatic life stories. But because I seldom blog and those interesting stories just keep coming until I "cannot catch up with"! Haha~~ One of the top-desirable topic about myself that I always wanted to write is what I called it "A Typical Piscean". Yes, though maybe as a Christian, one who believes in Jesus Christ are not suppose to believe horoscope, I still find the star sign Pisces really suits me completely, if not 90%. Everytime I read those horoscope articles either from forwarded mails, some websites or some Facebook applications, what they says about Pisces's characteristics and personalities are like 90% accurate to me. Too accurate that I couldn't help but to nod head and agree with absolute amazing. Most recently, I read one in a forum, the way the style it writes about Pisces is really really "hit the spot" like that. As if no one has ever analyses it so so accurate! I don't know how to describe the feeling... All I can say that the article is much more accurate and critical than those I read before~!

Another thing that I wanna write about myself is also the experience or encounter with 算命师傅. Because for the things he had said about me... And when it is "About Me", of course the "love" factor or matter also must come in. And this is linked with the point #1 above. Argh... I must write this in Chinese! This is about my “理性与感性。。。” “双鱼儿的其中一个特征就是超理性与超感性的结合体。一方面，鱼儿喜欢思想，其实是过于的思想，导致“想太多”，这是它的“超理性”。而另一方面，鱼儿又是“超感性”的，很敏感（Sensitive)，很有同情心，又喜欢幻想，常常就是躲在自己的幻想世界里等等。这种理性与感性的结合体，就算喜欢上别人，即使感性的一面会全全付出，但是付出到一定的阶段，就会被理性截止了。。。这种现象有好有坏的。。。而这死鱼儿又天天活在自己的世界里，就是说即使在爱情里，仅仅是单方面的付出，不管暗恋的人知不知道自己对她的爱意，牺牲，甚至不介意她不知道自己的存在！自己就已经满足到~~~~~~~~

还有，我的超理性也让我最终承认了我对“择偶条件”的过高要求。。。唉。。。

(3). My Spiritual Well Being...
(Use back English. heh heh...) This is also one of the "top priority" stuff I wanna mention about. And this happens to be the most complex one, so this is also very difficult to write about, don't know where to start. I also want to write down all of the wonderful spiritual encounters with God that I have these years... before I forget them and never be remembered, then it will be a really a sad stuff... Those moments... are wonderful of coure, memorable and... interesting~! And these encounters really built up my relationship with God and my faith. Eventually, these memories are the only weapon or shield for me to fight my spiritual warfare now...

Ok, the followings are most recent one, it does not need to date back to early this year.

(4). Decision to Leave My Singapore Church??
Because of my spiritual well being, of which obviously is not so well-being, I wanted to leave this Mega Church... But many factors got me... If you can agree with me that I am the "think-a-lot-Piscean" that I mentioned earlier this blog, then it should be easily understood why I got so many factors one... Anyways and actually, things happened in a more or less "I want it that way" thing. Long story... But what I want to say here is, the trigger point for me to "leave" the church, was my passport... My pages are using up! There was actually an entry pass for foreigners to come into Singapore without filling in the "white card". I went to apply that only to get rejected! In utmost disappointment with "all other factors come in together", I finally told my spiritual leader, i.e. my Cell Group Leader (CGL), that I decided not to come into Singapore so often, and I told her my intention to find my local church, really is my local, not Singapore local... However...

After the decision, there are times I still went into Singapore on Sunday, because I got stuff to deal with. And times that I didn't drive into Singapore, I will go to gym instead. I know and I know that, and God knows that, I won't find a JB church so fast one, because ultimately, what I am yearning right now, is more of my personal space, to do the things that I wanna do, to get back the things that I had lost in the past few years... Specifically what I had lost? In fact, it was what I had gained... I gained weight... And I really wanted to lose the "gain" and really lose some weight! This is one of my important achievement for the time beings...

Really, about this topic, there are a lot more to write, because of the "many factors"... Let's see will I write them out eventually in the next entries?? Haha...

(5). Money Matter
Recently, I did mentioned something about $ on my MSN status... In fact, regarding money matter, there are two absolutely standalone events that I am involved. If you can remember there was one status I mentioned I needed professional help or advice from lawyer or police and etc... That was the first event, and it had dated back to like 3 years ago when I was still in Singapore. This got to related with the Multiple Level Marketing (MLM) company that I used to belong to. There should have many related stories that encircled or in directly linked with mine, and I am most interested to find out, but to no avail... Hmmm... should I mention that a police report was filed actually? But anyways, I am satisfied with the current status of this issue, where my 4th sis, Ah Bee aka Finn helped me a lot with it. I am really really thankful for her.

Another money matter happens around here in JB, near my workplace. Somebody somehow owed my $ but refuse to pay up, and to think that my family has been helping his family all this while. “过河拆桥” is all I can say!

About these 2 issues, there are friends who had already asked me what happen... But I was really tired and will be frustrated and lazy to type out all the details of the stories in MSN... Well, it is all the tiny little details that make up one interesting story, right? If you want summary, I have given you right? "people owe me money" lor... Haha... so let's will I write in details about money matter also... Ahaha...

(6). A New Business to Venture?
My loving daddy recently set up another company to do realty, real property. And when he told everybody (not everybody; individually, and not publicly) about it, it seems he also communicated the idea that "it is opened for me". I heard sis telling me this "he opened it for you..." Aww... feel so stressed sometimes. I do have a mixed feeling about this... I should be happy really, but somehow I don't feel the "excitement" within me. Don't really know how to put them in words but of course, I don't mean that I am not satisfied with this arrangement lah, I will definitely do my best one. Not to let the whole family down, yes whole family, and also myself lah... Right now, I am designing the company logo and the layout of some documents. My father had asked me to do the company stamp and it went wrong for 2 times! The stamps are made in a way it is fixed and cannot subject to amendment, this means that I had 1 extra bad size chop and 1 extra bad layout chop for nothing! Now is the third time doing it, think should not have any problem liao ba...

Just find it funny and a sweet thing about my mum here... Because daddy is using her name also to open up the company, he had to get her to sign the necessary documents. When I asked her daddy got asked her to sign anything, she said yes. Then I asked her, do you know what are you signing for? She reply：“不懂啊，他叫我签我就签啰！” (I don't know, he asked me to sign, so I signed lor.) Then I joked, "that one is to agree that you will give him one million dollar." Haha... Wow... but I really admire her such trust towards daddy... so funny yet sweet. Haha...

(7). Went Back for Singapore Church for a Purpose!?
This is the "second episode" to Point #4. Think it gonna be absolutely very long. Best to put it on the next entry. XD Haha... Okie, shall stop here then. :) Feel like typing a 95% to 100% Chinese blog leh... Haha...

Lieh Not Enough~! (Part 6) -- My Commitments, My Life

2008-07-16T10:12:00.002+08:00

Main Label: I, Me & Myself

"Oh no... Lieh not enough le... Everybody wants a piece of Lieh! I wish for 8 more Liehs: (1) One for God, (2) One for family, (3) One for friends (and maybe one more for more friends!), (4) One for games! (5) One for gym and be handsome, (6) One to do Great things! (7) One to do all other little things, (8) One to enjoy every beautiful things in the world, (9) And last one just for simply doing nothing! ... ... ... Ok, reserve for girl friend lah!"
Lieh

(8). Enjoy Every Beautiful Thing
What are those "every beautiful things" in my life? It can be stories, interesting / remarkable quotes, movie, games, books, place, people and stuff. These are the things that I not only enjoy and love, but also some will touch me, encourage me and give me the strength to go on during my down time, telling me that there're things in life that worth your attention, there're things you can hope for, there're things that you can love very much. This seems like a repetition of "games" (number 4), but it is just that playing games require a much more commitment than all other enjoyable things, resulting no more space for other stuff. Therefore, I differentiated out the game and summarize all other enjoyable and beautiful thing into this.

"A beautiful mind sees a beautiful world."
Lieh

Having a "beautiful mind", I see a lot of beautiful things in the world. (不要脸！）Haha... Therefore also, I love many things... But again, it is also just that I fall in love and get interested with things easily, especially of those that I consider "beautiful". The word "beautiful" I use here has an extremely subjective definition. It is not just limited to the physical appearance but also include of what a flesh eye cannot see, something like 深度(depth) ，内涵 and etc.

Because I am a commitment-conscious and meticulous, sometimes, when I fall in love with something, I tend to have the desire to "find out deeper". Maybe this is what is meant by “钻牛角尖”. I happened to have a chance to go and 算命，the master also advice me not to “钻牛角尖”! Ok, more story about this experience in the future. Anyways, because of this, I tend to give myself unnecessary pains and troubles. Kind of contradict and irony you see, I love those stuff but I don't have enough time for them, and by committing time, money and effort into them, it will eventually cause me pain and stuff... Aijo... So how? What to do? 怎样（yang1)？

Oh, no... I had a very long pause after I typed the above sentence, "Aijo... So how? What to do? 怎样（yang1)？" I was really thinking on "what to do?" and nothing gets into my head... I don't really know how to continue until I came out an idea of writing all these down... haha... Anyways, I don't have much to write about my "beautiful things" here... maybe because it is also the 钻牛角尖 thing, of which I mean, it gonna have a whole lot of stuff and stories to tell again... haha...

(9). Simply Doing Nothing
This is just a "break time" thing you see... It is like God created the world, Adam and Eve, and on the seventh day, He rests. So after telling so many thing, I also need a break lah... Haha... "Simply doing nothing" also reflect the yearning for the value of freedom. I once thought that freedom is nothing for me, I don't need freedom; I can handle things well, I don't need a "break". I am a "responsible" person and will commit in anything that I do. Yes, I thought like that in the past, until... Until whole lot of things got me, whole lot of responsibilities that I assumed... That eventually I lost the time for myself, I lost the time to play game, to do the things I wanna do... That "I'm busy", "Sorry, I am not free", etc... This is the time I realize that "freedom" really matters to me. I finally realize that I need a break, a damn big break free from many things! I needed a time to be myself, being myself and not someone else.

"Doing nothing" is just a space that I wanted to create for myself, a space to be myself, a space to yearn for my freedom, and obtain a balance between responsibility and freedom, to do the things that I really love to do, other than play game, gym, watching movie etc, such as making creative cards for my friends, start a research topic and ... a lot more... "Doing nothing" is a space, a gap that I created for potential expansion for all the above 8 Liehs that I ever mentioned; It is also a space to allow, to welcome any surprises in life, and I hope that those surprises are of joyful one~! 空间，空间啊~！钻牛角尖之后要留一些空间呼吸啊~！Ah... I came across a phrase to describe and summarize all of these -- "a space to breath". That's it! It explains everything! Everything is not everything!

Yeah~ This is the shortest entry so far~! :p~~

Lieh Not Enough~! (Part 5) -- My Commitments, My Life

2008-07-15T13:11:00.003+08:00

Main Label: I, Me & Myself

"Oh no... Lieh not enough le... Everybody wants a piece of Lieh! I wish for 8 more Liehs: (1) One for God, (2) One for family, (3) One for friends (and maybe one more for more friends!), (4) One for games! (5) One for gym and be handsome, (6) One to do Great things! (7) One to do all other little things, (8) One to enjoy every beautiful things in the world, (9) And last one just for simply doing nothing! ... ... ... Ok, reserve for girl friend lah!"
Lieh

(7). All Other Little Things
One major, important task in my life, in everybody's life is to handle all other little things that come across in your life... Word of Jesus is like this "be faithful in little things". His quotes found in the Bible are as followed:-

"He who is faithful in what is least is faithful also in much; and he who is unjust in what is least is unjust also in much."
Luke 16:10 (NKJV)

"His lord said to him, 'Well done, good and faithful servant; you were faithful over a few things, I will make you ruler over many things. Enter into the joy of your lord.' "
Matthew 25:21 (NKJV)

Luke 16:10 is what I summarize into "faithful in little things". And it is also saying that when you are faithful in the small things, you will also faithful in the big things; While Matthew 25:21 talks about faithfulness over few things, you will have authority over much more things, and thereby implying the character / value of responsibility.

