A Long Waited Update But Hope that it is Not So Long Entry

Main Label: Life Updates

~ An Unusual Being ~

Woohoo~! Finally got myself a little time to do a long waited update... And oops again... The whole of May I didn't blog!!! Sigh... I am overly committed with much stuff in my life... But today I am somewhat so exited! This morning woke up just "fresh" and full of energy even though I slept about 2am last night! Well... there's something about me that I always wanted to tell people... that I really have an unusual, funny thoughts mechanism, or behavioral mechanism that is totally opposite from the usual way... Like, in this case, if people lack of sleep, they tend to appear low energy and stuff... But for me now, I am way too excited and energitic that I don't even know what's going on with me... I remembered PeiO, my 女神... she is of similar to me in this case... If she lacks of sleep, she is like a crazy woman! Haha... energitic, lots of crappy words coming out from her... Well... I am kind of like that now too... Ahaha... And that just gimme the energy, the "courage" to do some blogging now... Ahaha...

~ Drama Mama Lieh ~
Again... Too much stuff and events and stories happened in between my last blog... Really again... it is like I just can't cope up by blogging those stories down... My life is changing from "somewhat dramatic" to "really dramatic" now... And the episodes just keep on adding on and on, there's no playback! No rewind! I wanted to write down a dynamic episode, but the next moment, another dynamic event occurred! Ahhh... too much stories to tell... too little time to jog them down...

~ Emo Elmo Lieh ~
There was this time, I was really down and "Emo Elmo"... I browsed photos in my hand phone memories... those pictures was like "come to life" to me... every picture brought me back to the moment that how I wished I could go back time and dwell at that moment again... And that's the time, I realized... memory is very important to me... Technology are so advanced that you can capture all kinds of memories via photo-taking, video-recording, voice-recording, blogging down and stuff... But technology hasn't been so advanced yet that it can bring you back to the moment... Aigh... maybe it is for the good...

~ Shanghai Trip Updates??? ~
I wanted to blog down, to record down my trip to Shanghai, a moment of great experience & relax & etc. etc. But... guess nope... at least is not now... I hope I can still remember all the stuff that I had learned during the 9 days trip... Well again... a lot of things happened during the trip... It is indeed "happening"! Other than site-seeing, shopping, enjoy delicious food, buying & spending, feeling cheated by buying those stuff, relaxing and stuff... Our group also had "internal problems"... I am quite amazed by myself, about my ability to analyze, to understand people within a very short period of time! Well... somehow I think I am getting better in doing tims... Aw... my mind now is generating lots of possibility now... About how I can use such talent to change the world... for better of course... but... aigh... My God, my God arh...

~ Got My First Ever Principal Credit Card ~
Yeah~! Finally I had gotten a principal credit card for myself~! Yeah~! I myself didn't apply for it... The Maybank decided to gimme one because of certain criteria of which... I forgot! Ahaha... To think that last time I was trying to apply Eon Bank credit card but was rejected! Hmmmp! But this time round, I received a call from Maybank KL when I was at home... The lady on phone informed me about this credit card... As usual, I was skeptical about the call... afterall, phone-call cheating is very common... But then it is not a cheating phone-call afterall! The lady told me there's no "terms and condition apply", no minimum usage required, I am free to use whenever Iwant or Ican choose not to use it at all. And there's no annual fees stuff too! But... who knows what will happen in the future?!

Nevertheless... I am grateful for a credit card like that too... I always wanted my own credit card, and to be indepentant from my lovely dad. It is definitely good to have a supplement card from daddy... but he was complaining about not returning him the $$$! Ahaha...

~ New Lappy?! Definitely! ~
Now with my credit card... erm... 2 credit cards! I am planning to buy a laptop! Sony Vaio! Seires FW something... Now waiting for a PC Fair or something... Yeah~! Buy via instalment! Hallelujah~!

~ New Way of Blogging?! ~
Well... until now you may have noticed... my different style of blogging... I wanted to try new style of blogging too... My previous way was way too meticulous, although that's me. Yet still... it is time consuming and I am always looking for a quiet time for me to write down a very detailed entry, and of which, such time is very difficult to get... So I am writing more stories... like a summary, by minimizing those little details, and of which, are still very important to me though...

Another reason for blogging in this manner is because... well... you know... I am now very excited & energitic due to lack of sleep (LOS)... so I didn't care much and "just do it" lor...

