Main Label: Life Update
Well... Just wanna give another long entry of updates about this month, January 2009...
~ New Year "Common" Thoughts ~
Whenever new years draw in, people always commented this "time flies~~~", “一年就将过去了。。。” really, this year is also the same. Everyone seems to agree that time flies... It was like few months ago that we had our countdown party like that, but we had it another one for 2009 already... sigh...
Usually, I don't like to go countdown one... What is the purpose for counting down? It is like... "5, 4, 3, 2, 1, 0... Happy New Year", and you go about wishing people "Happy New Year~!", but my heart, my mind always say this "Happy New Year, One Year Older~!" so, what's the big fuzz huh? Anyway, I only join people for counting down event merely for the gathering, the fellowship purpose one...
~ New Year Old Problems ~
Indeed, a brand new year has come. But old problems and challenges does not fade off, nor resolved nor overcome. And new challenges are knocking in your heart of door! It is always like that... Sometimes, I really don't like "new years", every time when new year come, I am really refreshed because I can start things anew. It is always like that, people have the mentality that when new year come, you will have new resolution and stuff. This is the same to me. But when I have the mind of "the start of something new", then I am reminded again for the failure that I had encountered in the past, year after year, when I tried to do something to improve myself, to clear off my long To-Do-List (TDL), problems are coming excitingly to make things complicated to me. Sometimes I resolved certain problems, but most of the time, major problems are like big stumbling block, or road block that get in my way... This always got me thinking... "why am I doing this? I should have spent my time doing the things that I love to do, instead of wasting my time here" A simple task can exhaust most of my time and effort just because unnecessary problems join in. I do consider myself a positive person, I tried to solve those problems that I can, but there are times, problems I alone cannot solve by myself and the fact is, there is only me doing this. :( I am positive, but again, I am not a very determined, long stamina person. In fighting problems over a long period of time, I guess, I will eventually be defeated... This is what I wanted to change again in this new year. Though I may not very determined, but still, I am a very stubborn person~! (not the way you can see it usually, my stubbornness is not easily spotted on) I don't want to give up~! I will try my best to "retry", "Try again"~! This is the game-playing spirit~! Wahahaha~~~
~ New Year New Problems ~
While old problems piled up, new problems also like to join into the fun. This year I got new things to do... Cholesterol to minimize, fats to burn, new company works, and Eliz (one of my "favourite" CG friend) has asking me to commit into the CG's very own blog. The usual-don't-know-how-to-say-no-me wouldn't bear to reject her, so... Ai... more things for me lor... Regardless, I am thinking that this is the least I can do for the CG ba...
While I guess everyone has their goal setting done, I still the same, couldn't get myself the time to do it... Well... busyness. I will think that this year's Chinese New Year come in rather early, it is at end of January. However, the work itself also got many stuff to do, like prepare documents for audit, calculating bonuses etc etc... And to add, I got a brand new company to take care of. In fact, before the new year started, I had done the design of payment and receiving vouchers, official receipts, and sent it for printing. My father wanted this new company to start operation in this new year, so I was rather busy again. And all this busyness had left me and my family not much time for the spring clean for the Chinese New Year~! And that's why... I am very occupied by this January... and now is the 20th day of the new year already! 6 more days toward Chinese New Year some more~! Lieh-not-enough~!
~ My Sundays Usage ~
I used 2 Sundays for the spring cleaning also not enough~! on 4th Jan, I was asked by father to replace the old, colour-faded, electric lanterns in front of the living room's main door, my "Chinese garden, the 中国亭", and the side area... I thought of doing some cleaning on the wire part also, well... this whole process used up that Sunday of mine. And it was only like half done. It was only fully completed like on the Tuesday. I wanted to take the photo of these new lanterns... But... erm... lazy lor...
The next Sunday I managed to go to Singapore for Service, because I had met friends for a belated Birthday celebration on the Saturday evening. Minnie and I managed to watch the "Ponyo on the Cliff by the Sea" movie before meeting the others. That Saturday evening had a "little story" in my family... My mum also came into Singapore with me actually. She went to attend the company dinner by my 二姐's husband's family business. It was a major event for them, my 二姐 thought that I will be going, but instead, I went to meet my friends. She was disappointed. In the end, my 四姐, aka Finn aka Ah Bee went to the dinner with my mum instead.