So what are these little things? These are also what I categorize into "take care of yourselves" things, such as doing house chores, tidying up (so that the environment you live in is clean), bathing, brushing etc. (so that your body is physically clean), car washing (if you own a car) and etc. I am very much thankful to have my mama. She is the one who takes care of house chores and tidying up. And she is the one who impacted and influenced her four daughters to be extremely cleanness conscious! I once rented a flat with my fourth sister in Singapore. We agreed that I will be responsible for sweeping and mopping the floor. But the floor gets dirty easily because the flat is located next to the main road. And I was kind of lazy to do the sweeping and mopping very frequently... As a result, my sis would complain frequently about the dirty floor... Haha...

Now shifted back to JB, my mama is the one who washes my clothes, sweeping and mopping and etc. I am very thankful to have her because I no need to do such little things. However, also because of this, that she assumed too much responsibilities over this and eventually crossed the boundary and came into my private zone! She touched my stuff without asking my permission first! Oh~~no~~ I wanted to sort out a pile of documents that I wanna keep so I classified them into places all around inside my room, so that I know the different categories. Then I couldn't finish the sorting and the next day I went to Singapore for Sunday Service. About evening, I came back and went directly into my room... I WAS SHOCKED ! ! !

My room layout was completely different!!! She then told me that for some "Feng Shui" purpose, the she and my father altered my room layout. I used to have a big, full body mirror but was now removed from my room. Bed's and wardrobe's position had changed, so was study table... Then I saw a pile of documents stacked up... I was wondering... then I remembered! I was so angry~! I just sorted them out, and now they were back into stacks! I kept my 2D animation drawings in a box, when I reached home that day, they were taken out of the box and when I asked where was the box, she could told me that the box are rusted (some parts of the box had metal) and she said she could use the box... Now, what would you think in your mind?? Then the best part is here... I just "squeezed" back DreamCast console (an old fashioned game console) into its box. If you have realized, most of the electrical products when took out of the nicely packed boxes, it is extremely difficult to put back, to pack them back into the box nicely and perfectly, because the products was machine-packed. In order to save space within the box, and maybe for visual, marketing purpose, boxes are usually designed to be visually attractive (and therefore smaller size is better). I wanted to keep the game console back into the box because I no longer playing it and thought of selling it away. So I packed it as nicely as I could, and I took a long time to achieve that... But on that day I came back, the stuff inside were taken out! And my mama asked me, "what are the things inside? Stored inside so long later spoilt." That's the time, my anger could not be controlled anymore!!! I shouted, "I just put them into the box like only... yesterday!!!" (FYI, I shouted from upstairs to downstairs where she was, so it wasn't really a face-to-face shouting)

Really, I was not against her for touching my stuff, invade my private space, not gimme self-respect and stuff... But at least, and the very first thing to do, is to tell me, inform me or ask me first before you want to do anything on my stuff. So that I can tell you some information, so that I am mentally-prepared for the "surprise"! Haha... And you will not mess up for what I am doing right now! Then I no need to do things twice, TWICE. And sometimes even more than twice! I gotta take back the box to put back my 2D animation, packed back my game console, sorted out again all the documents that I just sorted out! Why? Am I rehearsing a drama is it?

That night, with much anger regarding this issue, and also certain disappointment with God, I almost gone mad in my room... I was like, bashing stuff in my room. I wanted to shout out loud, real loud to release my anger, but in order not to disturb my family, I opened my mouth and exerted my strength from stamina but uttered no voices. I was trying my best to release all of my anger that night... I was complaining to God ... again. But after the release, after I calmed down. I got better... Sometimes, I just couldn't help to think that this is just my life, my fate... That whenever I try to do something, challenges will come. And those are dramatic challenges... I really wonder can my life story go up to TV screen or not... haha... After I had calmed down, I also thanked God that my mama's help, that her interference of tidying up my room actually helps towards achieving my goal, i.e. to arrange my room after all. Regardless of her ignorance about my stuff, she did help to clean up, put other stuff into boxes, etc. I was just thinking, if she could have asked me things before she started anything, things would have been done with effectiveness... And I thanked God for my somewhat dramatic life lor... Haha...

Other than being faithful in little things like daily chores, one should be mindful of his/her speech and word. “言者无意，听者有心” you know. And because human body system does not consist of physical body only, it also includes your mind, your soul and spirit. Therefore also be careful of what is in your mind is thinking right now; what books, movies, games etc that you are contacting with. Well, maybe I become too meticulous, too suspicious over things... But still, these are the little things that we should be faithful of.

And there is one "powerful" little thing that the world has much neglected, and this is the "promise(s)". Some people get so used to "promise something easily and forget that something easily" that this eventually creates problem like mistrust, lost confidence in something or someone, lack of security, etc. This is the reason why I don't like to promise people, don't like to give people "empty promises". I am much overwhelmed by my own stuff that I can hardly give out times for other things... The best I can ever tell you is "I will try..." Or, if I ever promise something, I will definitely added "I will do this when I am free" at the end of my speech. And you will be surprise at times when a long forgotten promise being fulfilled out of nowhere~! Haha... This is really because I don't like to give empty promises and I don' like to disappoint people.

As you can see by now, that those little things are really insignificant at times... I recently learned a word to describe such stuff, i.e. "trivia". Yes, such insignificant, trivia are not the key towards greatness and success. However, the word of Christ is still valid. Jesus was just telling us, when you are faithful in the little things, it implies your potential / possible attitude towards the greater things (Luke 16:10). Or simply an alteration of the idea of "what you focus, you will magnify"? But anyways, taking science as a parable, like the things that our physical eyes can see, is actually made up of extremely small particles that Science called them atoms and molecules. We learned this during school times. Really, anything that is big, is also made up of lots of small little parts that is usually insignificant... On the contrary-cum-similarly , all the little things that when summed up together, when gather together, will eventually become some thing great, either great in a glorious and glamors manner, or great in a negative ways, you know like, "big troubles", "I'm busy", "so many things to do, I'm so stressed." Oh, no...

This is also the reason why I will treasure all the little things that I ever aware of... How much little things your eyes can see your mind can perceive, depends on how detailed person you are. Being a thoughtful person, of course I myself see a lot of little things... And thereby, giving me more things to do, and in turns of course, ... more troubles... sigh...

I always wanted to arrange my room and until now I am still arranging my room~! I once had a conversation with an old friend of mine, she asked me "what are you doing now?" I answered, "I'm arranging my room." "Huh? Why are you still keep arranging your room? It is something that I always hear from you~!" Such conversation rang a bell in my heart... I realized that all the while I had been doing the same things! And I really want to break away from this cycle. In the past, I was looking for an "once-and-for-all" solution, but as I grew up, and screwed up, I realize that there are a lot of things in life do not have such one-time solution. But instead, whole lot of things require constant attention and maintenance. Yes, whole lot: body, mind, soul, spirit, everything... But thank-God-ly, I invented myself a plan of which what I called the Major Arrangement Plan (MAP). But in order to tell the whole story, it takes some episodes to explain... Haha... Yeah, another somewhat-dramatic-life thing. However, as a brief introduction, it is something that records all of my To Do List (TDL), all the little things that I want to do, records the potential things that I want to do, to have, to research about, good habits to develop etc. And it helps to govern what should be done in the short term, what can be waited for the future, i.e. prioritization. It also helps me to focus what to do now and what to accomplish. In addition, it comes with a reward system, that when I had accomplish certain numbers of tasks, I can reward myself with games! Haha...

Ok, shall stop here... Every time when I thought I got nothing to write, but when I started writing, all the ideas just flash out, resulting long entries again and again... haha... :D

Lieh Not Enough~! (Part 4) -- My Commitments, My Life

2008-07-14T17:22:00.004+08:00

Main Label: I, Me & Myself

"Oh no... Lieh not enough le... Everybody wants a piece of Lieh! I wish for 8 more Liehs: (1) One for God, (2) One for family, (3) One for friends (and maybe one more for more friends!), (4) One for games! (5) One for gym and be handsome, (6) One to do Great things! (7) One to do all other little things, (8) One to enjoy every beautiful things in the world, (9) And last one just for simply doing nothing! ... ... ... Ok, reserve for girl friend lah!"
Lieh

(6). Do Great Things
Being a loving and creative being, I always have some brilliant ideas once in a while to contribute to the world... But it never come into realistic progress because those are simply my humble imagination and has not been tested or proven! How I wish I could really have my own research team and facilities to let my dreamsss come into real actions.

Sometimes, these "great things" is always linked with God, the purpose, calling of the Lord, and for the glory of the Lord~! But, not necessary true all the time... And this may appear to be another repetition of my first mentioned commitment, i.e. God, but is still a different one. God, talks about the relationship with God, and of more towards spiritual means. On the other hand, doing great things can be for God, but also for the world and mankind. And is usually towards changing life, changing world by means of implementing new system, new mindsets, and new physical / materialized and visible things... And I will say this, those are interesting, innovative ideas that the world could ever have it! Haha... Sometimes I wasn't very convinced that in my life, I cannot be an innovative inventor and stuff. But of course, it takes whole lot of "impossibilities" path to walk towards such goal....

Ever since I came to my Church, CHC, I guess I gave people the impression that I am one who love God, who is fervent and has a burning desire for God. Haha... One remark that was given to me that I especially liked is: "I thought you've been in Church for years." Haha, when I was only in Church for about 2 years! I do give people the idea that I am an experienced City Harvester. And I can memorize the Church's mission statement! Which I think not a lot of people does. Oops... I am sooo outwardly spiritual~! Haha... Anyways, because of the Church's mission statement, I joined a ministry in the Church, which is the ever famous, effective and committed Usher Ministry with the ever excellent attitude of serving~! I love my Usher Ministry I tell you! Through Jesus' word,

"Yet it shall not be so among you; but whoever desires to become great among you, let him be your servant."
Matthew 20:26 (NKJV)

I learned about greatness, and it is always associated with servanthood. Pastor Kong had been preaching about this two recently, and usher is the common example to quote. Even such, the rhema word, understanding and the desire had entered into my heart about 3 years ago. This is one of the reasons, that I am not willing to give up my Usher status. I want to fulfill the Church's mission statement~!

Other than the mission statement, the God-given vision to Pastor Kong and the Church is "a church without walls", "to serve beyond the 4 walls of the Church". It simply means to love and help people not only in church but also those out of church. Being an usher, sometimes I was asked to station at the main gate of the church (Jurong West Branch) as a traffic marshal. When there was event in the Singapore Indoor Stadium (SIS), some ushers are to station around the corridors and gates, etc. During such serving in usher, when I was not in the main auditorium where worships and sermons are held, I had some "being left out" feelings. How I wish I had duty inside the main hall instead, to enjoy the praise and worship, to feel and dwell in the presence of God. However, this is also the time that I realized something important... Hmmm, I can't really put them into words, but it was like you will miss out praising and worshiping God when you don't have the opportunity to do so, so next time when you get the quality time to praise and worship God, you will treasure it more. It is like the Chinese saying:

“人要等到失去之后才会懂得珍惜”

But beyond this revelation there is another greater one... When you know that there are people happily worshiping God inside a walled conference room without much distraction from the outside world, and sometimes know not the weather outside, whether it is sunshine or a rainy day... but you are left outside serving, away from the presence of God, facing either burning sun or cooling rain... and I kind of linked this to those who know not Christ... I feel sad for them... Slowly, with other issues, I came into a revelation that I finally told God, and I wanted to tell the world that:

"I am God's faithful usher, and I serve beyond the four walls of the Church!"