Yes! This style of blogging is extremely disorganized and messy and raw and blah blah... But... that's what blogging is all about... Your style, your mood, your attitude, your literature, etc... all blended in, or mixed into your blog entry... Don't have to make any sense sometimes, because there are times it is not the stories, or "what is going on?" that words are trying to capture, but the "emo", "feelings", "memory" that words are trying to capture, you know what I mean? Cos I am now really can't be bothered about how people reading this entry, I am aware that it can be misleading... but... still... I am "just do(ing) it"! Ahaha...

Going to do some work now... I wish I can blog more and more and more! Do more and more and more! Life is not boring to me, but life is too busy for me! XP

Lieh not Enough~! 烈不够用~！(Part 1)

Main Label: I, Me & Myself

"Oh no... Lieh not enough le... Everybody wants a piece of Lieh! I wish for 8 more Liehs: (1) One for God, (2) One for family, (3) One for friends (and maybe one more for more friends!), (4) One for games! (5) One for gym and be handsome, (6) One to do Great things! (7) One to do all other little things, (8) One to enjoy every beautiful things in the world, (9) And last one just for simply doing nothing! ... ... ... Ok, reserve for girl friend lah!"

Lieh

Yup, that's how I get my blog title, "Lieh-Not-Enough". It is just another way to show my commitments in life. Jesus said this: "For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also." (Matthew 6:21) These are the my treasures on earth and are always in my heart...

I once told God, "God, why don't you clone me into 8? Isn't it nice to have more of me? That I can do many more things, like serving you and loving you, etc.?" Then, I felt God's reply, and of humorous kind, He said:"Hmmm... if I clone you into 8 pieces, then the 8 of you will certainly come together to setup a LAN (Local Area Network) and then start playing multi-player RPG (Role Playing Game)!" Well... that's my God. :)

At times, I really cannot understand life, I mean as a human being living a life... There is so much things to take care of! From your very own family to friends, career, physical health, enjoyment, psychological and spiritual well-beings, etc. Then in your circumstances, i.e. the place you live and the surrounding places, of which in the end that defines the whole world, and if you would like to hold the link to further distance, there's an universe out there. The world has government, law, politics, religions, bu$ine$, economic, astronomy, sports, culture, languages etc. And forgetting not there's history, science, geography, arts, literature, etc. Simply too many things that I can ever think of.

But as only one human being, how can I live a perfect life? How about knowing everything? I was thinking, it can take whole lot of effort to "take care of yourself" already, but there's more to do! What do I mean by "take care of yourself"? Another words are "live healthily", to take care of your human body, from top to below, from hair to toe. Every part of our bodies are unique and therefore requires differentiated focus. I already cannot handle much. And I am still thinking of how to have a good diet habit so that I am healthier? To make the matter worse (or more challenging), the global warming has resulted in great impact. Humans are getting weaker and weaker. Diseases that we thought only old folks will get it, is now approaching the younger generations. Sometimes, because of DNA and stuff, your physical weakness will pass down to your lovely babies! Yes, there are babies born with certain sickness because of their fathers! That's so sad. That's only the physical part of human body. Another great piece of human, is the "mind" part you know? Your mindset is also very important, if you don't have a healthy mind, you will do crazy things. However if you have an open mind, you will probably do wondrous or incredible things! Until now, I am only talking about oneself.

Other than yourself, there's people around you, environment you live in, doing the things you love i.e. hobbies, having a job, earning salary and climbing the career stairs, etc. But we as only one person, what is the focus? or what are the focuses? In most cases, the majority will end up focusing on job or career of their lives. Why? Simply because there's $$$ factor involvement. In my Church, one of the main sermons is about "giving tithe & offering". Pastor Kong always says that "money = life" (I forgot the exact phrase he uses). And he will quote an example from working and earning salary. For example, if you work $10 per hour, and you work 8 hours per day. That 8 hours of your life is worth $80. Something like that.

I find it very true. Since young, I was thinking:

When you are working, you are earning money; when you are not working, then you are spending money.
做工的时候是在赚钱；没做工的时候是在花钱。

When we work, we get paid by timely basis or agreements. But the moment we are not working, i.e. after work, before work, on MC, on leave, and not to even mention unemployed, we are spending money... Transportation, electricity, water, eating, living, playing, communication, etc. One thing you can thank God of, is the air you breath is free of charge (as of until now)! Ok, time has changed, there are methods to earn money without you to spend time to work on it; there are ways to earn extra income, if not, to lose some money via investment and stuff, but that's not the focus now. So in everybody's life, money always matters though money is not everything in life. The classic saying still stands:

有钱不是万能的，但是没钱却是万万不能的！

In translation, it means that "money is not almighty, but definitely cannot be penniless!" Director Jack Neo (梁志强导演) has this movie called “钱不够用” (Money not enough) that was a big hit of the time because I think that it really speaks the heart of many souls, that money is not enough, and money is never enough!