Everyone in my family automatically put me into the dinner, as if I am sure to go, I am always free to go. But my friends and I already settled that Saturday for the gathering, because our time are also very, extremely difficult to coordinate, everyone seems to be busy with other things during the weekends. So it is also very rare for us to have a gathering, and I am not willing to give up this meeting for anything, that includes the company dinner. Then, I felt very "strange"... It seems like it is a very big thing to my family that I am not able to go for the company dinner... Everyone was assuming that I can go, and when they realized that I cannot go, they will keep asking me and one another, why I cannot go. Well... this is so strange to me... It is a big thing to them that I cannot make it for the company dinner~!
Actually, this is what I want to "break the pattern" in the mind of my family... I am using this opportunity to do it. I really don't like their assumptions... I felt disrespected by their assumptions. No one had asked me to go, they expected / presumed me to go! I am not invited, but I am an automatically-added guest. Well, good and no good. But I just don't like it. I have my own time to do my own things too! There are many words and thoughts and feelings about this. But I don't want to go about that here. I am now grateful that I used this opportunity to break the mindset of my family...
Coming back to the Sunday bah... I stayed overnight in my 二姐's newly renovated house. It was all nicely done. And I went to the Expo's Service the next moring (i.e. 11th January). It was John Bevere~! Actually he was rather "familiar" to me, I think I didn't hear his preaching before, but his name just so familiar that I can remember easily... Only like about 75% time of his preaching, when he talks about his experience in writing books or translating his books, that's the time I realized that I get to know his name in Christian books... He wrote a lot of Christian books. And the name "John Bevere" is always seen in the Christian bookstores and in the midst of Christian bookshelves!
About his sermon that day... Man, it was like another surprise from God. The day before, I was thinking about "Honour your father and mother" (Exodus 20:12, Deuteronomy 5:16). And I always have this desire, that to honour my father and mother. And once in a while, I will imagine, think about how can I honour them. That Saturday, I thought a lot about it again. I was so inspired and stuff... And on the Sunday morning, his topic was "Honour's Reward". And one of the note was definitely "Honour your father and mother". I was so wanted to buy the "Honour's Reward"'s book and CDs... But in the end, I didn't... Because it was too expensive~~! Haha... Nevertheless, I am once again be thankful to God that he is like telling me, "I am not forgotten"...
Last Sunday... i.e. 18th January. The day before, I was thinking whether should I go to Singapore until my father had asked me not to go and stay at home to do spring cleaning. Then, no choice, no need to go Singapore liao lor. I spent that Sunday vacuum-cleaning the ceilings, until afternoon, I only managed to complete the downstairs' rooms. And I went to exercise after I had my nap. XP
About spring cleaning... I have that mixed feelings... Sometimes I really don't like to do it, but there are times I really want to do it. One of my goal, erm, life time goal, is to take initiative to do this spring cleaning before my father asked me to do. This year, I managed to notice that he bought new lanterns, but failed to initiated the replacement. I asked my father how much he bought for those lantern, but he didn't really answer my question, instead, he asked me to replace them! I was like... “炸到”. So next time, I must do it before he even asked. Then last week, he had asked me to vacuum clean the ceilings... Hmmm... next time I wanted to do this before he even asked too!
On the other hand, it is a really tiring, boring, time-wasting job to do spring clean. My progress is always slow, and until now, I haven't found a time for myself to do some goal setting yet, and January 2009 is soon going to finish~! That's why I will feel unwilling and reluctant to do it sometimes, I will prefer some personal time before I want to commit all these... Man, all and all, it all goes back to the title of this blog "Lieh-Not-Enough"~! And there is only me... :(
But anyway, I think I should put this "Chinese New Year Spring Cleaning" in to my TDL... To jot down what to do, all the list of tasks, and proposed time-frame of doing those tasks, etc, etc. And there are certain cleaning that can be done by external professional service, such leather car seats I guess... Such stuff can be done much earlier before Chinese New Year... Yah, something like that.
Hmmm... So many more things to tell... I even wanted to say something about my "Christmas Gifts Harvest" last year and thoughts... But... Nevertheless, I should stop blogging and get going with my work and spring clean now!