Which is why, God's ministries cannot be limited within churches only, they must go beyond! That's also why Jesus talked about the "extra mile", the spirit and attitude of excellence~! That's why I am thinking of greatness, my all-time-favorite value (system). And I want to serve the world, change the world in a "like never before" manner! Haha...

In addition, just like some other faithful and fervent members, I also had desire to be raised up as a Cell Group Leader (CGL) and to attend School of Theology (SOT) organized by the Church... 2 years ago, I attended Reverend Mike Connell's deliverance service via CHC. In the hope of getting dramatic deliverance, I got a leader (who helped out in the healing and deliverance) laid hand on me and prayed instead. And what he prayed? He prayed that I would raise up as a CGL! And then recently, I attended my ex-CG members' wedding dinner, and met other ex-CG members. In our conversation, they kind of expected me to be a CGL by now! Haha... Somehow, or maybe, I just have the "look" or "kuan" of a typical leader? Haha... or maybe it is just people's humble and encouraging words? Or really, it is the calling of the Lord? Really? But anyways... things didn't turn out good here... I didn't manage to become a CGL... Guess circumstances got me... After all, it really the timing that did not favor me... sigh... And the SOT is just another story... (not telling now. :p)

As an imaginative being and one who belief himself as being creative, I love to make up stories, new ideas and new theories. I think I have talent in creative writings... But I was also weak in languages at times, literatures and vocabulary in both Chinese and English. I wish I have the time to improve on these so that I can really go on trying to write stories... I have many wonderful imaginations and brilliant stories, but again I was limited by my incapability. I studied a little drawing skills before. I thought of drawing comics, but my drawing skills... is like... one thing that I would never show off to people one... Haha...

One interesting fact about story ideas... I think I was inspired by the world's (especially Chinese) all-time-favorite author, Jin Yong (金庸）and game story like Final Fantasy VII. So I had my own sets of story timeline, characters and stuff. After I became a Christian and attended my Church, all of my characters also "accepted Christ"~! Haha... Erm... if you know what I mean lah... I was trying to say, the stories before I know Christ are those fantasy stuff while after I know Christ, those stories also have put in the element of Christ. Haha...

In addition to greatness, I really hope that I can venture into new business and earning big profit$!!!. I graduated with Bachelor Degree in Business And Management Studies. I thought of applying what I have learned and put them into real action plans... But then again, this is the part of me that I wish I am able to further develop onto...

Being a very much thoughtful and all-rounder person, I also having some problems in choosing a career path. Some times I think I can do a lot of things with a wide variety, I can be artist, businessman, scientist, inventor, engineer???, philosopher! etc. because of my wide scope of thoughts. But in the end, I didn't do anything great, I don't have a specific career path and professions. Once in my life I came into a conclusion that only one job is suitable for me and that is writer! Only by one who writes stories and scripts, I can be more than one person, one role, one profession etc.! Because in any stories, it is very least possible to only have one character. Instead, there are certain numbers of characters in any stories. When one story gets more complicated, it tends to have more characters. And this just remind myself that I actually love variety~! I get much excitement when I know about a variety of stuff, such as colours, animals, people, character and stuff... That is also one of the reason why I love stories with a lot of characters, and especially with unique and differentiable personality, style, preference, and even power! Such as X-men, 天龙八部(金庸）(Tian Long Ba Bu by Jin Yong). I wish I can write stories as such.

Oh! There is one more wish that I have, i.e. to produce movie! Because I like to watch movie also and will be inspired by certain movies once in a while. Recently, after watching some movies I had come into a thirst in my desire, I feel and have a revelation of this "There must be something more in a movie"! A lot of movies are being filmed and shown each years. The competition is intense but I can hardly catch one real good and remarkable movie... It is like... movie come, movie go, but only a few can stay in my heart; only a few that is, that is real good and powerful that can change the course of your mindset, your life... Hmmm, maybe the people doesn't yearn for a change? Maybe people just wanna relax their body and mind by catching an entertaining movie? So it is entertainment and not enlightenment? Haha... Anyways, "something more than a movie", or "something more in a move" is a question or a seed that has left in my heart, waiting for an answer, a season of blossoms and revelations!

I had talked much about my great things, but am I any closer to any of these? Nope! All of such only remain as my dreams and imagination... I can't make my first step here... sad. Lieh-not-enough. Let there be enough. :)

Lieh not Enough~! (Part 3) -- My Commitments, My Life

2008-07-04T10:37:00.006+08:00

Main Label: I, Me & Myself

"Oh no... Lieh not enough le... Everybody wants a piece of Lieh! I wish for 8 more Liehs: (1) One for God, (2) One for family, (3) One for friends (and maybe one more for more friends!), (4) One for games! (5) One for gym and be handsome, (6) One to do Great things! (7) One to do all other little things, (8) One to enjoy every beautiful things in the world, (9) And last one just for simply doing nothing! ... ... ... Ok, reserve for girl friend lah!"
Lieh

(5). Gym and Being Handsome
I wasn't very keen in Physical Education (PE) when I was schooling. My PE always failed that time. And I didn't make an effort to improve on it much because I didn't have to serve in the army, so what's the purpose? When I was in Poly, a friend of mine brought me to a fitness centre, California Fitness Centre (CFC) to say the name. Don't know why also, I signed up a membership in the end. But still, I didn't utilize this membership much until...

After I graduated from Poly, this was the time that I made more utilization of the gym centre. That time, I happened to have some hundreds dollars. So I decided to sign up a personal training (PT) of about 8 to 10 sessions with my personal trainer (also acronym as PT?). And this was the moment that "changed my life"! Haha...

With the aid of PT, and happened to have a chance of eating less (because not staying with my mama mah), I successfully slimmed down from about 65kg to 58kg, and obtained a more toned body! But now coming back to JB, staying with my loving mum, I gained up to 68kg over a period of 2 years! And then my current weight is about 66kg. I lost about 2kg after coming back from Vietnam trip. Why? Cos I ate the "wrong" food and got diarrhea over a period of about 3 weeks! Daily, I couldn't eat much. Toilets were my frequent going places. On the first week, I thought "I can get well soon", so didn't heed doctor, but... On the second week, I decided to see my so-called family doctor who after examined my stomach, advised me to take Vitagen, 2 to 3 bottles a day... Yah, I was surprised by his saying and I thought he was not going to gimme additional medicines, haha... He gave me some medicines, including antibiotics... But I didn't get much better. So on the third week, I went to see another doctor near my house, had an injection from my buttock "ouch!" (not really painful though), more medicine, stronger antibiotics, and this doctor actually "went on extra mile" to gimme fever medicine where I didn't have fever! His stand was, "usually such diarrhea will generate heat in your body, causing fever". Well, after I had consumed this doctor's given medicine, except the fever one, I finally got better... Yah, only "better". Only a few days after I finished the medicine, I could finally say, "I'm recovered totally"!

So much story just to tell how I lost the 2kg... Anyways, coming back to my topic: gym. Since the sessions with my PT, I not only lost weight, but also gained a much better looking body. People could tell from my "shape" that I got workout regularly. I don't mean of those big muscles in body building, because I was losing weight, remember? In this weight losing process, I lost most of my "baby fats"; my shoulder become broader and stronger enough for a girl to cry on; I got chests you know! A beautiful V-shape body; sexy waist I tell you! That was the time I feel so "confident" in my life. But... “好景不长。。。” I stopped this habit of exercising when I became too busy with Church commitments and other stuff... Finally, I stopped going back to my lovely CFC totally when I shifted back to JB...

Days that I stopped gym & exercising, I realized that I fall sick easily... And I think I looks no energy, tired, sleepy most of the time. I could still remember, I looked more energetic, and really am more energetic when I kept a habit of exercising. That's why I love "pumping" myself in fitness centres. However, there is something here in my mind that I am not able to think through... I know that I will look better and feel better when I exercise regularly. But to achieve that, I have to spend time, quality time in fitness centre. Last time when I studied in MDIS, I happened to have lots of such quantity of time for me to gym in fitness centre. I spent like hours in the centre every time I went there. I do all kinds of exercise, from cardio, upper body, legs, abs, attending classes like body pump, body combat, and finally before going to shower, I would also spend time in the sauna and steam room! It was like, I was really totally utilize this fitness centre's facilities!

However, times that I do not have regular exercise, I would spent time... or rather, my time is spent in sickness and sleeping... I feel to exercise or not, time is still wasted... What I mean is like, time is still needed for building up a healthy lifestyle of exercising, if not time will be spent on and with sickness, and when you gets older, more sickness will befriend with you... But nevertheless, I guess the point is still that exercising not only gimme a better look (energetic, nice body & "sexy" body, haha...) and better feel （more confident), it also keeps me healthy and away from sickness, and definitely beneficial in the long run. Therefore, I would still prefer “waste time" in exercising than to mourn with sickness in bed! Haha...

I also love the feeling during gym and exercising, during those muscles building or body shaping moment... I love the idea that "when you think you can't" but with a little push, or motivation, you realize that actually you can! Yes, you can do it! So you see, body exercising is not only beneficial to the physical body itself, it also helps to develop your mind. And of course, a positive mindset. How true it is... when people say, if you wanna slim down, any methods will do, but the most important factor is still your mind, i.e. your determination! I strongly agree with this man! In addtion, I especially love the feeling of exhausting myself, my body, my muscle with those equipments of muscle shaping, cardio, etc. etc. I think I can't really keen in describing such feelings, I couldn't find any best words or phrase here to describe the feelings perfectly... Maybe also because that was like 3 years ago... Yah, it is about 3 years already... And I am looking forward to get back such healthy habit!

Thank-God-ly, a fitness centre called "Clark Hatch" decided to open up a branch here in JB. And yes! I signed up! I couldn't wait to get back my "nice body"! "Toned body, I miss ya~!" Right now, there are a total of 3 branches here in JB. The one that I signed up is located in City Square. There is another branch located in Danga Bay which is near to the seaside, facing Singapore. But I heard from the staff that this branch is not affiliated with the branch in City Square, due to different management and therefore different promotion and stuff. However, one older branch is located in Permas Jaya, it has swimming pool aslo... and this branch is affiliated! The membership package I signed up allows me to go to this branch, however, Permas Jaya is way too far from my house in Skudai... :( so sad... I wish I can find some time to swim there...

Since the branch had opened, I only went there once till date! So sad... Truly, I wish I can spend lots of time "sticking" to the gym like in the past, shaping up my body... 6 packs! I wish I could achieve that... Though in the past, I spent lots of effort in the gym, I could still never get my 6 packs. I would really want, for once in my life, to get that sexy-six-packs man! I really want it! Every time I do Goal-Setting, there are goals that "don't really seems like a goal, but more to a habit thing, or something that we ought to do regularly", but I set them as goals to achieve. This results in ineffective goal setting I guess... But to me, "to have 6 packs" is really something that I could call it a "goal"! No doubt! Dear God, for once in my life, just let me have it! Please~~~ I will work hard to achieve it!