Other than "money not enough", another crucial element that human always in lack of, is time! I find it interesting also, all of us are given 24 hours a day, and this appears to be a very fair allocation. However, why there're people who always appear to be so free at the same time there're people who are so busy? Well of course, many other factors come in. Because people are in search of the wisdom of timing, there ensued "time management" in the world. But after that, "effort management" came in, and then there are many "managementsss" also exists. It is just like, first there's only IQ (intelligent quotient), then came out EQ (emotional quotient). And after that, there are many 'Q'sss!

Come back to "time"... Sometimes I feel that I will get irritated by the saying "I'm bored", "I'm so boring". To me, there are always something that I can do, something that I can improve on. There is always a book for me to read... ... ... Eh... not enough. Let me rephrase: There are always books waiting for me to read, games waiting for me to play, a research topic for me to start on, a gadget to explore, movies or TVs shows or dramas to watch, musics to listen to, concerts to attend, skills to acquire, lessons / courses to take, friends to meet, muscles to develop, Bible verses to memorize, new vocab to learn, stories and articles to write, Birthday cards to make, things to arrange???, adventures awaiting, people to take care of, own body to take care also, understanding more about one person, get a girl friend (oops), events to plan and execute, shoppings and going places, etc. etc. There are simply too many things in the world and in life that one should never get bored with! How can people still say "I am boring"??? Haha... I know I am very bad / naughty regarding this lah... But the true is, people are not in lack of actions (i.e. things to do), but lack of desires... i.e. the purpose, the motivation of doing certain things. I think I've heard one saying, "is not no action, but no motivation". "Boring(ness)" is not lack of actions, but can be lack of "energy", i.e. you are physically tired when your mind is still pretty awake, or lack of "desire", i.e. you are mentally or emotionally weary when you just wake up in the morning after 9 hours of sleep!

Oops... Haven't really talk about my "Lieh-Not-Enough" yet. I guess I was just drawing the frames and background of my main topic, main juice... Haha... Anyways, Lieh-Not-Enough is a way to show my commitments in life and a reflection of me as another ordinary human, also having "time not enough", "money not enough", energy / effort not enough, love not enough, happiness not enough, etc. But only 1 thing is ever enough... ... ... Ok, 2 things. One is problem. I had enough problems! That's for sure. Another thing is enough. Because "enough is enough"! Haha... Don't understand? Nevermind, never let it in your mind.

Aijo... typed so long already... still got a lot more to write leh... But shall reserve it next time ba... Otherwise gonna be absolutely long and lengthy.

Dear God

Main Label: God & Spirituality

We love Him because He first loved us.

1 John 4:19

Dear God,
I love you. Thank you for giving me life and soul, the ability to think with wisdom, the ability to feel all the wonderful emotions, and the beautiful mind to see this world with love and hope. Forgetting not, the love for God, the love for Life and the love for every beautiful thing. I really appreciate my life as being "Wei Lieh". :D

I was hesitated to blog for some periods because I realized that my first blog did not mention much about You. Only say "I love You" at the end of the blog... I had a little shame about "not PGF" even in my blog. PGF, an acronym for "Put God First" that I've made up for myself. I know that You won't mind about this, but this is just a way to show my respect to You. However, right here and right now, I am dedicating my second blog to You. Ahaha...

Hmmm... talking about God huh... It got so much to say also. God, Jesus, Holy Spirit; God, the Divine Being; God, my closest friend in heart,... and many other more... My Dear God, I know that all the while You've been drawing me near to You ever since when I was young... When I was in primary 3, you inspired me to ask these questions: "Who created this world?" "What would it be like when the world is/has nothing?" Then when I was in secondary school, You lead me to person who answered part of my query and ignited my desire to know You from a Christian close friend whom also brought me to his neighborhood church. Then when I was in Polytechnic, though I did not attend church services, You still resolved my problem miraculously when I cried out to you without a voice in my mouth. Then in University (MDIS), You again used another Christian friend of mine (from my secondary school) to invite me to Church, and that's City Harvest Church. In this Church, I really learned a lot about You, Jesus, Love and many other things. This is the moment where I get to learn to hear from You, and having so many spiritual encounters with You. My knowledge and faith in You have grown much. I really love this Church~! That place really marks significant chapters in my life.