Yeah! Maybe by now, if you are reading, you should have sensed the "vainness" in me? Yeah, I'm kinda vain pot that you can call... But one will not easily draw into this conclusion if you always see me... This is because my "vainness" is much covered up by my shyness... Haha... And my idea of dressing up, grooming, looking good, etc starts with the physical body and appearance itself. To me, as a guy, to look good in front of others, what really matter is your body and face, what you wear will come second. If I don't have a nice body, wearing anything will do... Of course, I will still try to wear nice and "update" lah... But I assure you this, if you see me having a toned body, that's the time you will realize I will dress real different to "show off" the "essence" of human body shape which is wrapped within the clothes I am wearing... Haha... Oh... I miss those singlets... Oh~ No~ I'm such a vain pot... God help me~! Haha... Anyways, my fashion stands is like this:

“我穿衣服，不是衣服穿我”

Hope you can understand the essence of this quote... What I want to mean is, I bring up the clothes I am wearing, and not the clothes I am wearing bring me up... In whichever sense, the person should still be the main thing, and not of the clothes...

Some people say I am handsome... I don't know about that... But also, I don't want to deny that! Haha~~~ Oops... Anyways, but this is what I find out: (1) I am aunties' & uncles' market. Most uncles and aunties will find me good-looking, unless their children is better looking than myself? Haha... (2) In place with no handsome guy, I tend to stand out. But when there is handsome guy around, I will tend to fade off... Sigh... and not to mention my height... My 166cm is not enough for me to qualify as a model... :( Height-not-enough also...

OK lah, my only desire regarding this issue now is to first get back the more toned and defined body, then have my sis, Ah Bee, also known as (AKA) Finn, a professional photographer to shoot down many photos and have my portfolio... I had one portfolio that time... Went to take the portfolio with my best friend and her sister. Another interesting story here again! But ain't telling lah... Haha... Anyways, that portfolio was not bad, but I will not call it a success neither. My sis, Ah Bee Finn, was a little angry with me when she found out about the portfolio. It was a "You wanna shoot portfolio, why didn't look for me???" thing. After she looked at those photos, I guessed she had wonderful time laughing and mocking at me ba... Haha... So, "to compensate" I will try my best to get back the body of mine, and to have a much better one, then have my sis to be my photographer this time. I'll be her model, and help her advertise her skill~! haha... Wish us "all the best" okay?

Yeah~! I am so excited about this! I wanna keep fit and stay handsome! Haha~ Regardless I have some doubts and disappointment with my God, spirituality and faith questions, I am still thankful that there are still such hope that keep me going, that light up and spice up my life...

So in the end, this entry only talk about keeping fit and stay handsome, huh? Aijo... still got so many things to say... Lieh-not-enough, height-not-enough, blog-not-enough... How? Haha... At least I enjoy writing blogs ya~!

Lieh not Enough~! (Part 2) -- My Commitments, My Life

2008-06-23T11:10:00.005+08:00

Main Label: I, Me & Myself

"Oh no... Lieh not enough le... Everybody wants a piece of Lieh! I wish for 8 more Liehs: (1) One for God, (2) One for family, (3) One for friends (and maybe one more for more friends!), (4) One for games! (5) One for gym and be handsome, (6) One to do Great things! (7) One to do all other little things, (8) One to enjoy every beautiful things in the world, (9) And last one just for simply doing nothing! ... ... ... Ok, reserve for girl friend lah!"
Lieh

(1). God

My God occupies one of the largest portion of my life. Not trying to be "spiritual", but I kind of started "searching God" when I was in primary school. Since then, parts and pieces of my life involves this element of God. Currently there are so many questions in my mind about God, His Unconditional Love, and the Free Will which He freely will for us... Such questions are tough and at times, uncomfortable, up to the extent that I will say my brain is going to burst~! Yet nevertheless, such questions are never harmful as it may seem to be. I do enjoy the process of such thoughts, or I currently call it "my spiritual warfare", or "battling of the mind". The fact is, regardless of the hard part, I can still get some inspirations~! This is my version / style of "seeking the Lord".

(2). Family
Yes, my family is definitely one of the most important element in my life. "I love my family~!" I would say. However, there are times I do realize that I don't know how to love them effectively, and maybe perfectly. Neither their loves for me is the one that I seek and desire. What do I mean by to love effectively & perfectly? It is to love one in a way the person wants to love and be loved. To love someone perfectly is difficult, almost impossible. At times, I couldn't help to think that "perfection" is an illusion. Or to illustrate better, "perfection" is an ever on-going event that you can say that it has no end.

One desire that I have, is to love my parents and sisters and their families effectively. To know them better, to understand their needs and meet those needs. However, this is never a simple task... And this definitely will take whole lot of me to do that of which at times, I am not willing to give in, to give up my certain things just for that, you know.

(3). Friends
Yup, yup, and more friends~! Friends from primary school, secondary school, Poly, MDIS, Church -- CG, ex-CG, Usher Ministry, miscellaneous friends, ex-colleagues, sis' friends, and a very few of friends' friends. Actually, to confess, I am really a shy guy who seldom initiate a conversation with strangers. But my heart is always welcoming new friends. So I really appreciate people who will initiate a conversation with me (conditions apply, oops). What conditions? E.g. Insurance or financial planner who asks you for "a short survey" that kind...

However, there was this moment of my life that I felt so lonely. Although I have many friends as I claimed that, there are times friends are not available when you need them. Yes, some friends will be there for you when you are hurt, just broke up in relationship, severe quarrel with parents, etc. etc. But what I mean is the moment when you just come back from school or work, then you got to travel, got to eat, etc. These are the moment you are left alone when you don't have friends who stay near to you. There are times I gotta eat alone and this is a trouble when I am eating during the peak hour! Yup, no seats and no one help you to jaga your belongings!

Then as I know more of God & Jesus, my inner attitude began to change... (Though I sounded like I am giving testimony and witnessing the Lord Jesus Christ and the Christianity, I am really just saying my heart out. I am not really interested in giving Jesus testimony and witnessing for the time being of my life, I just wanna tell the truth of my heart.) And with God who brought in more friends to me that I came into the situation that I were so busy with friendsss that eventually I yearned for a time to be left alone, so that I can have times for myself~! Haha... Ironic and funny? And that was the time I realized that I really need times for myself, and myself only. I also came into a revelation that:-

"When you are lone, you're alone with God."
Lieh

And this especially true when you know the God that I know; when the God you know will actually respond~!; when you are sensitive to God~! :) :D

There are times when my friends ask me out but I am not free due to other commitments. I felt bad and pity that I can't join them. And this can really result in "lost contact" one. One thing I realized in my life is that, my family and my friends will organize events at the same day! This isn't really that "coincidence" because those day are usually special days (such as Father's & Mother's Day) and public holidays. Don't know why, I always choose to stay with family when such choices occur. There are exceptions of course. Another situation I felt bad with friends is when they invite me for their wedding dinner. I attended some but rejected some too. There are times I felt some "low self-esteem" in me that I don't feel like meeting people to update my life with them. And the more realistic problem is because of the distance and time taken for the travel. Most of my friends are in Singapore but I stay in JB. Because of all these inner and external issues, I rejected some of my friends' wedding dinner. And I felt real bad for not been able to bless them, witness and celebrate such glorious and memorable moment of their life.

I really wish I can have more quality time, and $$$ to spend with my friends. But really, friendships also need "maintenance". Those closest friends don't need much maintenance, but most friends still need it. You shouldn't be so surprised when someone invents "Friendship Management". In the market, there should have something known as "Relationship Management" already. I think it should have covered that too...

(4). Games!!!
Yeah~! Game is really one of the major element of my life~! One of the easiest way to piss off Wei Lieh, is to tell him straight to his eyes "you shouldn't play game..." !!! I tell you, I'll mark you if you tell me this. Hahaha~~~

In the past whenever I told God, "God, I want to play game." God's response is always the same, He said to me, "you can play game, but provided that you need to know how to control it." The reason why I told God that I want to play game is because at that time, I was much "church-focus", which means I spent a lot of time in church, CG, fellowship and ministries that I had not much time for myself to play game. So I was "hinting" God that, "God, you see? I am so focus in Your Kingdom that I don't have time for myself." God knows me definitely and He is aware of what will happen to me when I started playing game. And that's why He said that to me.

True enough, whenever I started a game, especially Role Playing Game (RPG), I tend to have a deep desire to finish them off at one shot. To finish the game until very end, until I have completed every tasks in the game that it ever provides, and until the credits roll up, and reach the final screen of the two words "The End'... And this means that I will ignore to do many other things, except eat, sleep and bath, and then just to give myself a quality and quantity of time to play game! And I will feel being agitated when I am interrupted while playing game... I guess this is the same as when other big boys watching soccer? Anyways, I am never a big fan of soccer.

One thing I realized in my life is that, actually I will not treat playing some online mini games, puzzle games and board games as "playing game". But rather, I treat those games as "killing my time" event. I.e., when I am stuck in a situation that I can only "wait" due to certain factors, so I have this time of waiting, this time to "kill", I will play those games... To me "playing game" is really to play a RPG game. To me, a RPG is like a story book or a movie , but more than a story book or a movie because of the high interaction points, where I am much involved in the story, it is like I am the main character, going through what the character is going. Playing a RPG to me, is like going onto a brand new adventure~! In a world of fantasy, world of magic and stuff.

In the past few years, I would actually hesitated to start a RPG, or an adventure, because of high commitment, i.e. time and effort to start and finish off this adventure. I wanted to change that. So I thought of doing other things first before I start a brand new RPG. And I will put "I want to play (RPG) game" as my core motivation to finish off all the other stuff that I have been accumulated, you know, so that I can have my quality time for my big adventure! Haha...

Sigh, but things are not going so smoothly as I planned. Whenever I tried to do something, problems will arise... resulting in frustration and stuff. When all in my mind is as clear as my core motivation, - "finish all these things then I can start a RPG, and have my new beginning." I was angry... when I tried to solve a CCTV problems, more problems pop up! When I touch computers, computers can spoil out of no where! Then I couldn't help to have a revelation that: "I cannot touch IT stuff", or "I am not fated with IT stuff"! But from another point of view, I am also considering to take up an IT course, because all those problems appears to me as "calling" or "sign and wonder"! Haha...

Because of all those frustrating issue, I tried to cool myself down by watch DVDs... And that's the time I watched a Final Fantasy XII DVD, a compilation of the game, Final Fantasy XII by Square Enix. I knew that I will not have the quality time to play this game in near future, so I thought of buying the DVD to watch and to know the story first before I can find the time to let me enjoy this game. But I was wrong.... After watching the DVD, I AM SO MUCH INSPIRED by it that I am so eager to start playing the game! After certain periods of "struggling" between "to play, or not to play", the desire prevails the problem solving... Yes, finally, after 2 years of its debut, I started playing my long waited favorite RPG, Final Fantasy XII~! I forego my previous plan of finishing other stuffs first before I start my new adventures!

Oops... you may think that I am not a determined person who gives up easily. Or you may think that I don't have much patience. Well let me assure you with this, I am one of the most determined person you can ever meet and I am definitely one of your top 10 most patience guy you can ever know as a friend~! ;) Haha...

Because of the "one thousand and one thing" to-do-list, with the "out of nowhere"-cum-"pattern-liao-liao" problems, also having a great desire to play the game, I finally come into a conclusion or revelation that my life being a Shaoyeah, still stands firmly! I am not suitable to fix stuff like IT, accomplishing tasks, solving problems, because they will "multiply" and multiply "rapidly"! But what a typical Shaoyeah can do, is to enjoy life, enjoy everything that he enjoys, as for my case, playing game! Fair enough, true enough, as I turn on my long rested Playstation2 (PS2), it doesn't go haywire, except that it is a little slow. This is a conflict as my previous stand of "not fated with IT stuff"! Haha...

I am not sure about you if you are in my situation... Come on... when you try to do something great, try to do solve some problems, but the issues do not resolve in an expected manner, and to add, more problems ensue from that directly and indirectly. Then, as you do the things you love and the things you always want to enjoy, it goes PERFECTLY alright. What will you do? What's your decision? What will you choose to do? Will you carry on dwelling with problems or jump out of them and do things that tend to go smoothly with the bonus that you actually enjoy doing that? Do I get some same thoughts as mine? Or do I get some surprising answer as "I will continue to solve those problems and forego my leisure and entertainment"? Truly, if you have the attitude of carry on solving problems, you are the person that I will want to meet in my life with top priority! So please come and meet me and solve all my problems~! Thankz alot ya!

Aiya... actually my original intention is to telling off all the 9 Liehs. But can only end at No.4, Game. Because there are really got a lot to tell man... Haha... Anyway, shall continue again. Read on~! Shall update real soon... heh heh...

Lieh not Enough~! 烈不够用~！(Part 1)

2008-06-06T11:06:00.002+08:00

Main Label: I, Me & Myself

"Oh no... Lieh not enough le... Everybody wants a piece of Lieh! I wish for 8 more Liehs: (1) One for God, (2) One for family, (3) One for friends (and maybe one more for more friends!), (4) One for games! (5) One for gym and be handsome, (6) One to do Great things! (7) One to do all other little things, (8) One to enjoy every beautiful things in the world, (9) And last one just for simply doing nothing! ... ... ... Ok, reserve for girl friend lah!"
Lieh

Yup, that's how I get my blog title, "Lieh-Not-Enough". It is just another way to show my commitments in life. Jesus said this: "For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also." (Matthew 6:21) These are the my treasures on earth and are always in my heart...

I once told God, "God, why don't you clone me into 8? Isn't it nice to have more of me? That I can do many more things, like serving you and loving you, etc.?" Then, I felt God's reply, and of humorous kind, He said:"Hmmm... if I clone you into 8 pieces, then the 8 of you will certainly come together to setup a LAN (Local Area Network) and then start playing multi-player RPG (Role Playing Game)!" Well... that's my God. :)

At times, I really cannot understand life, I mean as a human being living a life... There is so much things to take care of! From your very own family to friends, career, physical health, enjoyment, psychological and spiritual well-beings, etc. Then in your circumstances, i.e. the place you live and the surrounding places, of which in the end that defines the whole world, and if you would like to hold the link to further distance, there's an universe out there. The world has government, law, politics, religions, bu$ine$, economic, astronomy, sports, culture, languages etc. And forgetting not there's history, science, geography, arts, literature, etc. Simply too many things that I can ever think of.

But as only one human being, how can I live a perfect life? How about knowing everything? I was thinking, it can take whole lot of effort to "take care of yourself" already, but there's more to do! What do I mean by "take care of yourself"? Another words are "live healthily", to take care of your human body, from top to below, from hair to toe. Every part of our bodies are unique and therefore requires differentiated focus. I already cannot handle much. And I am still thinking of how to have a good diet habit so that I am healthier? To make the matter worse (or more challenging), the global warming has resulted in great impact. Humans are getting weaker and weaker. Diseases that we thought only old folks will get it, is now approaching the younger generations. Sometimes, because of DNA and stuff, your physical weakness will pass down to your lovely babies! Yes, there are babies born with certain sickness because of their fathers! That's so sad. That's only the physical part of human body. Another great piece of human, is the "mind" part you know? Your mindset is also very important, if you don't have a healthy mind, you will do crazy things. However if you have an open mind, you will probably do wondrous or incredible things! Until now, I am only talking about oneself.

Other than yourself, there's people around you, environment you live in, doing the things you love i.e. hobbies, having a job, earning salary and climbing the career stairs, etc. But we as only one person, what is the focus? or what are the focuses? In most cases, the majority will end up focusing on job or career of their lives. Why? Simply because there's $$$ factor involvement. In my Church, one of the main sermons is about "giving tithe & offering". Pastor Kong always says that "money = life" (I forgot the exact phrase he uses). And he will quote an example from working and earning salary. For example, if you work $10 per hour, and you work 8 hours per day. That 8 hours of your life is worth $80. Something like that.

I find it very true. Since young, I was thinking:

When you are working, you are earning money; when you are not working, then you are spending money.
做工的时候是在赚钱；没做工的时候是在花钱。

When we work, we get paid by timely basis or agreements. But the moment we are not working, i.e. after work, before work, on MC, on leave, and not to even mention unemployed, we are spending money... Transportation, electricity, water, eating, living, playing, communication, etc. One thing you can thank God of, is the air you breath is free of charge (as of until now)! Ok, time has changed, there are methods to earn money without you to spend time to work on it; there are ways to earn extra income, if not, to lose some money via investment and stuff, but that's not the focus now. So in everybody's life, money always matters though money is not everything in life. The classic saying still stands:

有钱不是万能的，但是没钱却是万万不能的！

In translation, it means that "money is not almighty, but definitely cannot be penniless!" Director Jack Neo (梁志强导演) has this movie called “钱不够用” (Money not enough) that was a big hit of the time because I think that it really speaks the heart of many souls, that money is not enough, and money is never enough!

Other than "money not enough", another crucial element that human always in lack of, is time! I find it interesting also, all of us are given 24 hours a day, and this appears to be a very fair allocation. However, why there're people who always appear to be so free at the same time there're people who are so busy? Well of course, many other factors come in. Because people are in search of the wisdom of timing, there ensued "time management" in the world. But after that, "effort management" came in, and then there are many "managementsss" also exists. It is just like, first there's only IQ (intelligent quotient), then came out EQ (emotional quotient). And after that, there are many 'Q'sss!

Come back to "time"... Sometimes I feel that I will get irritated by the saying "I'm bored", "I'm so boring". To me, there are always something that I can do, something that I can improve on. There is always a book for me to read... ... ... Eh... not enough. Let me rephrase: There are always books waiting for me to read, games waiting for me to play, a research topic for me to start on, a gadget to explore, movies or TVs shows or dramas to watch, musics to listen to, concerts to attend, skills to acquire, lessons / courses to take, friends to meet, muscles to develop, Bible verses to memorize, new vocab to learn, stories and articles to write, Birthday cards to make, things to arrange???, adventures awaiting, people to take care of, own body to take care also, understanding more about one person, get a girl friend (oops), events to plan and execute, shoppings and going places, etc. etc. There are simply too many things in the world and in life that one should never get bored with! How can people still say "I am boring"??? Haha... I know I am very bad / naughty regarding this lah... But the true is, people are not in lack of actions (i.e. things to do), but lack of desires... i.e. the purpose, the motivation of doing certain things. I think I've heard one saying, "is not no action, but no motivation". "Boring(ness)" is not lack of actions, but can be lack of "energy", i.e. you are physically tired when your mind is still pretty awake, or lack of "desire", i.e. you are mentally or emotionally weary when you just wake up in the morning after 9 hours of sleep!

Oops... Haven't really talk about my "Lieh-Not-Enough" yet. I guess I was just drawing the frames and background of my main topic, main juice... Haha... Anyways, Lieh-Not-Enough is a way to show my commitments in life and a reflection of me as another ordinary human, also having "time not enough", "money not enough", energy / effort not enough, love not enough, happiness not enough, etc. But only 1 thing is ever enough... ... ... Ok, 2 things. One is problem. I had enough problems! That's for sure. Another thing is enough. Because "enough is enough"! Haha... Don't understand? Nevermind, never let it in your mind.

Aijo... typed so long already... still got a lot more to write leh... But shall reserve it next time ba... Otherwise gonna be absolutely long and lengthy.

Lasam Lieh

2008-05-27T09:23:00.012+08:00

Main Label: I, Me & Myself

05 Sing (Your Love).m4a

05 Sing (Your Love).wma

Sing (Your Love)
It used to be darkness, without You.
I lived my life in blindness, but now I’m found.
Found me in weakness, broken.
You came to me in kindness, and now I live.
And I’ll sing, sing. I love You so.
And I’ll Sing, because the world can’t take away Your Love.
I’ll give my life for You Lord, for all You’ve done.

Yes~! Finally... A long-promised blog entry about my name, Lasam (Lieh). As I had mentioned in my first blog that I had promised a girl or 2 to write about this when I ever started to blog. Well, after much time has passed, finally I had fulfilled one of the promises that I ever made~! However, I doubt the girl whom I had made this promise to, will ever read this... :(

This entry is also the first one that I added a picture as the entry's header, and a song (with 2 versions: Mp3 / m4a which can be played with Quicktime, and Windows Media Audio, i.e. wma) with the lyrics written. I feel that it is kind of cool~ to have a picture as a header thing, like the blog headers, like the newspaper headlines thing... And a song that is so relevant with the entry's topic that you can listen to it while you read along! Haha... I will try my best to include a header and a music for some of my blog entries... XD

Okay, let's get started... The meaning of lasam is "trash" in English, 垃圾 in Chinese. It was direct translated from Hokkien dialect "la-sam". I came into this conclusion that my life as a complete "lasam" or trash when I was in Nanyang Polytechnic, taking the Diploma in Digital Media Design. At that time, it was also an "era" of developing "Singlish", where people in Singapore started to speak English with combination of other languages, mainly from lots of Chinese dialects. And every sentence also tends to end with "lah", "leh", "lor", etc. etc. Not long after, "PCK Pte. Ltd.", an icon for Singlish, was debut in the TV... And So I was trying to be "creative" and "unique" to contribute to the Singlish vocabulary mah...

But my "lasam" didn't become an iconic vocab leh... Only my best friend, Ah Fer will keep on mentioning and supporting this name... Haha... Thankz, Fer. Anyway, there are other identical words that people tend to use more often, such as "zha-ba-lang" and "bao-shua-bao-hai" (包山包海 in Hokkien I think) or "Bao-gak-liao"(包到完 Take care of everything). All those words have the meaning that you are doing things or tasks that are not much specialized, miscellaneous stuff that has little meaning. And are often easily neglected and unappreciated. I find this quite true in my life... That I always do lots of miscellaneous, hard-to-categorize stuff... Even the courses that I took in my life were all generalized. What I mean is, the courses have a lot of wide-ranged subjects / modules where we only managed to touch the topics and sub-topics on the surface or superficial means. And we seldom go into much deeper discussion and details. Because the lecturers would expect ourselves to do further research on our own if we are interested about those topics... Haha...

Btw, if you are wondering what is the picture all about. It was a desktop wallpaper that I created while doing my Final Year Project. About my Final Year Project, was another event that reflected my life as a "lasam". Because I was assigned to involve in 2 projects! The first one was a game based on the PCK Pte. Ltd. Sitcom, where the players were “Paparazzi” who shot photos of this family in order to score. I was assigned to create a 3D version of the character, Rosie. So the picture you see was the texture of my cute 3D Rosie.

Ok, come back for my nick... Why then is my life a complete trash? When I was in Secondary School, I was always the ‘A's student. And I was the Drum Major in the school's band. I was some teachers' "favorite student". Everything was so beautiful in my life. But when I came into Poly, it was a complete different things. Probably because of the lifestyle and culture between secondary schools and polytechnics are much different. And that was the time I realized that I wasn't much talented in arts and designs when I was in this design course. It was like a sudden “王子变青蛙”的感觉。("Prince turned into a frog" feeling.) That everything in life becomes incapable and incompetent. All of my results were only on the passing bench, except of those are in theory. I was better in theory stuff also. Therefore, having the mentality that all of my design works are not that good, I started to call myself "Lasam"...