After 2 years or so, when I graduated and this was the time when my father asked me to go back to Malaysia to help him in his business. Although it was him who had initiated, I know that You also asked me to go back. In a vision, I was like stopped ang kneed down at a junction where there were 2 routes ahead, one pointing JB while the other Singapore, refusing to go on, and I was telling You, "God, but there are still so many things to do here, so many things that I can contribute to You." And then I just felt Jesus smiled at me and said:"That's enough. Let's do something else..." Somehow, I was really convinced by such words. And here I am, came back to JB for 2 years and 4 months already...

Serving God became much more difficult and inconvenience, I almost struggle every Sunday for me to go to Singapore Expo. But, You never stop making things easy for me. One year ago, You lead me to this book call "Conversation with God" by Neale Donald Walsch. My life had an almost 180 Degree turned.

There are people whom by attending seminars, services, reading a book, or watching a movie etc, change their life totally... They always say "it changed my life" and then cry... All the while, I have been looking for such thing to change my life... I was looking for a book that can change my life; I was watching movies in search of the inspiring concept; I was attending those so-called life changing seminars, attending service in the hope that the sermons will hit me with great impact... Those were great moment, really. But those were not bullseye that hit me with the right spot, right hot button. And then, I thought Jesus can, yes all the while I thought my beloved Jesus can, and He does, but still... All the while, I thought my beloved Holy Bible can, and the book does, yet again... Then You lead me into this book, I could still remember when I first started reading it, it was my Birthday. Again, are You trying to hint me something? Is this a present from You? Hah! This book IS the life changing element for me! Yes, it changed my life, just like the book says, it will change my life... And that leads to my current life situation...

No longer I... No longer I am so fervent for Jesus and church services. I pray and worship less, but I do still talk to Jesus... Difficulties and inconveniences are something, but this change of faith, change in my belief system, has done a great deal in hesitating me to attend church services. Every Sunday when I go to the service, it always have a difficult price to pay, every time I was like dragging myself to service. It really uncomfortable and my hearts always feel painful. I wanted to leave, like many other so-called "backsliders" do, to simply go MIA and never come back... But somehow I can't... I've love much that I am not willing to let go... Eventhough "I don't believe Christianity anymore", I still love this Church, the people and most importantly, the Presence of God here! God, why, God? Why is this happening to me? Why can't we settle for a simple life? Why you have to ring such a bell in my heart?

However, regardless of all these "battling of the mind" or the Christian faith's so-called "spiritual warfare", I still do enjoy life. I still do. "Enjoy life" does not necessary mean doing the things I love, having vacation everyday, living a stress-free life, simply doing nothing and letting myself rot. But to me it means to love every beautiful thing, to love every life and their story, to have passion and compassion, to shed tears for the things that have touched me greatly, to love the "feelings of love", to laugh really all out loud for the least or the most funniest and craziest things, to love and be loved, to serve and be served. Somehow, in my heart, I am contented. I know that I have loves and is being loved. And this is always the motivation of my life. When life gets much problems, troubles, disappointments, discouraged, etc., I get no strength to carry on. However, when I think about You and the every beautiful thing that I have come across with in my life, I know that I get refreshed and renewed in my heart to go on with life, to do the things that I really wanna do in my life.

Dear God, I have to say this... Only you are able, able to make me always look at the bright side of the hill; able to know my thoughts before I even think about it; able to encourage me with the right attitude and effective ways that within a second, I can still laugh at my situation, giving me a peace of mind, the wisdom, the courage and a heart that hopes all thing, in order for me to carry on doing the things I wanna do in my life. Only you are able to understand me, handle me, and knows what is best for me. You've known me inside out, outside in. You know every feelings that I treasure, my value system in life, my desires. And to me most importantly, You know how to make me work! Haha... most people don't, they simply command me, hoping I will do something, thinking that I should do this, should do that... But You know that those can't even make me move... Ahaha... Indeed God, I am ... ... ... mesmerized (I'm not sure whether this is a good word to use here) by You always... Amazed by the wonders of You, admire at Your beauty, dwell happily in the concept people call it "in-love". And I'm in love with You.

God, You have successfully entered my entire life. I wanna appreciate You by saying once again, "God, thank You and I love You... Please gimme a life partner..." Ahahahahahahaha... no lah, "Dear God, I thank You to be with me always, to allow me to be the person I want to be, to do the things that I want to do in my life. God, I love You from the fullness of my heart, the deepest of my desire and with much loves that cannot be expressed with words. Also with the loves that I have loved until I don't know how to love anymore I am saying this to You." *muak*