Hey there! I wasn't that negative actually, though I sounded like. But on the contrast, I am very positive one... Being "Lasam" has its own advantages also... My father was in Waste Paper Collection Business, a Recycling Business... Again, what do we collect? Lasam~! Even my home business is about collecting lasam~! My mum used to teased about my father. She said my father "worked in the big trash can"! Haha... So really, this name suits me the best man I tell you. The customers who will buy the waste paper will use them to make into other paper products such as paper plates, toilet rolls, tissue paper, carton boxes, and even the "dead people's currency". Those money that Chinese will burn to the “好兄弟” during the Lunar 7th Months. These are the people who had given those waste paper a brand "new life and new purpose"~! Sometimes, you may find it interesting and surprising... Stuff that seems like no more usage to the mankind, happens to be the key towards restoration of the world's ecosystem. So don't think that "Lasam" has no value hor! Scrap metal has the highest buying values among those recyclable products. But too bad, we ain't touching that... Really, recycling is a good business IMHO, it is like an evergreen industry. It can goes on and on... One cycle is good, but then we got re-cycle! Then lagi better! It is a key to infinity~! Eternity~!

To me, being "Lasam" also reflect one's creativity. Why? It was like "Garang-Guni" who collects and buys at a lower price of those used, unwanted and broken items. And then fix them, or put those good parts together and throw away the broken parts. Finally able to re-use them in a great way or simply sell them away for a small profit. I tell you, it is a brilliant idea. Sometimes, when you are limited in certain areas or aspects, that is the time you are able to come out with brand new idea! Because when everything goes on smoothly, you will not attempt to look for a better ideas or alternate ways. But when things occur in an unusual way, sometimes trigger an end of existing method, that is the time people will think of a new way, or better system.

I had this Studio Project at the end of my first semester of the first year in Digital Media Design. Each student was assigned to an animal for us to study about it. By that it means to do a research about the animal, went to zoo to observe them and record down the observation by means of drawing, sketching and taking down of photos. Then we had to do a report also by drawing and sketching, a full color painting of the animal, a design technique of using only points i.e. these ...................................... . . . . . ... . . . .. . . . . . . . . .... . . . . . . . . .. to illustrate a picture of the animal. Lastly, a 3D model of the animal using any items you can find to assemble the animal. But with one condition, i.e. the items must be in used condition, cannot buy brand new items for it. And this is part that I am stressing about. It was like the idea was to recycle the old, used, unwanted items. Though there were student who cheated by buying new items...

I was assigned to one kind of cat, I forgot the name... Actually, I didn't do well for this studio project. During the presentation, my drawings were being criticized as not up to the standards... this and that... And eventually, I failed that project... I was sad of course. But then not long after, the lecturers started to display some of the best projects on the displaying windows, for the students and of course, visitors to appreciate. To my highest surprise, my 3D model of the cat was being displayed!!! But of course, display as being the best and creative, not of the "Worst Project, Don't Do This in the Future" stuff... Also, it was only the 3D model being displayed and not my those failed and not-up-to-standard drawings. I was very happy then but I was thinking, how ironic... They decided to fail my project, but still, they would display my 3D model. Why not might as well gimme a "just pass" back then? Anyways, this is how I got the idea to link Lasam and creativity together.

One more thing... Though the word "Lasam" doesn't sound nice at times, especially when you know its meaning, the word itself still looks nice! If you look at the picture, it doesn't reflect anything that is "trash" lor... I feel that the word is like a foreign language word... maybe from French, Spanish, etc... especially with the initial is 'L'. With a little symbols may make it looks more like it... such as "La'sam"... Ahaha... Don't you think so? Erm... Haha...

That's much about me, the Lasam Lieh... But until now, you may wonder what is the relationship with the song and Lasam leh? At one of the lowest points in my life, when I thought myself as useless, lasam, totally no value, rejected by the social world, no one in the world would really understand me and not even family members, no close friends, got problem didn't know who to turn to, etc. etc. I felt like I was left alone in an isolated, dark garbage land, with drizzling of rains... That's the time, He found me... But the fact is, we found each other... Who is He? My God and my Jesus of course... God has seen the values in me that everyone in the world has neglected. Because He had created me, He knows me the best, He knows the potential that I possess... When no one in the world will wanna be friend with me and I feel so lonely, Jesus has come and be with me... When I am in the utmost helpless situation where no one in the world can really help me, that's the time I will cry out to God, and to my utmost surprise God will answer me and resolve my problem!

My Jesus... He picked me up from the great garbage land, washed me clean, took away the weaknesses and broken parts of me, and replaced them with something else... That's my God and my Jesus... Through Him, I had revelation of this:

"It is not useless, but depends how you use it!"
“不是没有用，看你怎么用！”
or:
"It is not useless, but it is you don't know how to use!"
“不是没有用，是你不会用！”
Lieh (Before 27/05/2008)

Do you understand the essence of these quotes? I hope this phrase will encourage when you feel that you're being misused or abused, verbally abused and etc. You can tell your boss (if you dare) this phrase of mine~! Haha...

My God knows me the best. He knows the best in me, the best of me, and the best for me. I know that He will reserve all the good things that are the best for me. And of course, He loves me! So really, it is just like this song's lyric... In the beginning, it is darkness and we are blinded over much mindsets and knowledge, thereby creating some weaknesses in us... But there will be time when you are found and then be embraced in the unfailing Love of God that the world can't take away, the abundance of joy that make you sing and dance wholeheartedly, the peace of mind that world has lost theirs...

Yup yup... That's all about it. Finally, a burdened has removed from my heart as I finished writing this... 终于可以放下心中的一块石头了。。。

I, Me & Myself Series -- My Names & Nicknames

2008-05-15T13:32:00.008+08:00

Main Label: I, Me & Myself

Woohoo~~~ Finally, I'm going to start a series of entries that I've called it "I, Me & Myself"! Yes, it is all about me! And me only~! Haha... Am I being self-centered? But wait a minute, isn't blogging all about ourselves? Isn't blogging about write what you wanna write?

In anyways, as usual, I did plan along for this when I have a heart to blog. I had planned that my ever first blog is about a brief introduction of me, and I would like to talk about God first. But somehow my excitement in my first blog has neglected my lovely God, which is why to compensate, the second blog is about God, and ALL about God! (Erm... ok, I did mention about me in the entry lah~!) Then, it will flow to an entry of a "content page", or "bookmark" things (i.e. Blog Labels) to reflect, to outline brief idea of topics that I am going to write. And before I am about to update my life, I will go into a series of blogging about myself, most probably my characteristics or personalities, my likes and dislikes, some interesting facts about me, my value system and stuff. And of course, my nicknamesss!!! And that's what I am about to tell for the time being.

Allow me to assure you this, if you're reading, this series is going to be much interesting, somewhat dramatic. May you enjoy what I am about to write, cos if you're enjoying, then it could mean that you're enjoying having this friendship with whom you've known as Lieh. If there is something perceived as unpleasant to you as you read along, don't need to feel sorry about me, that's my life. :) And people does tell you this: "life has ups and downs" and we are not perfect human, I am no exception neither.

Well, it will be a good idea to start off with my names & nicknames~! Throughout my life, there should have a lot of nicknames given upon me. But I am sorry, I've forgotten most of them, the only one that is in my mind now is "hamburger". This nickname was given by my primary school classmate because that time my face was very round, like a hamburger. I could recalled that this was my very first nickname that I ever had. Hmmm... too bad, I can't recall other names now leh...

Anyways, in my family was another story... My father always called me " 臭人" (smelly boy) when I was young. But sometimes, he called me “小瓜”. Erm... this one how to translate? It is like "Little Thing", haha... yeah, Little Thing... When I asked him why sometimes call me this and that. He said, “你乖的时候就叫你小瓜；你坏蛋就叫你臭人！” Meaning, "when you're obedient, I will call you Little Thing; but when you are being naughty, then I will call you Smelly Boy!" Ahaha... Then my fourth sister was being called “臭丫头”！Erm... it means smelly maid or smelly girl lah. Even until now, when she is trying to be funny, to make father laugh, my father will still smile and 偷笑， and says: “臭丫头！” Haha... My mum calls me “阿弟”(means Ah-Little-Brother) and until now, she still calls me that. My all other sisters simply call me "Ah Lieh".

One thing I realized about people around me is that, some people including me like to give other people nicknames. And I think I am good at it~! (Well, at least I think so...) Haha... From one point, some people just don't like nicknames. But on the other hand, it does add some spices to our life... You know, when you grow older and meet up old friends, it was so interesting to talk about those nicknames that we ever gave to our fellow friends and teachers, and etc.... Hmmm... I wanted to provide some examples of my "successful creations", but well, better not then... Less my friend gonna angry with me~! Haha...

Hey wait, I don't just give people nicknames you know, I give myself as well. :D Throughout the process in Life, people's thoughts, experiences etc change, from one level to another; from one maturity to another maturity; from one childishness to another childishness... Therefore, one nickname isn't enough to tell off all of your life stories, well at least for me one nickname is not enough. Remember my blog name, Lieh-Not-Enough. Hah~!

The list as follows tells the names and nicknames that I want to associated with:-
1. Loh Wei Lieh 罗伟烈.
This is my real name, as in Identification Card, Kad Pengenalan. Oops, is it safe to tell people actual name? Ok, my name does have a little story here. My parents told me that they got this name from newspaper~!!! They said they don't know what name to gimme, but they found this name in Chinese newspaper and found it sounded nice, so they used it on me. Yet not much details were mentioned about the guy who had this name... Ever since then, my negative thoughts always wonder... is the name from a "death notice" thing? Or a murderer? A raper? Thief? Haha... But at least I am not.

2. Adrian, the Creative Mind.
My Christian name, water baptist name. In life, there was a stage there where giving yourself a Christian name is an "in" thing. Or rather also, for "convenience"-"easy-to-remember" purpose. I got this name, Adrian, from one of the famous male models of the time, who actually not so famous after all, cos you will not know who is he now (Actually, I do know where he is lah. He was last seen / known as a personal trainer in California Fitness Centre) The fact is, I had a little admire of him (now no more...) so I decided to use his name as my Christian name. A friend of mine, Ah Fer, commented that the name actually sounded nice. So I decided to use it.

Not along after, I also realized that the name Adrian isn't that unique after all, lots of guys have this name as well. Then, I also found out that the name Adrian, also has the meaning of "Creative Mind". When you go to a Christian gift shop and happen to find those name tags, or key-chains with Christian names on it. It always say "Adrian, the Creative Mind" and follows by a verse:-

"Create in me a clean heart, O God,
And renew a steadfast spirit within me."
Psalm 51:10 (NKJV)

I kind of like the verse as well. So it is okay with me. And one of my greatest values in life is creative also. Then to make thing look "creative", I always write my name, Adrian as "Adrian, the Creative Mind". :D

3. JB Shaoyeah~
I am blessed with a shao-ye, 少爷 life, need more explanation? Guess not. But to add, I am not a very worthy shao-ye, cos my family isn't that rich after all. A Singapore Shao-ye could have worth much than me. Haha... When I was in Polytechnic, my friends have started called me this name, especially Ah Fer. Even until now she still calls me that. To humble myself a little, and to show that I am a not-so-rich shao-ye, I've put the word JB in front. Haha...

Then my "Shaoyeah~" has "ah~" behind one. Once again, this is to differentiate out with all other shao-ye mah. so is Shao Yeah, where Ye and Yeah sound the same. In addition, "Yeah" also has the meaning of "yes" and "yes (agree) happily". You know, "Let's go party~!" "Yeah~!" that kind... But "Ye" simply doesn't have a meaning in English. Wait a minute, is "Yeah" an English word? But anyways, "Ye" also means "leaves" in Chinese. Then Shao-ye also sounded like "扫叶" which means "sweep leaves" in English... I, I don't want to be that kind of shao-ye you know... Yeah~~! So please address me as "JB Shaoyeah~" if you like. Make me merry and I may treat you a meal or a drink. :D I will try my best to treat you expensive one... haha... try lah...

4. Lasam Lieh
Well, a nick I came out myself... People keeps asking me why such a nick until I promised a few to explain this on my blog if I ever started one. For that, I shall reserve this as my next blog entry topic. Yeah~! A "coming soon" thing ya~!

5. Limelight / Limelime / Limelite Lieh
This name is a reflection of another side of me of which I yet to develop. I.e. to be in the Limelight! The definition I got in the dictionary reads:

lime·light
-noun
1. Theather.
a. (formerly) a lighting unit for spotlighting the front of the stage, producing illumination by means of a flame of mixed gases directed at a cylinder of lime and having a special lens for concentrating the light in a strong beam.
b. the light so produced.
c. Chiefly British. a lighting unit, esp. a spotlight.
2. the center of public attention, interest, observation, or notoriety: He seems fond of the limelight.
-Related forms
limelighter, noun.

I always wanted to be the the limelight, to be in the center of attention... But maybe I am too shy with that... Haha... This nickname is sometimes used as User ID to register into websites when I do not wish to reveal my real name. To make it unique, again I tend to change the spelling of "light" into "lite" sometimes, more stylish mah.

Jesus said this:

"You are the light of the world. A city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden."
Matthew 5:14

So if I ever wanna be the light of the world, I pray that it gonna be limelight~! (P/S: an entry of revelation in lights should be made in the future.)

6. Fervent Lieh
This is a name that I wanna use to reflect how "fervent" I am for the Kingdom of God, how much desire I have for the Lord. I used this name to register my multiply.com account. But this is not the center of focus for the time being lah... I was once inspired by the word Care-a-lot, a place where Care Bears live (I guess), and came out a name call "Pray-a-lot" for myself in order to encourage me to pray a lot. But... well... ... ... Anyways, If you wanna encourage yourself to pray a lot, maybe you can name yourself "Pray-a-lot"~! Haha... Another name I can think of, which is also much biblical is "Pray-Without-Ceasing" (1 Thessalonians 5:17). This name is definitely much troublesome to pronounce, but also definitely a much hard word for the hard believers~!

7. Lieh Not Enough! 烈不够用！
This is one of the latest nick that I came out for myself. And I've used it for the name of this blog site as you have known. Yeah~! A lot more stories regarding this... So shall reserve for future entries... Yes, I mean entries (take note, it is in plural).

8. All other names of my favorite people: Abraham, Melchizedek, Legolas, Harry Potter~!
These are the names that I prefer because they are originated from real people and real-fictional people... Abraham, quite a fatherly name actually, so not suitable for me now.

Melchizedek, a person that I love one of the most in the Bible, other than Jesus. Well then, it is said that Melchizedek was a "picture of Christ" in the Old Testament. There is a little story about this name also... There were once I was thinking about my calling, whether to be a king (i.e. focus in business) or a priest (i.e. focus in Church stuff)... And this person, Melchizedek was in my mind. I was thinking whether should I be like him, to be the king and priest together, or should I be just focus on one? Because I did learned that King Saul was trying to be both and God wasn't happy about it... Then this was also the time when Pastor Kong (I am not sure about which Pastor, but I think should be Pastor Kong... If not then Pastor Tan) preached about it~! To add, Pastor did not just stop by both, he added a "Prophet" to it~! Yeah~! 3 in a role. We have to be King-cum-Priest-cum-Prophet of the world~! Amen~! So since then, I had loved Melchizedek more than before.

As for Legolas... Well, some people said that I look like Orlando Bloom, *blush*... Okay, that's when I was much slimmer (and I will be in the future). I preferred Legolas instead of Orlando Bloom is because the initial of Legolas is also L, of which is the same as my name Lieh. You know, people like authors always give their characters' names the same initials, such as Peter Pan, Peter Parker (Spideyman), Peter Petrelli (Heroes' main male character), Wonder Woman, etc. (And superheroes likes to be known as Peter~! Okay, this is another story.) So then, I can get a link to the name like Legolas Lieh, Legolas Limelite, etc and etc, with all the L & L...

Yeah, I don't mind people call me Harry Potter also... Haha... So 不要脸, right?! Haha... When I am slim, I am Legolas. When my face got round, then call me Harry Potter~! Haha...

That's all, folks. Oops... another long entry man, if you're reading, thankz~!

Blog Labels -- Categorisation of Blog Entries

2008-05-08T11:11:00.001+08:00

Main Label: Blog Labels

I always wanted to categorize all the entries that I ever write, I know it. Somehow in my life, I simply love to categorize... It's quite funny, I cannot stand untidiness though untidiness always stay in my life... and my room. Hahaha... I simply cannot see things stay uncategorized, and this is the reason why I came out an idea I called it the "Major Arrangement Plan" (MAP). Well, shall talk about it more regarding this MAP and categorization...

But as for now I want to use this entry to show all the possible categories (or labels) and sub-categories of all the blog entries that I ever write... One thing I'd realized in Blogspot, it doesn't provide such feature as "sub-labels" or sub-categories...

This entry also functions like a "content page", whereby at a glance of the list, you should be able to have an rough idea or a vision of what this blog is all about. It also serves as a "bookmark" to all the labels. And most importantly, I will provide some interesting explanations in regards of all the labels.

Ok, now here's the list:-

1. I, me & myself

· All about myself.

2. Life Update

· Some of my personal life updates, may bore you out if you’re reading. Lol.

· Sub-Category: Grumpy Complaints!!!

3. A Journey Back to the Past

· I really wanted to blog down all my interesting and remarkable past experiences… Those had been in my mind, and since time passes quickly without my conscious notice, there are a lot for me to “catch up” with the past. Hmmm… Maybe I am so afraid that one day I will forget all of them. By then, I will feel insecure and sad.

· While “Life Update” is keeping forward with my life, this label keeps a look out for my past.

4. Somewhat Dramatic Life

· Record of my entire interesting story in life, I will try to make it as truthful as possible, without much exaggeration. Well, to tell you the truth, I don’t need to exaggerate it man!

5. God & Spirituality

· God again…

· My thoughts & feelings towards God, Spirituality, faith & belief, religions.

· (Somewhat) divine revelations and perspective about spiritual "truths".

· The battling of my mind and my spiritual warfare.

· God-Inspired article.

· Sub-Categories: In Search of the Glorious Truth, Christianity, Revelation (Sharing), Bible Verses.

6. Beautiful People

· I want to appreciate people who have come into my life and stay in my heart by writing blogs about them. This is like a “testimonial” thing. Such beautiful people are my family members, friends, remarkable / great / famous people, or even angels and aliens (if any, lol)

· Sub-Categories: Family, Friends, Great People.

7. Beautiful Mind

· Your mind determines the boundaries of your world. A beautiful mind sees a beautiful world. A beautiful mind I can teach, allow me to share with you all my theories and philosophies about life.

· Sub-Categories: Quote of the Day, Revelation Sharing (this is the same as in the God & Spirituality), Parables – both from external source and myself, Lieh Theory & Philosophy, Value System, Mahjong For Life (yes, I can use the game Mahjong to relate lots of situation in life that you ever encounter.)

8. Every Beautiful Thing

· A record and review of all the things that I ever loved and had touched me greatly, with impacts in my life.

· Sub-Categories: Beautiful Story, Fantastic Game, Inspirational Movie, Fabulous Music, Mind-Stirring Books, Unforgettable Place.

9. A Place I Call Home

· The places where I ever live.

· Sub-Categories: Malaysia, Singapore, Johor Bahru (JB)

10. Story Brainstorming & Story Telling

· God-&-I inspired story telling and brainstorming. This should be something very “raw”, which means some of it doesn’t make sense and it needs further development.

11. Language

· I always have struggle in deciding should I use English or Chinese in my blog. When I write in English, I can type faster… The “flow” does still exist. 但是如果我用华语呢，会给人一种比较“亲切”的感觉。也比较“感性”。Though I use English, it is also sentimental lah… 但是写华语很麻烦，会很慢。。。

· Sub-Categories: English Blog, Chinese Blog, Bilingual Blog.

12. Dictionary / Vocabulary

· I will come out a blog entry mainly to keep the words that I’d check for dictionary for the meaning, not just to understand the definition but also for the use to explain stuff.

13. Miscellaneous & Uncategorized

· Entries that I haven’t found a label yet.

By now you should have realized that I'd plan a lot for me to blog. And I am real serious about it man! Aiya, write until don't know what to write already, shall stop then. :)

P/S: This entry is long because of the wasteful spacing between the long listing which I don't know how to get rid of...

Setting Up My Blog Sites

2008-05-01T22:02:00.012+08:00

Main Label: Life Update

Ai... It was a tough time for me to set up a blog site that is really different and unique from others. The whole process was much tiring and difficult, and yet at the same time, resourceful and inspiring.

At first, I thought of exploring other blog sites other than blogspot. And I eventually signed up with another blog site. It was a good one though, I especially love the "Page" feature that it offers. I started exploring and experimenting with the blog site only to realize that it does not support JAVA script, and according to them, this is due to security purpose. Okay nevermind. Then I tried with the Tag Box thing which it provides with a third party. But I had problem logging in and registering with the service. I was a little frustrated by that. And I was thinking, "nevermind, I still have the comments feature. I can afford to forgo this Tag Box thing."

And then, I had difficulties in putting music... Arghhhh... Okay, nevermind lor. Then, I started exploring with the HTML, only to realize that I can edit, I can preview, but in order to save my edition, I get to pay for the service~! Oh, my mind was thinking... "so you're letting me to edit HTML for fun is it? To itch my desire ar?" Well, not that I'm being stingy / cheapskate, it is just not for me to pay for a blog site now. I will consider paying for the service provider if the blog site has met all the requirements that I want. But it is just not now for me, being a blog beginner / novice, to start paying for my blog site. Maybe later. But actually, the price isn't that shocking though...

In the end, after much struggles and considerations, I finally turned back to blogspot. At first, I was spending much time in experimenting with the music. Not just because I had problem with the technical codes and stuff, I also had difficulty in choosing a background music when there are so many wonderful musics that I have loved~! Haha... To support my experiments, I also registered with box.net and imeem.com. After a long time of experimenting and considering, in the end I had settled down with a youtube video, featuring a song from my recent favorite movie, Love of Siam. So this video functions as my background music as well...

In the process of exploring blog, I had learned some terms, such as CSS, widgets... Wow, it is like a total "start from scratch" for me man. I was so tired every time I explored on these new topics. And for once, I was so tempted to get a course to learn about HTML! But for a little while only... haha... because that's the time I thought that I can use Dreamweaver to do my blog page design. And I do believe that it has HTML provided. There are a lot for me to learn about Dreamweaver (not been using it for years) and HTML. I've decided to put this learning into my To-Do-List.

At one point, I was at a total lost. When I examined myself, I realized that the problem was I did't have a vision or an idea about how my blog site should look like exactly. Without a vision, how can I visualize the work I am going to do? Then I thought that I should have an idea much earlier ago, when I first started my blog? Then that's the moment I realized that the time had past so long that eventually those designs in my head had gone already~! Haha... Sigh... So I was having a time to brainstorming how my blog should look like. Again, I wanted to have a super duper unique site that no one has ever thought of. But I was limited by my IT ability and the time I had spent until now had been more than a week le... I was so tired already.

In conclusion, I decided to settle down with a simple template and then start putting some fancy header ba. After that, I registered with cbox.ws to obtain my tagboard~! Smooth process~! Amen~! And then obtained the Beijing Olympic Countdown Clock from Clocklink.com. Smooth process again~! Praise God~!

Near-finally, it's time to do the header! In the midst of creating the header, was another troublesome story... Sigh... I started with using my laptop and realized that it was so much slower, I was so frustrated until I came out my usual quote regarding my laptop:-

"I thought I am busy until I saw my laptop..."

Well, do you understand the essence of this quote? My laptop was always in busy mode~~~! So I thought of using my desktop. But before using it, I decided to reformat & reinstall the whole thing because the desktop has been in "spoiling" mode for some times already. Therefore, I committed some time to reinstall everything into my desktop. In the process, my video card was giving me problems again. I HAD TO REINSTALL AGAIN. Can you feel the pains of my experience? Well, that's my life. :)

So I reinstalled again, and this time definitely not using the video card anymore. Okay, Thank-God-ly, this time was smooth and I managed to install everything I needed. Whew... A Hallelujah~! Then I started my header design. I always wanted a neon effect. I remembered I did a Birthday card for Ben, my CG member, with the neon effect. It was so beautiful that I almost wanted to make another one for myself~!

But somehow the one that I did, which is the current one, is not up to my expectation. It was still a nice one, but I believe I can further improve on it. But because of the time spent, I then decided to settle this header for now. And will improve on this in the future.

Enough is Enough; Do you have enough?
Everything is NOT Everything; Do you know everything?

Can you understand the essence of the quote? I can't... frankly. It just occurred to me and it sounded "solid", "dynamic" with a bit of "arrogant", and with an "eye-catching", in fact is "mind-catching" effect. To me this phrase will make you think, and think hard. But maybe in the end, you can think of nothing~! Haha... And I do hope that because of this, the header can withstand its "freshness" for a long time. In fact, I do able to explain this quote of mine, but maybe not in perfect understanding... Nevertheless, I will not explain this here and now. Want to let you ponder some more first mah... Haha... :D

I will KIV (Keep in view) for the things that I wanna improve on, such as the header (maybe use Flash to create an animated one), include Counter, improve on the template / design. But as for now, that's it. What you see is what you get. :)

Dear God

2008-05-01T11:30:00.013+08:00

Main Label: God & Spirituality

We love Him because He first loved us.
1 John 4:19

Dear God,
I love you. Thank you for giving me life and soul, the ability to think with wisdom, the ability to feel all the wonderful emotions, and the beautiful mind to see this world with love and hope. Forgetting not, the love for God, the love for Life and the love for every beautiful thing. I really appreciate my life as being "Wei Lieh". :D

I was hesitated to blog for some periods because I realized that my first blog did not mention much about You. Only say "I love You" at the end of the blog... I had a little shame about "not PGF" even in my blog. PGF, an acronym for "Put God First" that I've made up for myself. I know that You won't mind about this, but this is just a way to show my respect to You. However, right here and right now, I am dedicating my second blog to You. Ahaha...

Hmmm... talking about God huh... It got so much to say also. God, Jesus, Holy Spirit; God, the Divine Being; God, my closest friend in heart,... and many other more... My Dear God, I know that all the while You've been drawing me near to You ever since when I was young... When I was in primary 3, you inspired me to ask these questions: "Who created this world?" "What would it be like when the world is/has nothing?" Then when I was in secondary school, You lead me to person who answered part of my query and ignited my desire to know You from a Christian close friend whom also brought me to his neighborhood church. Then when I was in Polytechnic, though I did not attend church services, You still resolved my problem miraculously when I cried out to you without a voice in my mouth. Then in University (MDIS), You again used another Christian friend of mine (from my secondary school) to invite me to Church, and that's City Harvest Church. In this Church, I really learned a lot about You, Jesus, Love and many other things. This is the moment where I get to learn to hear from You, and having so many spiritual encounters with You. My knowledge and faith in You have grown much. I really love this Church~! That place really marks significant chapters in my life.

After 2 years or so, when I graduated and this was the time when my father asked me to go back to Malaysia to help him in his business. Although it was him who had initiated, I know that You also asked me to go back. In a vision, I was like stopped ang kneed down at a junction where there were 2 routes ahead, one pointing JB while the other Singapore, refusing to go on, and I was telling You, "God, but there are still so many things to do here, so many things that I can contribute to You." And then I just felt Jesus smiled at me and said:"That's enough. Let's do something else..." Somehow, I was really convinced by such words. And here I am, came back to JB for 2 years and 4 months already...

Serving God became much more difficult and inconvenience, I almost struggle every Sunday for me to go to Singapore Expo. But, You never stop making things easy for me. One year ago, You lead me to this book call "Conversation with God" by Neale Donald Walsch. My life had an almost 180 Degree turned.

There are people whom by attending seminars, services, reading a book, or watching a movie etc, change their life totally... They always say "it changed my life" and then cry... All the while, I have been looking for such thing to change my life... I was looking for a book that can change my life; I was watching movies in search of the inspiring concept; I was attending those so-called life changing seminars, attending service in the hope that the sermons will hit me with great impact... Those were great moment, really. But those were not bullseye that hit me with the right spot, right hot button. And then, I thought Jesus can, yes all the while I thought my beloved Jesus can, and He does, but still... All the while, I thought my beloved Holy Bible can, and the book does, yet again... Then You lead me into this book, I could still remember when I first started reading it, it was my Birthday. Again, are You trying to hint me something? Is this a present from You? Hah! This book IS the life changing element for me! Yes, it changed my life, just like the book says, it will change my life... And that leads to my current life situation...

No longer I... No longer I am so fervent for Jesus and church services. I pray and worship less, but I do still talk to Jesus... Difficulties and inconveniences are something, but this change of faith, change in my belief system, has done a great deal in hesitating me to attend church services. Every Sunday when I go to the service, it always have a difficult price to pay, every time I was like dragging myself to service. It really uncomfortable and my hearts always feel painful. I wanted to leave, like many other so-called "backsliders" do, to simply go MIA and never come back... But somehow I can't... I've love much that I am not willing to let go... Eventhough "I don't believe Christianity anymore", I still love this Church, the people and most importantly, the Presence of God here! God, why, God? Why is this happening to me? Why can't we settle for a simple life? Why you have to ring such a bell in my heart?

However, regardless of all these "battling of the mind" or the Christian faith's so-called "spiritual warfare", I still do enjoy life. I still do. "Enjoy life" does not necessary mean doing the things I love, having vacation everyday, living a stress-free life, simply doing nothing and letting myself rot. But to me it means to love every beautiful thing, to love every life and their story, to have passion and compassion, to shed tears for the things that have touched me greatly, to love the "feelings of love", to laugh really all out loud for the least or the most funniest and craziest things, to love and be loved, to serve and be served. Somehow, in my heart, I am contented. I know that I have loves and is being loved. And this is always the motivation of my life. When life gets much problems, troubles, disappointments, discouraged, etc., I get no strength to carry on. However, when I think about You and the every beautiful thing that I have come across with in my life, I know that I get refreshed and renewed in my heart to go on with life, to do the things that I really wanna do in my life.

Dear God, I have to say this... Only you are able, able to make me always look at the bright side of the hill; able to know my thoughts before I even think about it; able to encourage me with the right attitude and effective ways that within a second, I can still laugh at my situation, giving me a peace of mind, the wisdom, the courage and a heart that hopes all thing, in order for me to carry on doing the things I wanna do in my life. Only you are able to understand me, handle me, and knows what is best for me. You've known me inside out, outside in. You know every feelings that I treasure, my value system in life, my desires. And to me most importantly, You know how to make me work! Haha... most people don't, they simply command me, hoping I will do something, thinking that I should do this, should do that... But You know that those can't even make me move... Ahaha... Indeed God, I am ... ... ... mesmerized (I'm not sure whether this is a good word to use here) by You always... Amazed by the wonders of You, admire at Your beauty, dwell happily in the concept people call it "in-love". And I'm in love with You.

God, You have successfully entered my entire life. I wanna appreciate You by saying once again, "God, thank You and I love You... Please gimme a life partner..." Ahahahahahahaha... no lah, "Dear God, I thank You to be with me always, to allow me to be the person I want to be, to do the things that I want to do in my life. God, I love You from the fullness of my heart, the deepest of my desire and with much loves that cannot be expressed with words. Also with the loves that I have loved until I don't know how to love anymore I am saying this to You." *muak*

My First Blog!!!

2008-01-31T10:36:00.004+08:00

Main Label: Life Update

Haha... This is going to be my first blog of my life ever! Am very excited about it!

Well, all the while I had been thinking about writing blogsss. It had been years, hmmm... guess is about 3 to 4 years already??? My friends around me had been encouraging for me to start blogging. Well, at last, Here I am... haha... still very excited!

So what makes me finally make a move?? Hmmm... There is a theory behind every decision made, you know? At least it is a theory that I came out with. Shall explain the theory in near future. But here is what I am gonna say in short:

Jesus said this:

"... For out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks."
atthew 12:34 (NKJV)

But here is what I will say after my revelation of the verse:

"Out of the fullness of the (your) desire the (your) action speaks!"

So, I guessed it cos of my desire for blogging has reached its explosive stage! Haha... The trigger point (which I mean is the point that I actually take action) is where:

I realised my life really got a lot of stories to tell, especially recently...
While I shared this with a girl, GJH, who is from my Singapore CG, encouraged me again. She even said that no matter how much / long that I am going to write, she will READ THEM ALL! I am so touched and inspired to blog once again! So JH, please read them all! Haha...

Yes, by now you should realise that I had written a lot, if you had not given up reading until now. I thank you for reading. In nature, I don't talk much with family & friends. But when it comes to writing, I somehow manage to get the flow, and words & sentences & paragraph simply fall into places... Maybe, maybe I do have a talent in writings. I remembered while I was in secondary school, one of my English composition was read out in class; one Chinese essay was published in school newsletter.

But the most remarkable one, is an introduction article that I wrote for my Design & Technology folio. The topic was about food, sushi. I had to write a short article about this topic at the beginning of the folio, so I started my folio with this article first. I remembered that after I'd written it, I read it again, I some how got this "eagerness", or a sense of "urgency" to carry on reading the folio, of which I had not started yet! I asked my sister to read and she agreed with it (though I did not sure whether it was a truthfully replied or not). So I believed that I've created a very successful introduction! Haha... This was one of the little achievements I've made in my life...

Hmmm... come back about blogging... Really, this is a space that I will keep a record of:

My interesting experience and encounters in life, though not of those aliens & eerie type one lah, at least not now...
My thoughts & feelings, and my philosophy of life
(Somewhat) divine revelations and perspective about spiritual "truths"
My creative-cum-very-own-ideas about story telling & creative writings
Many more, etc.!

Ok! At last, shall stop here. Chinese New Year is coming! Gotta make myself busy in Spring Cleaning ya! Shall blog more again, probably after Chinese New Year. Promised a lady, or 2 (I forgot) that I am going to write an article about my nickname, Lasam, when I start to blog; Oh and this... ... ... and that... ... ... Wow... really got a lot to blog man! But, that's it for now. :)

God, I love You! *muak!*